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First Boy  by Ganymede

Chapter One.

It was cold, so cold that two thick blankets were not
enough to keep the creeping chill from the bed. Even with a
hangover it was obvious that sometime during the night the heater
had stopped working. I had consumed equal parts of tequila,
triple-sec, dark rum, and freshly squeezed lime juice until I
staggered to the bathroom, splattered piss over the seat and
floor, and collapsed in the nearest chair. I could not even
remember getting into bed and pulling the blankets over me. Like
every moment of my day (and night) my thoughts drifted to boys,
or to be more accurate, one boy in particular.

I dozed with thoughts of Shelley, no longer inebriated, yet
still in a soporific stupor that would last until midday. With
luck I would not forget any of the dreams I had.

Then the phone rang. I heard a single word before I replaced
the receiver with a loud bang. He gave only his first name. That
was enough for the caller was a person who I would never forget.
There was only one reason why he was calling me.

"Fuck!" I swore.

The phone rang again. This time I let it ring, pulling the
pillow over my head rather than venture out from the limited
warmth afforded by the blankets. Without an answering system, the
phone continued to ring.

Persistently, its strident note penetrated the foam pillow
and reached its harsh demand for attention into my consciousness.

"Fuck!" I cursed again. I picked up the telephone, resisting
the urge to tear the line out once and for all. "Yes?"

"You know who it is! This is Jacob Wilderstein!"

"I know who the fuck it is!" I spat out. "I don't take calls
from assholes!"

"Very funny. I have a job for you, Rick."

"The hell you do. I don't work for assholes either."

"What are you doing nowadays?"

"That's none of your business," I snarled. "I'm freelance
now."

"So I hear. Keeping real busy too, I understand."
Wilderstein added sarcastically.

"My clients have interests that need taking care off. I get
rid of problems for them."

"When you worked for the Agency you were good at handling
unusual problems. I've got one right now that might be very
interesting to you."

"I'm not working for you any longer. I took early
retirement, remember?" I replied angrily.

"I remember. It was a difficult situation, wasn't it?
However, I think you still owe me one," Wilderstein said.

"I owe you?" I asked dryly. "Get real! I owe you nothing,
Wilderstein."

"Really?"

"Forget it! I'm out of it! Gone, Finished!"

"Really? Now, Rick you're not out of it yet. Not after what
you did with that cute little blond boy you met in Arlington.
What was his name? Martin wasn't it? It was about four months
ago, I think. I'm sure you haven't forgotten him already."
Wilderstein joked.

In the back of my head, an alarm bell went off with a loud
clang. I tensed, waiting to hear the rest of what he knew. The
silence lengthened until there was no point in concealing what
both of us knew. He had told me that he not only knew about
Martin, he also knew about Shelley. I sighed.

"Shelley. His name was Shelley," I answered testily.

There was an period of dead silence. Blackmail was a fact of
life with people like Jacob Wilderstein, their protestations of
national security to the contrary. I could hear his barely
restrained mirth when he began to talk again.

"Don't you wonder why he likes you so much? You're so old
it must seem to him like you're his father."

"Get to the point!" I countered angrily.

"There's no big rush. Surely you know by now that I always
try hard to take care of my friends, Rick. Even when they have
unusual interests like yours. Maybe I should say especially when
they have skills like yours."

"Very funny! I'm not in the mood to fuck around with you.
What do you want?" I demanded.

"I'm hardly someone you'd want to fuck around with, am I? I
have a job for you." Wilderstein answered. "Are you interested in
volunteering?"

"No!"

"It really doesn't matter. But then you probably realize
that, don't you Rick? This is a matter of national security. I'm
not going to bullshit you. It's important. The fact is you're the
best person for the job."

"I don't care if the fate of the world hangs in the balance.
I'm out of it. I've been out of it four nearly four years."

"You really don't have a choice," Wilderstein said.

"Maybe I'll still say no!" I replied.

My mind plotted quickly. I could be away in a few hours.
There was nothing to keep me in Annapolis. I would need to go to
the bank, spend a few hours at the marine store, supermarket, and
liquor store, and then I could head south. By evening I would be
all way the down the Chesapeake, and either follow the
Intercoastal all the way to Florida or head out to sea in my 27
foot sailboat. With luck, I could stay out of sight long enough
for Wilderstein and his Agency friends to lose interest.

"I really don't think so. There are some photos of you and
little Shelley Lawlor sitting here on my desk. He doesn't have
any clothes on. In fact, neither do you!"

"Get to the point!"

"I can't believe you did it to him. You put it in his ass
and he was barely ten at the time." Wilderstein waited a few
seconds, still smirking crudely. "Well,... I guess you knew how
old he was when you got into bed with him. At that age I'm
surprised he was old enough to enjoy it. But he enjoyed it,
didn't he?"

"Fuck you!"

"Now Rick, there's no need to be vulgar about it. I expect
he's still got a few years before he starts puberty. Of course,
you would have known that as soon as he took his clothes off. I
guess you really like your boys hairless."

I shrugged. "Get to the point, damn you!"

"Talk about jail-bait. I would have thought you were smart
enough to find your little boy-sluts down in Mexico instead of
shopping locally. What happened, Rick? Couldn't you control
yourself? can't afford the airfare to Acapulco?"

I sighed, half closing my eyes. It had been far too easy at
the time, but I was desperate to fulfill my longing. It had been
too long to go without. I thought I had been careful, very
careful to make sure it wasn't a trap, but I had not been careful
enough. Old habits died hard, but when the opportunity
unexpectedly presented itself, I could not resist. I could never
resist a beautiful boy who wanted nothing more than to be loved.
It was very easy with Shelley. He did know who his father was.
His mother was only a a dim memory. On reflection, it was too
easy.

I remembered thinking I was in love the instant I saw him.
For the first time, everything fell into place. He was lonely,
unloved, curious, more than willing. Just looking at him was
enough to make my heart race.

What happened in the hotel room was entirely mutual. At
times, it even seemed as if our roles were reversed.

In a way, I had been seduced by a little boy. I was unable
to stop myself. The sight of his slender naked body sent me over
the edge. He was prepubescent and flawless. He was beautiful and
intelligent. Despite his youth, he was easily aroused. He
exhibited his sexuality with few inhibitions. He was excited just
as I was excited.

He was so aggressively affectionate with me that it was
impossible to be content to just lie in the bed with his lean hot
body draped over mine and our genitals pressed together. He was
not a street hustler, yet he knew what to do. I sensed his joy
when he began to move, rubbing that hard hot part of him against
my lower belly. He closed his eyes, breathing deeply as he
shamelessly reached down and placed my penis between his thighs,
clamped his legs tightly against my erection. He began moving
faster, pumping our throbbing sex organs. There was no secret
about his experience. Some of it was with another boy, a year or
two older than he was. The rest? I closed my mind to the question
and allowed him to take control. Whatever sexual activity had
occurred in his past, it was more than sufficient for him to tell
me what he wanted me to do to him. After only a few minutes the
shameless words were whispered, and then he smiled and rolled
onto his back. He held nothing back, guiding my maleness into the
hot tight tube, groaning as my penis arched deeper and filled his
core. I came quickly the first time, shooting my seed into him
with more pleasure than I could remember in four years. The
haunting memories of Manuel had finally been vanquished.

