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First Boy  by Ganymede

Chapter Three.

Jacob Wilderstein was waiting in the lobby when I arrived
precisely at 12.30 pm. Clearly he was not happy about being kept
waiting. He scowled when I stepped out of the elevator.

"Terrible traffic," I said nonchalantly. "I swear it's
getting worse and worse.

"I'm sure," Wilderstein replied.

He turned and led the way into the office. With the glazed
door closed behind us, he walked to the far window and put his
hands on his hips. I smiled as he stood there, his swaggering
deliberate stance not unlike Napoleon without the hand inside his
coat. From behind he was pitiful.

Five-foot-six-inches, a mean-spirited public servant who was
nearly bald.

"You still see him, don't you?" he asked softly.

"Who?"

"The kid. You know who I'm talking about Shelley Lawlor,
isn't that his name?" Wilderstein said dryly.

I smiled slightly. Through the window I watched a plane
climbing quickly from Reagan National Airport. It turned slowly
as it passed over the far end of the Mall. Wilderstein's hand
casually brushed though the remaining strands of hair at the back
of his head. He turned around, his eyes narrowed thoughtfully.

"Do you?" he asked pointedly.

"What does it matter, Wilderstein? You know the answer to
your own question. otherwise you wouldn't ask it in the first
place."

Wilderstein chuckled crudely. "Do you still fuck him in the
ass?"

"What I do or don't do with Shelley is none of your
business," I answered flatly.

"But you still see him, don't you?"

"Yes!"

He stepped towards the desk and picked up a manila envelop.
He unfastened the string by winding it counter-clockwise. He
paused momentarily, pretending to ponder the contents. Slowly he
lifted back the flap. I saw a vivid streak of red adhesive where
the security seal had been broken. A thick wad of photographs
spilled out onto the desk when he held it upside down.

"I don't hold it against you. Hell, I don't even think
you're sick." He surveyed me with a sideways glance. "He's a sexy
little bastard. And noisy too. He obviously enjoyed it with you.
It would be different if you forced him, but you didn't. Maybe
it's what they call a victimless crime.

A bit painful for the kid, perhaps, but that's all. Anyway
after four months I guess he's used to it by now?"

"Shelley does what he wants to do."

"I believe you, Rick, but would a jury? I know it's
voluntary for him because I've listened to the tapes. In fact, he
doesn't even look like a victim in these photos, but they're more
than enough for jury to return a guilty verdict, even here in DC.
You'd have to have a jury full of ass-fucking niggers to get out
of this one," Wilderstein said with a broad grin. "You could get
ten-to-twenty years with parole sometime next century."

"You're an asshole of the highest order, Wilderstein."

"You're entitled to your opinion, Rick. I'm just doing my
job."

"What do you want?" I demanded.

"I have to do this, you understand. It's not even my idea."
He smiled slightly. "Hell, no one really knows what I'm doing to
get you on board!"

"Not even the Director?"

"He doesn't know what I'm doing to get you involved. No one
knows about these photos. There is a single copy, thirty-six
photos, and you're looking at them. If you agree, these ones
leave with you. I imagine you can put them to good use."

"And the negatives?" I asked abruptly.

"Ah! yes! I keep the negatives until you do the job. Then
they're yours as well."

"What do I have to do?"

"Ah, the crux of the matter. You have to recruit and run
someone. Once you're in, the whole thing will take about a month,
maybe even less. After it's done, you vanish.

There will be some people upset. Personally, I'd go to
Europe, but I hear the boys are better down south. Brazil, Chile,
even Bolivia, you could take your pick."

"What's involved?"

"We need first hand information, and we need it very
quickly."

"Tell me more."

Wilderstein regarded me quietly. "There's no proof, but I
think we have a big problem in the White House. A very big
problem. You know what I'm talking about?"

"I thought the thing was finished. Hell, nobody cares what
he does. Who he screws, what powers he abuses, who dies in the
process? So long as the economy is strong! Public opinion can
take care of anything."

"That was the opinion around here too until a week ago. The
fact is it's now more that a few laws being broken. There is a
small faction that thinks you might have been onto something five
years ago before you took on that assignment in central America.
It's possible that Russia is involved. Your memo supporting the
position has been keeping a lot of people awake at night."

I smiled and shrugged. My memorandum had been placed in a
"BLUE-PRINT" security file. "Blue-print" files never left the
Director's office. When I wrote it, my position was based on
speculation, hunch, and a lot of assumptions. It was not one of
the factors behind my decision to leave the Agency, yet I knew
that my next assignment was the result of it.

"Then you have a big problem," I said flatly.

"We have to know, and within a month at the latest."

"What's the outcome?" I asked. "Or maybe I should ask what's
going to happen after the target exits?"

"Political reality, Rick. We're working on it."

"I presume the man steps down quietly and the V-P steps
up,... because that's what's going to happen if I'm right, isn't
it?"

