Decissions we make By: surf_toad Post Feedback | Printer Friendly Format [NULLIFICATION] This is purely fantacy.  there are some factual references, but any names and descriptions are purely accidental Newest Files It was one of those winter days that seem to never quit.  The room was warm, but I had been feeding the fire since 5am and the rain.   That rain!  It has not stopped for 10 days.  It seems that it has been raining for a year.  Has it already been a year?  Maybe.   I am alone ...

musings from a chatroom junky By: surf_toad Post Feedback | Printer Friendly Format [frustration] i am tired tonight and thought it had been a while since i contributed last. Newest Files I was devastated again. Another miss. I had been chatting forever with this person that was tired of all the bullshit that travels freely around the net. But when it came time to actually call or go to coffee and meet, well the cold feet set in. Not mine, mind you and I was the one that had everything to loose ...

Preface:  This is mealy a fantasy of mine.  While it could easily be a reality, it will probably never really happen, but we all are free to dream.     I had a rather interesting vacation.  One I could never forget in a million years.  It seems like these things are supposed to happen once in a lifetime.  I guess it was just my turn.  I have never wanted to be male, but I had resigned myself to this as my punishment for being borne and lived my life as best I could.  I just figured that...

“How would you like to be freed from all responsibility?  Just disappear from your life and become someone’s property?  A mere possession, perhaps?  This is not an easy life, but if your current one is not going where you planned, let me know.  I am the trainer of very “unique” servants.  Quiet boys.  Good Boys.  Sound interesting?  Contact me then at Addholder 2736”.   It sounded innocent enough at first.  I mean my life sucked.  I really did not have anything I was interested e...

I was told that I should get used to just lying still for a few days.  The pain was steady and was not going away for a while.  All I had was ice bags for it.  This was not a hospital and there was no way I could get medicine for pain.  They had burned the stump with a hot iron sometime after I passed out in the house and it looked really ugly.  They said it was necessary only if the band slipped off, otherwise I would probably bleed to death.  There was no way to get me to the hospital an...

When I was first recovering, they said it would take a week for the dead skin above the band to fall off.  It took a full 10 days.  I felt this pop and then it was gone. All that was left was just a little piece of dried up stuff and a band on the floor.  I looked down and saw this little button and that was all.  Just then Jean walked in and looked at me.  She told me to follow her to the servants dinning room and had me lay on the table.  She deflated the balloon at the end of the cathet...

I am older now. Older. Sometimes wisdom is derived from bad judgment. We are, after all, a product of the decisions we made. Mine were seldom good, and for years they were not mine to make. I am an eunuch. I am a former slave, now free to live out my days alone. I have been discharged. It is almost a relief as it is a deep loneliness and since of loss. I sit at the bar, but across the room she sits. Antonia. She was my former owner and the holder of my sex. She sits alone now. Waiting. She waits...

I was thumbing through what I thought was an old bondage rag and I saw an interesting add. I read it there at the stand and had to have it just to have it for a quick bathroom session. It just made me hot. “Unique servant. This unit comes pre-trained as a personal attendant. It does not ask for wages or allowances, merely food and some clothing. It will do your dishes, cook your food and mow the lawn. It even does windows! It never complains, and though it is rather expensive, over the course o...