That afternoon, I discovered that the slender boy was also
very athletic. We made love almost continually, discovering
positions that were both original and satisfying. When we finally
struggled into our clothes, we were both exhausted. In
retrospect, it was too good to be true. My lust triumphed over
reason and restraint. Now, after years of taking great care to
protect my secret, it seemed that I had made a grave mistake.

"You haven't changed, Wilderstein. You're still an asshole.
Is it freelance, this time or a job for the Agency?" I asked
cynically.

"Let's just say that it's a sponsored project. Of course,
the Agency is aware I'm here, but you'll be working in a private
capacity."

"Meaning that the Agency wants to keep its hands clean. God,
this must be bad," I mused. "Why me? Why not one of the regular
outside contractors?"

"Hm,... I think you know the answer to your own question.
Why we aren't using an outside contractor is the same reason that
the Agency wants nothing to do with it. If it sours they want to
have clean hands."

"It's inside the Agency then?" I posed.

"No! However, in a way it's no different."

"High up then?" I asked. "It sounds like it must be."

"Very high! It's very serious, Rick. We need someone who has
the right qualifications,... an in-depth knowledge of inside
situations, and the right background. Ideally, we need someone
who can move quickly and think on the fly. And especially no
connection to the subject or the Agency."

"I'm not your man."

"You're not ideal. I know that. But you in one way you have
the perfect cover because of your work down south."

I shuddered, blocking the memory of four years ago. "Why
don't you pick someone from outside the Agency? There are a few
people I know who meet your specs. I can think of a couple at
least who know as much as I do about moles, and,..."

Wilderstein interrupted me abruptly. "Were it so easy as
catching a mole.

This is different. Let's just say that you have another
unique skill that is needed for the job, Rick."

"Meaning I'm expendable and they're not," I posited.

"It won't come to that. At least I don't think so. This is
a quick operation. In and out, and then you disappear forever."

"God! It must be high. The Director?" I asked curtly even as
I realized it must be someone close to the top to demand an
approach that left no indication that the anything had occurred."

"I wish! But you're going right direction. It's with one of
our friends in the nation's capital."

"If it's not inside the Agency, then it rightly belongs to
the Bureau!" I retorted sarcastically.

"Very funny. The Bureau is so fucked up, they can't find the
way to the john. Hell, you might as well give it to Justice to
screw up. It'll be just like Waco. This is in the Agency because
no one else can do it, Rick. It should be quite easy! No one will
suspect you. There's no problem getting in and out. There's no
danger involved either. You'll be on the sideline all the time,
more or less.

Once it's finished you walk away and we never bother you
again. Besides, this is right down your alley. It's something you
ought to enjoy!"

"What on earth are you talking about?"

Wilderstein laughed. "You know about boys, Rick. That's all
I can say over an unsecured phone. If you're interested, and I
know you will be because of the photos I'm holding, I can give
you an address."

"Where?"

"19th Street. You remember the place in Rosslyn?"

"Top floor. Room 906," I sighed.

I had been there only one time. The CIA had used the
location for an aborted project that had started five years
earlier. That failure was one of the reasons why I resigned. The
boy I loved had been mutilated and two agents had been murdered
at a deserted airfield in Texas.

"I'll expect you at noon!" Wilderstein said before the phone
clicked and went dead.

However, Wilderstein had awaken memories that once
initiated, could not be quelled no matter how much I tried. I
could not stand to go through the same situation again. I wanted
his warm body lying next to me, to feel his inquisitive fingers
exploring, giving pleasure, teasing me into erection, placing me
in position. I lay back in bed, wondering whether I should call
Shelley to make sure he was safe. A quick glance at my watch told
me he was already on his way to school. It would have to wait
until 3.00 p.m. I smiled, remembering a cold afternoon in Fall, a
little blond boy with sky-blue eyes and a beaming smile, and how
much I had loved him after spending only a few hours together in
a hotel room a few blocks off the Mall.

Chapter Two. Four Months Earlier

The car beside me was innocuous, yet it immediately captured
my attention. Dated early eighties, it was one of the cheap
sedans that were identified by Chrysler as "K" cars and were sold
by the millions. It was dull gray, without any remaining polish.
God only knows why I happened to look sideways. Destiny, I
suppose, although I did not know at the time that fate would give
me a preview of what my future held. Perhaps it was the result of
being a spook, years of experience that caused suspicion to exist
where there was no reasonable foundation. It was enough that I
looked. The fleeting image would stay with me forever.

There were five of them in the car. Two in the front, three
in the back, a curious mixture of young and old, male and female,
black and white. The driver was a woman in her late forties or
early fifties, white hair pulled into a bun, visibly overweight.
Beside her sat a dark-skinned girl, maybe in her early teens.

She wore a bright-red dress. However, it was the passengers
in the back seat who held my attention. Nearest to my car was a
dark-skinned boy with closely cropped frizzy hair. He looked to
be about fifteen, perhaps the brother of the girl in front. Next
to him sat a balding young man with a neck like a bull. I
glimpsed his features when he turned to look at me. I almost
turned away. Although there was no immediately visible
deformation, there was something about his face that was not
normal. He had thick lips, a broad forehead, closely cropped
hair. His cheeks had been ravaged by adolescent pimples and were
pock-marked. His receding chin and thick neck were stippled with
a day-old stubble. Beside him and in startling contrast, on the
far side of the car was the most beautiful boy I had ever seen.
In fact, at first glance I actually thought "he" was a "she".

He was young, nine or ten years old at most. His hair was
long, curling, and very blond. It glistened like brushed gold. He
was slightly built, yet not what I would call 'skinny', not at
all like the Mexican street boys I used to relieve myself. Even
from a distance I appreciated that he was exactly the type of boy
I had fantasized about since I was a boy myself.

His head lifted up and for a fraction of a second his eyes
met mine.

Surprisingly, his head turned to follow me when the car he
was in pulled ahead of mine. We looked at each other through the
rear window of his car. He smiled momentarily, an earnest look in
his eyes that conveyed an inner longing. Other boys have looked
at me like that. It was a look that said, 'I know you are looking
at me because I'm beautiful.' At least that was what I wanted to
think, and then my view was blocked out when a brown delivery van
passed between us. Behind me, an impatient driver was angrily
sounding his horn. I gestured rudely and he hit the horn again
both harder and longer in impotent response at being delayed.
Ahead, I saw the car turning into a side street. I accelerated
quickly and tried to get ahead of the delivery van, however I was
already passed the corner.