Wilderstein shrugged vaguely. "Whatever! I try not to get
involved in the repercussions. It's not my decision. I'm running
the action as far as you're concerned. Maybe you're right. If I
was you, once I'd made contact in the affirmative, I'd get my ass
out of Dodge as quickly as I could. It might stir the Russians up
when they find out so I'd go deep if I was you, Rick. So fucking
deep that no one could find me."

"What's the strategy?" I asked pointedly.

"You target is a very important man. For the sake of it,
let's agree he's very hard to expose because he is so popular."

I smiled. "Only he's a mole, all right. I'm surprised it
took this long to find out."

"We still not know for sure. I have a few doubts. It's
possible the entire thing is reverse engineering."

"Yeah, right! Before when you were involved, you questioned
whether the Russians could put it together."

"Think about it, Rick. If you were going to plant a mole,
wouldn't you pick someone who didn't draw attention?"

"Exactly! You have to think like Machiavelli. The Russians
do it all the time. You pick a person who does get attention,
only it's an entirely different kind of attention. Throw in a few
banking and real estate scandals, a couple of whores. There's so
much flak on the radar you never see the target. Sure everyone's
looking, but they're all going in the opposite direction."

"A confusion strategy? Very Machiavellian, even for the
Russians, don't you think?"

"It's perfect, Wilderstein. Everyone too busy worrying about
the next harlot to crawl out from under the bed to think about
deeper issues."

"That was your point five years ago, wasn't it?"

I shook my head. "No. My point was he spent time at
Cambridge, and then went to Moscow. It's a pattern, that's all.
There was ample opportunity for him to be recruited." I thought
for a few seconds. It made no sense.

"I still don't see why you need me."

Wilderstein smiled. "He's a lot like you, Rick."

"In what way?"

"What turns him on is the same thing that turns you on.
Small dicks and balls and no hair."

"My but you're a funny son-of-a-bitch, Jacob," I replied
sarcastically.

"You might notice I'm not laughing. This is serious. There
is a strong indication that what he really likes is his boys. If
so, it's a dangerous obsession, one the Russians would use in a
flash."

"You mean everything else is a ruse?"

"Of course. You just said so yourself. Everything more or
less in the opposite direction. he gets blow jobs from his girl
friends, but the real action is elsewhere. Like I said, all we've
had up till now was an indication, but it was enough to look
further."

"Based on what?" I asked suspiciously. "It's completely out
of character!"

"So is what you did with that boy, what's his
name,...Shelley Lawlor?"

"You know it as well as I do," I replied.

"I had you down as one hundred percent straight until that
mess in Mexico four years ago. You managed to keep it well hidden
afterwards. It was only when I started looking to find something
I could use against you did I come up with the connection with
Mexico again. I checked the flights. You went there too often,"
Wilderstein chuckled. "I had you followed by one of our people.
man, it was too easy." He laughed again. "It sounds to me like
Mexico is just one big chicken farm. However, I was surprised to
find out that you liked dark meat. I guess it's cheaper than
white meat, huh?"

"Very funny."

"So I kept an eye, or maybe I should say kept an ear on you
when you came back to DC."

"You bugged my office?" I queried. "I should have suspected
something like that from you and your friends, shouldn't I?"

Wilderstein shrugged. "I really don't care about your sex
life, Rick. The only reason I'm dragging you into this one is
because I think the target has the same interests as you. He
keeps it well hidden for good reason. Joe Public can tolerate his
sexual peccadillos only so long as they're relatively normal."

"You're about two steps ahead of me. Why don't you fill me
in on what you know," I demanded.

"We have to get close to him, and I mean real close, and
soon too. We have to find out how he's passing information to
them. Given what we know We don't have time to waste. about
him,...well a boy may be the only way.

And not just any boy, the target has very particular tastes.
He likes blonds with blue eyes,... boys like Shelley in fact."

I shuddered. "No!"

"No? I don't think you're in a position to say no, Rick. Not
unless you plan on seeing Shelley again when he's in his mid
twenties. You ought to get twelve to fifteen, even with parole.
This way,..."

"No way!"

"He's perfect for job. I think you know what I mean. We both
know he's not innocent."

"He's not a whore either," I said adamantly.

"He might have been a virgin before you met him, but he sure
isn't one now, is he?" Wilderstein said flatly. "Let me think.
How did it go? Oh!!! Ohhhh! Rick! Do it deeper! Ohhhh! Yes!
There! Do it there, Rick! Ohhhh!" Wilderstein smirked. "It sure
sounded like both of you were having fun at the time but I doubt
that a jury would see it that way. No when the kid's ten years
old."

"Forget it, asshole," I swore.

"You haven't heard my offer yet, Rick. I've gone to a lot of
trouble. The least you can do is hear me out."