At the next corner I turned and drove quickly back to the
previous block. They were walking along the street headed away
from the Mall. When they turned into number 1951, I got a much
better look and my mouth dropped open in surprise.

Ten minutes later I was sitting at my desk, still dreamily
thinking about the boy in the car. However, there was work to be
done. It was not work that I wanted to do, although in part it
was very enjoyable. There were two groups of files. One was on
the floor, stacked in a pile that reached halfway to the top of
my desk. There were nearly a hundred of them. The other group of
three manila folders lay on my leather pad. Although the decision
had been made, it was not irrevocable. I picked up the top file
and reclined in my chair. I opened it, lifting out the eight-by-
ten glossy. I held it in one hand while I read aloud from the
bio-sheet, interpolating freely as I went.

"Alan Hewer. Age 12. Born Sussex, England. So you're
English, huh Alan? You're a real doll, Alan!" I mused aloud while
wondering whether he was homo sexually inclined.

He looked like he might be, but long ago I had discovered
that appearances could be deceiving. I continued to read the
material in the file, looking for further clues to his sexual
disposition, as much out of curiosity as a need to confirm what I
had suspected from the moment I laid eyes on the photograph. Out
of the three files, he was the only one I continued to have
doubts about. Several days of without masturbating had not helped
my mood.

"Mother, Margaret K., Father, James Roger. And I see Mr.
Hewer works for CitiBank. The family came to the US in 1992. You
probably no accent left by now. Pity, Alan. You look like a real
cutie-pie." I continued to think and read aloud, interpreting as
I went. "Previous experience: hmmm, I see you've done a few
commercials for cereal. Not much in the last year except the
usual mart ads in the Sunday papers."

Almost all the boys had done mart ads at one time or
another. They alternated among catalogs for Sears, K-mart,
Walmart, and a host of other retail chains. A few of the files
had even included the catalog pages, safely protected by plastic
covers. Alan's mart work included the fall catalog for a national
retail chain. He photographed nicely and from the beaming smile
on his face, I imagined that the photographer had fun working
with him.

"I see you also did a milk-ad in June. With your English
complexion, you certainly have the face for a milk commercial," I
chuckled.

I smiled. Another quick glance at the photograph. He had a
very pretty face. Slightly dimpled cheeks, cheeks that looked
like a rouge-blush had been applied. Button nose. Straight, blond
hair. Light-blue eyes. He was angelic-looking. He was a perfect
specimen of boyhood, clearly belonging in the much-preferred
category. I had immediately picked him out from the hundred other
boys aged between ten and twelve. On the downside, Alan Hewer was
nearly at the upper age-limit, not that it was all that important
for the assignment. At twelve, most boys had either started
puberty, or were so close to sprouting pubic hair that my client
would not derive sufficient benefit from the relationship to
justify the cost. It was a pity the search to Ty's replacement
had not started a year or two earlier. Based on the unproven
hypothesis that Alan was gay, I would have received a large
finder's fee.

I put the file down and picked up the next one.

With a birthday in early May, the second boy had just turned
ten.

'Surfer-type', I thought as I studied the photograph of
Jeffrey Montell.

His hair was bleached-blond. Of course, he probably had
never been near a surfboard, and not because he lived outside DC.
Only a few serious models have the time to do anything except
model, and from studying his file I knew that this boy was very
serious, almost as serious as his doting mother.

He had the face and body for a successful career, at least
until he was well into puberty and the ravages of adolescent
acne. Already, he had obtained a six-month contract to model
jeans for a well-known clothing company. In one half-page full-
color provided with the file, he looked exceptionally sexy. All
he wore, were faded denim jeans. From the waist up, he was ideal.
Lightly tanned, well-defined muscles, small navel and barely
discernible nipples. There was only problem with Jeffrey
Montrell. It had taken only one afternoon to confirm the obvious.
Jeffrey was more than a homosexual in the making, he was actively
seeking out sex. I smiled, imagining what his mother would do if
she knew where her precious son was spending his afternoons after
school. I had watched him through binoculars from inside my car.
If my suspicions were correct, Jeffrey spent the best part of an
hour on his back every day, doing it with the janitor of the
apartment building where he lived. He was the easy solution.
Except for the fact that he had more than likely been exposed to
AIDS, or would be in the near future, I would have had no
hesitation in getting him into my own bed for some fun and games.

I turned to the third and last file. Shelley James Lawlor.
In my opinion, he was the best of three. Even his name conveyed
'gay'. He was still a few months shy of ten years old, and he
looked even younger. He had the face, the body, the talent, and
more than likely, if my suspicions were correct, more than enough
'interest' for the job. Although I knew the details of his file
by heart, I examined his biographical data for the umpteenth
time, filling in the missing details with what I had gleaned by a
few hours of very discreet surveillance and a credit report on
his foster mother.

He was born in Maryland. His mother died in a car wreck at a
railway crossing when he was four years old. His father was not
identified on his birth certificate. Presently, he lived with a
foster family under the care of Julia Louise Harmon. She was
currently unemployed, and had spent some time in drug
rehabilitation. Despite her past history, she had been qualified
to provide foster care for the last seven years.

They lived on the east side of Washington with a ninety-two-
thousand dollar-mortgage on a small stucco-and-wood-framed house,
and seven thousand in unpaid credit card bills, a further
indication that during the last few years, Julia, her retarded
son, and the three children who lived with her had barely
survived. Still, despite their dire situation, she had been able
to find the money to hire a good photographer, and pay
Hammerstein Modelling Inc. the hundred-dollar fee to become
agents for Shelley's modelling career. The only problem was that
this truly remarkable boy had never received a single modelling
assignment. Shelley had not done even one mart ad. Given how
attractive he was, there was probably a good reason, and I
suspected the foster mother adversely affected the boy's
opportunities.

There were two photographs of Shelley James Lawlor. One was
of his head and shoulders only. I gazed at a perfect face. He was
very good-looking, so attractive that beautiful would not be an
exaggeration. He had naturally blond hair.

He had very big, startlingly-blue eyes. His eyes were not as
pale as Alan Hewer's eyes. They were almost the color of the sky
on a clear day. His eyes gave him an innocent appearance, but his
lips said otherwise. They were full, red, and femininely shaped,
almost begging to be kissed. His hair was long and cupped his
face, the fringe coming just past his eyebrows, touching the
collar of his shirt at the back. He was ideal for my client.

In the other photograph, Shelley had been very carefully
dressed for the right effect. If anything communicated that he
was 'gay' it was that one photograph. It was almost as if he was
auditioning to play the part my client had in mind for him. His
clothes gave new meaning to the word 'sexy'. He was lithesome, a
few inches short of five feet, probably weighing less than eighty
pounds. He stood next to a bicycle, wearing a tight-fitting shirt
and spandex shorts that reached to his knees. While the only bare
flesh visible was his arms and legs, it was easy to fill in the
rest. His body would be flawless. I smiled, wondering how he
would be perceived.

>From my point of view, his physique was a perfect '10', and,
as an added bonus, his crotch was compact compared to most
prepubertal boys. Like most boylovers, my client preferred his
boys not to be over-endowed. I was no different.

There was a flat lop-sided crease in his shorts to indicate
both the position and approximate size of his penis. I smiled,
considering how many of the one hundred files had provided a
photograph of the subject with a visibly erect penis. I expected
one or two, because it usually paid to advertise in this
business. After more study, I estimated three inches or less,
with nothing in the 'ball department' to get worried about. It
would be a few more years before Shelley Lawlor was big enough
for my client to lose interest. He would probably be well in his
teens before he was able to come in any significant quantity and
by then my client would have become bored with him.

"Well, Shelley, I said you were the one the first time I
laid eyes on your photo. You're the winner! I guess it's time I
had a talk to your mother about your future with my boy-loving
friend. If you only knew what could be in store for you over the
next two or three years."

I picked up the telephone and pressed "I" for "intercom".
Almost instantaneously, my secretary picked up.

"If Ms. Harmon is waiting, send her in," I said. "Keep the
boy waiting outside until I call for him."

Less than a minute passed before Shelley's foster mother was
shown in. I stood, waiting until the door closed behind her.
There was no question that she was an unpleasant woman. If one
was inclined towards the opposite sex, Julia would quickly
convert you. I walked across the room, my hand extended.

"Good afternoon, Ms. Harmon," I said with a smile that gave
nothing away.

"I'm Rick Barrett," I said with a smile. "I work for the
Holland Company. I'm doing the recruiting for the ad you're here
about.

We shook perfunctorily, not unexpectedly because Ms. Harmon
had been told that she would be meeting the owner himself. A
face-to-face meeting with Peter Hammond would come later, once
the details of Shelley's 'contract' had been worked out.

However, the first meeting would be a social meeting, an
opportunity for my client to meet his new boyfriend.

"Please sit down, Ms. Harmon," I said with a generous
gesture towards the faux-Chippendale chair in front of my desk.

She slid into the chair, crossed two very slender legs, and
watched me sit down. I regarded her, thinking thoughts that she
would not appreciate.

"Ms. Harmon, you don't mind if I call you Julia, do you?" I
asked.

She smiled and inclined her head slightly. I took that as a
'yes'.

"Well, Julia, the good news is that we have picked Shelley
out from among a hundred other boys. He's a very good looking
young boy."

She nodded slightly and waited for me to continue.

"He could compete with Aaron Carter in the looks department.
He's good the right look for today's market. He has a very good
chance at getting the job. However, there are two other boys we
also want to audition."

She beamed instantly. Without stretching the imagination, it
was possible to see her mind like a cash register, then she
frowned.

"Audition? I thought you wanted Shelley to model for a swim
wear ad."

I nodded vaguely, choosing my words very carefully. It was a
game I was good at playing.

"The ad is only a part of what we,... what the company has
in mind. It's entirely possible that the boy who we select will
do more than stand in front of a camera."

"Oh? I didn't realize. Hammerstein's didn't say anything at
all about that."

Julia studied me for a few seconds. I quickly revised my
analysis of her. She was street-wise. I could smell her piqued
interest. Slowly, she smiled.

"Well I'm quite sure that Shelley can do whatever you want.
He's been taking lessons for the last two years. He's really very
good, even though he hasn't done anything in front of a camera
yet,..."

I nodded abruptly. Julia Harmon had a tendency to run on.
"Of course there's a chance it won't work out,..." I smiled
slightly. "What role Shelley gets really depends on him, on what
he wants to do."

"In what way?" Julia asked uncertainly.

I leaned back in my chair. "Mmmm,.... well you know what
they say, show business is show business. It depends upon what
Shelley is prepared to do to get the part."

"In what way?" Julia repeated.

I heard the nervous inflexion in her voice and I suppressed
a smile. There was only one reason why Shelley's full-length
photograph featured an erection.

"I think you know, Julia."

She regarded me blankly, her eyes never leaving mine. I
marked time, waiting.

"Perhaps I do," she muttered.

"My client is a very wealthy man and he has very particular
tastes. He's rich enough to indulge those tastes," I added slyly.
"I think we both agree that Shelley's a very good-looking boy.
The ad is his if you're interested."

I continued to watch her surreptitiously while I glanced
through the notes I had placed inside Shelley's file.

"I'm interested."

"Good. Then what I'm about to say shouldn't come as a
complete surprise. The fee is the standard rate for juveniles.
We'll pay $300 an hour plus expenses. We'll arrange for the
photographer and a location to be as close as possible to where
you live. We want the photos taken at the beach, so there might
be some travel. It might be difficult to get a time during the
weekend when it isn't too crowed, so he might have to take some
time of during school."

"That's okay. Will your client be there?" Julia asked
quickly.

I looked at her, pretending surprise. "I don't imagine so.
Why do you ask?"

Julia reddened slightly. She swallowed, her gaze unwavering.
"Well, no reason in particular,... After what you just said,... I
mean, well,... personally I was just interested, you know," she
said awkwardly.

"He's a very busy man," I replied ambiguously. "However it
might be arranged, under the right circumstances."

"Which are?"

I shrugged. I needed to say just enough to leave her with
the obvious conclusion. "If Shelley wants to audition for the
other work, it won't be an issue, Julia. My client may want to
meet him,... if Shelley is who he wants."

I wondered whether Julia comprehended what I had in mind by
'audition for the other work'. I was constantly surprised by how
naive even highly intelligent people can be. On the intelligence
scale, Julia Harmon was on the low end. However, I suspected that
she was anything but naive. There was only one way to find out.

"Let's cut to the chase, Julia," I said boldly. "I think
you've got it pretty much figured out. My client is what is often
referred to as a boy lover."

"I'm not surprised," Julia said snidely. "When I got the
call from your secretary,... Shelley hasn't done any professional
modelling so it had to be something else."

I smiled. "Does it bother you." I allowed the words to sink
in.

"Meaning?"

I chuckled. "I think you know why you're here as well as I
do, Julia. My client's attracted to prepubescent boys. You know
what I'm looking for, don't you?"

"And what is that?" she asked, turning stubborn.

"Shelley's a boy, isn't he?" I asked softly.

Her eyes remained fixed on mine. "Yes," she said quietly.
Despite her apparent calm, her voice revealed a light
nervousness. "Yes, he's a boy."

"And he hasn't started puberty yet, has he?"

"Uh,... I don't think so. I don't know for sure. I mean
I,... haven't seen him, you know down there for quite a while."

"Usually there are signs," I smiled. "If you change his
sheets,..."

"Huh? Oh! That! No he hasn't, at least none that I've
noticed."

"That's good. Of course, he's only ten so he would be a few
years early if he had." I smiled and gestured towards her.

"Okay, let me put it another way.... My client would like
the opportunity to get to know him better. If everything works
out, Shelley will have a a wonderful opportunity," I added
deliberately.

"Does it mean,..." Julia began.

She hesitated, waiting for me to say what she found
difficult to ask. I said nothing. She had to face her own
dilemma. There was no easy way.

"Sex?" she said finally. She smiled slightly. I was
surprised how candid she was being. "Will Shelley have to have
sex with him?" she repeated.

"That's entirely up to Shelley. It's his choice,... and
your's too in a way,... You are his legal guardian, aren't you?"

"Shelley isn't a whore, Mr. Barrett," she retorted.

I interlaced my fingers together, lapping my thumbs. I
regarded her curiously. "If he was a whore, you wouldn't be
here," I said after a few seconds. "My client is a boy lover,
Julia. The emphasis is on both words, boy and love! He's not
interested in just any kid, especially not a boy who sees his ass
for peanuts."

"Meaning he's rich enough to get whatever he wants," Julia
said sarcastically.

"He doesn't have to cruise the streets looking for boys, if
that's what you're getting at. He's interested in having a long-
term friendship with a young boy.

If you're worried about Shelley having sex, we can leave it
at the photo shoot and nothing more," I said pleasantly.

"But sex is involved, isn't it?"

"Right now, like I said, my client's interested in having
Shelley for a friend, that's all!" I smiled slightly, enough to
convey the ambiguity of what that friendship would entail. "If
Shelley's interested in more than friendship,... well like I
said, that's entirely his decision."

I waited for several seconds, watching her reaction. I knew
she needed the money that Shelley's relationship with a man like
my client could provide. She was fast running out of the small
amount of money she received in welfare.

"What are you, his procurer?" Julia demanded bitterly. "How
do you sleep at night?"

Again I shrugged. "It's a job. I work for him, okay.
However, I'm a boy lover myself so I can understand his desires."
I breathed deeply. "I think we both know what's in Shelley's best
interests might not be socially acceptable," I said. "However, if
it's what Shelley wants and nobody else knows about it,... is it
really that terrible?"

"Socially acceptable?" she snorted. "You're talking about a
grown man screwing an ten-year-old boy in the ass. It's wrong!
Hell, it's against the law."

"Those are your words, Julia, not mine. My client's only
interested in being Shelley's friend," I repeated blandly. I was
beginning to wonder whether I had made the wrong choice. "If
Shelley's gay,... and some boys are, you know, even at his age,
perhaps that changes things a bit. It may be against the law, but
it's not as wrong as people make it out to be."

"I know that,... I just don't know about Shelley," Julia
answered uncertainly.

She was very predictable. When all was said and done, it
would come down to money. Until then, there was a game to be
played.

"Don't you?"

"Maybe he is, maybe he isn't."

"Just maybe?" I queried.

Julia shrugged vaguely. "Okay. I know some boys are that
way."

"Shelley's already started down that path anyway, hasn't
he?"

I smiled again, observing her nostrils flare out with anger
when she realized my amusement. Julia stared at me, her mouth
open for a few long seconds.

"How? How do you know about that? It doesn't prove
anything," she added adamantly.

"Let's just say that I've done my homework. Are you sure it
doesn't confirm what you already suspect," I queried.

As far as I knew it was only one time, yet my intuition told
me it had to be more often. Two weeks earlier Shelley had allowed
the older boy, the African-American teenager who Shelley called
Cal, to masturbate him in the shed behind the house. It was just
after dark when the two boys entered. They were together for
nearly fifteen minutes. That I indirectly witnessed the momentous
event from my car using a remote microphone in a well-concealed
hiding place (a rusted watering can), was sufficient to confirm
the boy's sexual orientation had developed far enough to include
other boys. To my ears, it had sounded as if it was not Shelley's
first time with Cal. Certainly the younger boy showed no
repugnance at being asked to perform oral sex. From the sound of
it, Shelley had his mouth full, yet there was enough noise to
tell me that he enjoyed doing what he did. The older boy's groan
of ecstasy and long silence that followed gave me the impression
that Shelley also had no qualms swallowing the older boy's semen
when it finally spurted out.

Julia reddened, unable to answer with any degree of
confidence. "I don't know what you think you know, but,... if he
is queer,..." she began uncomfortably. "Well if he does,... what
you're talking about,... well it might not be so bad,..."

With impending victory, I steepled my fingers, pressing my
thumbs and moving them slowly back and forth.

"My client is a very understanding person, Julia. He'll be
able to give Shelley all the affection he needs."

"Shelley's different. He can be a very affectionate boy, Mr.
Barrett."

I was suddenly tired of playing games with her. I thought of
the beautiful boy outside my office, of the obscenity we were
talking. I thought about what it would mean for him.

"You want to know what's in it for you?" I interrupted.

Julia nodded slightly. "Shelley's not even ten yet." She
hesitated, scratching her chin thoughtfully. "If this man you're
talking about,... if he wants to have sex with Shelley it could
hurt him. I have to know if it would be worth it."

That Shelley depended on the woman was sufficient to remove
my smirk of smug satisfaction that I had identified her for what
she was.

"Let's just say it'll be worth your while. I'd rather talk
about what's in it for Shelley. My client is in a position that
allows him to take very good care of his young friends, Julia."

"That's not enough," she returned swiftly. Her anxiety was
beginning to wear her down.

"You're unemployed at the moment, aren't you Julia?" I did
not wait for her to answer. "I'm sure keeping three kids and your
own son on three hundred bucks a week is very difficult for you.
What with all the bills for them, and the mortgage payments,... I
know child support is nowhere near enough," I allowed my voice to
sound sympathetic. "It doesn't have to be that way. Shelley's a
beautiful boy, Julia. He should take advantage of what he has.
Depending on what you want for him, he can also be a very lucky
boy," I added cautiously.

"How much do I get?" she said flatly. The time had come for
serious negotiation. She left no doubt about what she was after.

"Under the right circumstances, I'm prepared to make you a
very generous offer, Julia."

"What sort of offer?"

"Hm, well depending of what Shelley is prepared to do with
my client, and assuming the relationship becomes ongoing, you
would start to work for a company called Sinclair Inc. It's a
small company." I smiled ambiguously.

Sinclair Inc. was a real estate management company that my
client had set up to manage some properties that he preferred his
wife not know about.

"It will be something of a unique position, Julia. The job
will pay the same salary you had in your last job, which was a
few years ago, wasn't it?"

"Yes!"

"Okay, that's $35,300 a year, to be exact. You'll be able to
work entirely from your home. My client understands that your
foster family comes first. And if you want to do other work, of
course there will be a lot of time to do it."

Julia half-closed her eyes thoughtfully considering the
offer of receiving money without any work involved. I was
offering her thirty-five thousand dollars a year and all she had
to do was put the checks in the bank. After a few seconds she
looked at me. There was no longer any guile in her eyes. She had
risen to the bait and found it to her liking.

"After tax? I don't want to go off welfare. It's very
expensive living in this city."

"I'm sure it is. Payments could be made in cash, I suppose."

She sat very still. "If I say yes, then,... what about,...?"

"There's more," I interrupted impatiently. "Each year that
Shelley and my client are, well,... let's just say they'll be
close friends,... Each year you'll receive a $10,000 Christmas
bonus, in cash of course. Oh, and one more thing. Shelley will be
enrolled in a small, private school in DC. It's only a few blocks
from here, and it's close to where my client lives. Of course,
he'll get special gifts as well, depending on what he does and
how good he does it."

Julia nodded absently. Her smile indicated that she
understood exactly what was being offered and what was expected
in return. "It's not very much,... considering,... what's
involved."

"We're not talking about a pittance, Julia. My advice is to
take it.

We're talking about a hundred thousand or more in cash. In a
few years Shelley will be teenager. He probably won't last longer
than fourteen in this line of work. The demand is like that. If
he's very lucky he might go all the way to fifteen or sixteen
before men like my client lose interest in him. There's not much
interest in pimply teenagers."

"So I,... I mean we should take advantage now. Is that what
you're saying?" Julia acknowledged.

"More or less. There will be other rewards along the way, of
course. Shelley will always benefit from his friendship with my
client, even if it only lasts a year or two. He'll meet people
who could be very important to his career. Just being around a
man like my client is a great opportunity for a boy like
Shelley."

"Shel's almost ten and,... well I know he won't be young
forever. You said this man only liked boys before puberty. At
fourteen or fifteen he could almost be a man."

"That's true. Let's not worry about when Shelley starts
puberty until we see if it works out," I answered vaguely. "I'm
sure it's still a couple of years away still."

"I guess,... It's just the price is a bit high, that's all.

I mean,... well I'm sure you know what I mean," Julia said.

She gave me an uncertain smile, that while it did not say
she was rejecting my proposition, she was having second thoughts.
Perhaps she thought she could demand more money for herself.
Clearly she had very little interest in Shelley's welfare.

I smiled back at her.

"That rather depends on your perspective, doesn't it?"

"What do you mean?"

"For one thing, for the right boy, it might even be the
ideal opportunity to meet someone he'll like. It would be a pity
to waste the opportunity, Julia. You could change both your's and
Shelley's lives for the better, if you wanted to. Forty-five
thousand a year is pretty good money for doing nothing."

Julia inclined her head. "And you think Shelley is the right
boy?"

"Is he?" I challenged. "You know him better than anyone
else." I paused, giving her time to consider what she knew about
him.

This had to be her decision as much as Shelley's. She
shrugged, suddenly very confident as she realized that she was
going to take full advantage of the fact that Shelley was a
budding homosexual.

"I'm sure he is. I've found messin' around with my Ronnie.
It's pretty obvious what he likes," she admitted slyly.

"'Messing around' could mean lots of things," I suggested
gently.

Still, I sat up and leaned forward with interest. Ronnie?
Julia's retarded son, Ronald, was in his mid twenties. The
possibility of Shelley's involvement with him was something I had
completely overlooked. However, it wasn't necessarily bad news as
far as my client was concerned. If a boy had some experience with
an older male, he was more than likely to be interested in
relationships with other men. I wondered what she intended by
"messin' around.

"I already know what it means, Mr. Barrett. It means he's
gay! I've known for some time. You only have to look at him to
know. The boy's queer alright. I've seen the way he looks at
them."

"You mean men?"

"Of course I mean men. He doesn't look at girls that's for
sure. You can see it in his eyes. It's like part of him is
female. God! I can't believe I'm saying this. Maybe if he hadn't
stayed with us,... It's unnatural. Doing stuff with Cal was one
thing. I could ignore that. Boys,... well they get like that,
don't they?"

"Some boys can be sexually active at a very young age," I
commented. "It doesn't necessarily make them gay."

"Maybe if he and Ronnie hadn't started doing things,..."

I nodded understandingly, yet very curious. The image of the
two of them together was depressing at the same time as it was
strangely exciting.

The beautiful pre-teen boy and the retarded, overweight man.
What could they do together? The thought ricochetted through my
brain, firing memories of a little brown-skinned Mexican boy who
sucked like a vacuum cleaner and had a rectum of about the same
diameter.

"What happened with Ronnie?" I ventured. It was hard to keep
my voice under control.

"Ronnie's not all there, you understand. He's retarded, but
he's still interested in sex, only not with women, you
understand. He,... He plays with Shelley sometimes," Julia
admitted.

"He plays with Shelley? Could you be more explicit?"

"If you must know,..."

"It might be important," I said vaguely.

"It's his doing. Ronnie wouldn't do that, not unless,... He
gets my Ronnie to play with him. At night, mostly."

"Mostly?" I queried.

"I've found them together at other times, too."

I watched her face. "Have they had sex?"

She shrugged nonchalantly. "When the door's closed, Mr.
Barrett, who knows what goes on inside a room?"

"Is Shelley a virgin?" I asked bluntly.

It really did not matter to my client whether the boy was a
virgin. However, for some reason it mattered to me.

"How in the hell am I supposed to know that. I don't sit
there and watch 'em for God's sake. I just know he goes into
Ronnie's room at night and he don't come out for an hour or more.
Sometimes he's in there until the next morning. How can you tell
if a boy's done it? It's not like there's a hymen in his ass."

I hated her. I knew she was lying. She knew exactly what
happened in Ronnie's bedroom at night. She had no conscience. I
had an unpleasant feeling of foreboding. Not only did I distrust
her, but I knew she had few if any scruples. I would have no
hesitation in reporting her to the authorities if it did not mean
that Shelley would be taken from her. I realized then, that I was
no better than she was.

"The usual sign is blood on the sheets," I answered with
revulsion.

She smirked. "For boys as well as girls?"

"Some bleeding from a boy's anus is not unusual,
particularly if the man isn't careful or if he rushes things," I
explained.

She shrugged, unwilling to accept any responsibility.
"Whatever! I warned Shelley, okay? I told him to be careful
around Ronnie. I know Ronnie could hurt him if they that did
that. He's big, you know what I mean. Anyway, It's not like
Ronnie forces him to do anything. The boy's certainly not
reluctant to go into Ronnie's room.

He goes in there because he wants to."

"I understand. Like I said, some boys are like that, Julia.
It's not Shelley's fault. It's rather like flipping a coin.
Mostly it comes down straight but every so often a boy turns out
to be gay. He can't help it."

"A coin flip?" Julia smiled. "And a boy likes men instead of
girls."

"Something like that. The important thing is how we can help
him deal with it. And I don't mean letting Ronnie screw his ass,"
I added quickly.

"Then what?" Julia demanded impatiently.

My fingers tented and pointed to the ceiling, prayer-like.
"It might sound naive, but I how important it is for Shelley to
know that he's loved. It's particularly important for a gay boy
because he can have sexual needs that are overpowering at the
same time he's rejected by his friends. Frankly, I'm not
surprised he's been going into Ronnie's bedroom."

"You make it sound personal," Julia commented.

I nodded. "It is personal! I was twelve when I started,
Julia." I leaned back in my chair.

"I can still remember everything that happened. He was my
next door neighbor. He was twenty-three and just starting
graduate school. In my own way, I loved him, and at the time I
thought he loved me back. It was physical, right from the get-go.
It started when he took me to an evening baseball game downtown.
We didn't stay for the game to end. He took me to a park over by
Winthrop. By the time I got back home about ten p.m. my ass was a
bloody mess and I was addicted. We had sex every afternoon when I
came home from school. Only there was one problem.

He really didn't love me."

Julia regarded me silently. For the first time since she had
entered my office, I felt her sincerity. There was an strange
understanding between us.

"I gave him my innocence, Julia."

"I can imagine."

"We did everything," I said flatly.

"At twelve?"

"Yes. I guess I started enjoying it after the first month.
It's like that for a boy, you know.

It hurts pretty badly when you start, for the first few
times at least, and then it slowly stops hurting. After a while
it starts feeling good, so good that words can't describe it. It
wasn't something that I wanted to stop."

"What happened?" she asked awkwardly.

"I had been doing stuff with him for about two months when I
told him I loved him. I was dumb enough to ask whether he loved
me back. We were having sex at the time and he didn't answer. I
thought he hadn't heard so I asked again. He told me to shut up."
I shrugged. "When I tried to ask again, he put his hand over my
mouth and kept on fucking me. I can't tell you how bad I felt. I
wanted him to love me so badly that it hurt inside."

"I'm sorry," she said without feeling.

I smiled absently. "I couldn't stop doing it. It didn't last
more than a year. was a reject at thirteen," I said. "I had pubic
hair and everything else that goes along with puberty. I guess he
lost interest in me. However, it doesn't have to be like that. My
client will see to it that Shelley doesn't go though the same
thing."

"It sounds like you ought to keep Shelley for yourself,"
Julia reflected softly. If,... if I said yes, what happens?" she
added awkwardly. "I don't think I could talk to Shelley. Not
about this."

I nodded sagely. 'You wouldn't have to, Julia. I'll talk
with him right now. I'd like to have you wait outside while I do.
It'll take a while."

Julia sighed. "You know I've worried about him for so long.
I know he's safe with Cal, and Ronnie too, even if he's retarded.
It might hurt him, but he's still safe with him. You hear
stories, you know, about men who pick up kids in the toilets, or
boys selling themselves in the malls and elsewhere. I don't want
that for Shelley."

"Neither do I. And it won't happen. My client will be a
friend for him.

It'll start with Shelley modelling some swim-wear. If that
goes okay, then he'd like to photograph Shelley in the nude. And
it that works out then Shelley will stay at his house for a
night. It'll be bit like a sleep-over, only he'll be sleeping
with a man instead of a boy," I added with dry humor.

"They'll sleep together?"

"Only if Shelley wants to. Otherwise, separate beds, or even
separate rooms if he's uncomfortable with having the man that
close to him."

"And if nothing happens? What then?" Julia asked. "He'll
have done an ad for some swim wear? Big thrill!"

"In addition to the swim wear, there'll be a cash payment to
you of a thousand dollars if Shelley poses nude for him. You can
double or triple that depending on what happens during the first
night. If it works out, the payments will be made every month.

Whatever happens, you can take my word for it that you'll be
well paid. Maybe Shelley will even have a good time."

"I'm sure," Julia said cynically. "And so will your client."

"I won't deny it," I laughed. "I wouldn't mind having a
sleep-over with Shelley either. However, I don't have my client's
money. I couldn't afford to keep him more than a few months."

Julia stood up and started to walk towards the door. Halfway
across the Persian Tabriz rug, she stopped and turned around.

"I not sure that money is all that important sometimes." She
hesitated as if she was considering saying something else. A
moment later she added, "Should I tell Shelley to come in now?"

"Please do," I replied. "This will take a while I expect. If
you want something to drink while you wait, don't hesitate to ask
my secretary."

I waited for about two minutes before the door opened again.
He was even better-looking than I remembered, much more
attractive than the two photographs showed. For the a few moments
that he glanced around the room, I could not take my eyes off
him. I sighed. To my jaded eyes, Shelley was far, far beyond the
only word I could think of. A single word, 'beautiful' could not
even begin to capture my first impressions, and a plethora of
adjectives failed miserably. He was radiant. He was natural. His
hair was shining. He was incredibly sexy. He smiled uncertainly,
and I slowly became aware that I had been staring fixedly at him
with disconcerting infatuation. Except Manuel, I had never had
the problem with other boys. I trembled with excitement.

"Uh hi!" I muttered selfconsciously. "You must be Shelley?"

He nodded, his only affirmation beyond a shy smile.

"Well, Shelley, come on over here," I gestured.

He walked hesitantly across the room until he stood before
my desk. In person and close up, he was even more beautiful. For
the first time in eight years, I was entranced. His large eyes
were startling in their innocence, and enhanced to the point of
femininity by his delicately thin eyebrows and long lashes. He
had full, very kissable red lips, a little reminiscent of
Macaulley Culkin, yet the resemblance to Aaron Carter was even
stronger.

"I see you're not wearing your bike pants this time," I
remarked casually.

His eyes darted down momentarily before he looked up to meet
my gaze. After a second or two he smiled uncertainly.

"Uh,... no I'm not," he admitted quietly. He sounded
uncertain, not frightened.

"Well, you're still a very sexy boy, even without them," I
continued softly.

I watched carefully and was not surprised to see Shelley
redden visibly, yet he continued to meet my eyes steadily.

"You have a very nice body," I added. "You're well built."

"I sorta watch what I eat so I stay skinny," Shelley said
meekly. He swallowed, then deliberately licked his bottom lip
thoughtfully.

"It always pays to advertise," I smiled. "Still, I'm
surprised Julia let you pose like that."

"Like what?" Shelley asked with pretended innocence.

I smiled again. "With a stiff dick."

I watched for his reaction. Instead of surprise or anger, he
merely shrugged and glanced down at the floor.

He slowly looked up at me with his clear-blue eyes. He
looked innocent until he smiled at me.

"I wasn't my idea, okay. Anyway, it happens all the time,"
he replied flatly. "I can't help it."

"Yes, I'm sure it does, though I bet it needs some help at
times too?" I teased lightly.

He smiled again, becoming increasingly at ease. "Sometimes."

I winked and stepped back. I regarded him with growing
curiosity.

Shelley was studying me at the same time.

"Like now?" I asked softly.

He seemed about to reply, but he hesitated, spontaneously
glancing down to confirm whether I was teasing him. There was a
definite bulge in his crotch, but it was no bigger than when he
first walked into the room. He pondered his answer, apparently as
confused as I was whether 'yes' meant that he needed help, or
whether he was already erect. He resorted to ambiguity.

"Maybe," he ventured.

Only Shelley knew the true state of his male organ. I found
myself liking him more and more. He was radiant, conveying
intelligence and boundless energy. It was time to change the
topic.

"Well,... as you probably know by now I work for a company
who wants a good looking boy like you to model some swim wear for
them," I began. "And you've been selected from a number of
applicants. The question is whether you'd mind wearing a small
Speedo in front of a camera?"

"No. It'd be okay. Is this like an audition or something?"
Shelley asked.

"Because I'm not really dressed for it."

I shook my head. "Not really. Even with your clothes on I
can see you certainly have a very nice body so that isn't a
question. It's more like a pre-meeting to see if you'd be
interested." I emphasized the last word deliberately.

"Interested? In what? Um,... I mean,... who wouldn't be?"
Shelley said anxiously.

"Well, it really depends on you," I answered directly. "What
are you interested in?"

"I don't understand."

I smiled. Shelley was very nervous and it made me like him
even more.He shifted his weight from foot to foot like a
frightened deer ready to run at the slightest hint of danger. He
was adorable.

"You're a very good looking boy," I said softly. "I bet
you've heard that a lot before, haven't you?"

"Er,.... s-s-sometimes," Shelley admitted. "My teacher, Ms.
Mills, she's said it once or twice."

"You've heard it from men before, too I bet," I added
patiently.

"S-s-sometimes," he stammered.

"It's embarrassing, huh?"

"Yeah, a bit."

I nodded reassuringly. "When a boy is as good-looking as you
are, and he's very sexy as well, he's sure to get a lot of
attention."

"I s'pose so."

"Does it bother you?"

"Kinda." He blinked.

He took a deep breath. He swallowed. His hand brushed
quickly at his long locks. His lips compressed like he wanted to
say something but was afraid to say it.

"Some boys aren't bothered when men show interest in them,"
I continued.

He shifted uneasily. "They like the attention. It makes them
feel good inside."

"I guess," Shelley ventured. "It's okay, I s'pose."

"You don't mind then?"

"uh, not really. It's just, well, it kind of makes me feel
funny."

"Funny? Why?"

"Don't know. I guess 'cause I know it's wrong."

"Wrong?"

"Because."

"Just because?"

"Yeah."

"Because it might mean that you're gay?"

Shelley started. He glanced at me awkwardly, then looked
away to stare down at the floor below him. I had the answer I
wanted. He knew he was attracted to his own sex. He was old
enough to know it meant that he was gay. He was not ready to
admit it openly.

"Being gay is not wrong, you know Shelley," I said. "I'm gay
too.

Although I usually don't go around telling people I am, I'm
not ashamed about it."

"Yeah? You don't go to my school, that's for sure."

"Well, I've always figured that if no one knows, there's not
a problem."

"The kids at my school make fun of them, and me too
sometimes, because of how I look, I guess."

"Well, you are very good looking. Maybe they're just jealous
of you."

His eyebrows lifted slightly with increased interest. "You
really think I'm good looking?"

"I said so, didn't I, Shelley? You could be a movie star."

"Yeah, I know. Some of the kids at school say I look like
that Carter kid on tv."

"They're absolutely right. I hope you know I meant it. I
think you're very good looking."

He smiled uncertainly, finally accepting the compliment.
"Okay."

"Do you know why you're here?" I asked.

"Because of the swim wear ad, I guess?"

"Yes, partly you're here for that. Your foster mother and I
talked about that. You're going to model for them. We'll do the
photography for the ad probably next week. My client isn't all
that interested in seeing you in a swimming costume though," I
hinted.

"Then what?" Shelley tensed. It was as if a sudden surge of
excitement ran though him, as if he knew what was coming.

"He'd mostly like to have you photographed out of the
costume."

"You mean naked, don't you?"

"Yes."

"I guess it would be okay," Shelley wavered. "Would anyone
else be there?"

I shrugged. "He'll take the photos himself I expect. So, to
answer your question, probably not."

"Um,... well like what would I have to do, besides do model
poses that is?"

I shrugged. "Whatever you wanted to do. Only you'd do it
with your clothes off, that's all."

"He wouldn't force me to do things I didn't want to do?"

I shook my head, wondering what had prompted the question.
He seemed to expect that he would be used sexually.

"You'd do nothing you didn't want to do."

"It's okay, I guess," Shelley said slowly. "It depends."

I sat forward in my chair and studied the boy's face. He was
exceedingly attractive, far too handsome a specimen of boyhood
for the man I was working for. He was nearly sixty, and in my
mind he was too old to appreciate the boy's awe inspiring beauty.

"It depends on what?" I asked gently.

He bit his bottom thoughtfully. He shrugged. "Do I have to
do sex stuff?" he asked with an innocent voice.

"Only if you want to. This man likes boys, Shelley. Do you
know what that means?"

"I guess so. He likes to have sex with them."

His explanation left a lot to be desired, but it showed that
the ten-year-old had the right idea. I put one leg across the
other and leaned back in my chair. I tried to appear relaxed, yet
at the same time my mind was filled with a jumble of thoughts,
most of which were about keeping Shelley for myself. The more I
looked at him, the more difficult it became not to blurt out that
I loved him.

"Does that bother you?"

He looked up at me shyly.

"I think I'd like doing it with the right person," he
volunteered. He looked directly at me, his eyes questioning as he
waited for a response.

"Have you, er, done it before?" I asked, deliberately
leaving whatever "it" was to Shelley's imagination.

Shelley nodded.

"Do you want to tell me about it?"

he shrugged. "Where I live,... with Julia, all the kids do
stuff. I've done it with Cal, only a few times. He's a black kid
who's a couple of years older than me. Mostly I do it with
Robbie, that's her real son. She even got me to do it once with
Linette."

"A girl?" I asked with a smile.

He shrugged. "Linette's the black girl who lives with us.
She 'bout twelve I guess, only she's not that much bigger than I
am."

"What did you do?" I asked playfully.

Shelley grinned. "Nothing much. Mostly she's with Julia, y'
know. They sleep in the same room and all. I guess she wasn't
that interested in me."

"Neither were you, am I right?"

"I guess."

At that point, my mind was made up. My client was going to
meet Alan Hewer. He would not know the difference. He'd be as
entranced by the boy's English accent as much as his splendid
young body. I had no doubts that both of them would be happy. He
would never know about Shelley Lawlor. I concealed my smile and
picked up the telephone to place the call that would start the
process all over again. While the telephone rang in the office
outside, I made plans for how to get Shelley Lawlor by himself.


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