I turned and stormed towards the door. Halfway, I stopped.
"What offer?"

"Two hundred thousand if you take the job and bring home the
bacon so to speak."

"Bacon? Coming from you? Get real. Two hundred thousand! A
million at least, if I have to disappear,... and up front!"

"The Director has approved up to five hundred. That's it!"

"I'm freelance now. Five isn't enough!"

"It might be under the right circumstances. What if I could
arrange for you to keep him afterwards, Rick? I'm talking about
Shelley Lawlor. We want him out of the way as well. Assuming
you'd want to, of course," he suggested.

"What are you suggesting?"

"Of course, if all you want is some boy-ass when you get the
urge, you wouldn't be interested in something long term. It could
be permanent if you wanted."

I turned around. Wilderstein was smiling. "What if I wanted
to adopt him?" I asked.

Wilderstein laughed. "You're crazy! I knew you were hot for
him, but adopt him? But yes, I guess it could be arranged, Rick.
Hell, after this is done, if you wanted, you could probably even
marry him if you took him to the right place. What you do with
the boy after this is over is your business."

"Very funny, Wilderstein. It's a million or nothing." I
glared at Wilderstein and he nodded slightly. "What's the deal?
There's more to it than what I think, isn't there? Otherwise you
would be holding me to three," I demanded.

He shrugged, meeting my eyes with a vacant stare. My blood
chilled.

"What else?"

"I know that the money is going to be important to you if
you have to disappear. A million will get you a good start in
another country, especially if you head to Central America. It
all comes down to how much you want Shelley."

"It's very simple. I want Shelley enough to adopt him," I
said flatly.

"Actually that's good. For good reason, we will want both
you and him hidden. If he's with you, that's even better. I'm
sure you'll take good care of him. In fact you'd have to adopt
him if you wanted to take him overseas.

"Okay. The I want to adopt him.

My response provoked another smile. "That's what I thought.
I have the papers right here, in fact." Wilderstein tapped his
jacket pocket. "All they need are signatures,... your signature,
and the boy's legal guardian, and we can take them before a
judge."

"He doesn't have one," I interjected. "His parents were
killed in a car wreck when he was a baby. He's a ward of the
state. He needs someone to take care of him."

"Isn't he with a foster family?"

"If you're talking about that Harmon bitch who's supposed to
be taking care of him, then yes," I replied angrily. Wilderstein
tilted his head, encouraging elaboration. "You may not care, but
he's being abused on a daily basis."

He shrugged, and we glared at each other in silence.
Wilderstein neither cared or was interested in finding out more
about Shelley. Finally, I sighed. "What's involved?"

"Not a lot. We'll put a bug on him. We get Shelley close to
him and in the right situation, and then we wait."

"How? By using the Cincinnati connection?" I asked.

Wilderstein regarded me with fascination, then nodded
slowly. "You're on the ball, Rick. You were always good at this.
I think that's the best way in.

He goes there on a regular basis. It is the most likely
place he passes information on and gets some action."

"Shelley's only ten," I commented. "He won't understand what
he has to do. Besides, how are you going to use a bug? Remember,
the target's supposed to be a boy lover. If he is, it'd be
fucking stupid to use a bug."

"That rather depends on where it's located. Even if he takes
the boy's clothes off, which is very likely if they have sex,
there are still places,..."

"Meaning?" I asked uncertainly. I felt a growing distaste
for what I was agreeing to, however, there was no alternative.

"Where's the last place you'd expect to find a bug after the
clothes are off?"

I thought for a second. "Under the skin of course? It might
be overlooked in the armpit or somewhere else, but it would be a
hell of a risk. He'd be a fool not to make a skin check, but in
the heat of the moment,... and he's not known for being cautious.
There would be a scar of course. You might get away with it. It's
be a long shot though unless you buried it pretty deep."

Wilderstein smiled. "You're getting warm,... Except the
failure rate after a day or two has been about one in three. Then
there is the problem of a scar, even with laser surgery there's a
mark, and the quality of the transmission is fucking awful."

"Where then?"

"It's a Russian idea, actually," Wilderstein smirked. "And
considering the nature of the activity, well,... it's ideal," he
hinted.

"Where?" I repeated impatiently.

"His scrotum. In fact the scar is already there thanks to
mother nature."

"How?"

"Uh,... To be exact, a wireless transmitter,.... actually
it'd take the place of one of his balls."

"You're joking!"

He grinned. "No! Until a month ago the Russians were running
an agent in Saudi Arabia. The kid was about twelve years old.
They had a good thing going too, until we turned his handler.
Despite what you'd think, Rick, those Arabs really love their
little boys. They'll say just about anything in front of them to
prove how fucking great they are. It's interesting story. I won't
bore you with the details right now, except they got the kid
close to some prince whose name you'd recognize if you were still
reading the daily briefings. We were lucky. We got our hands on
both the transmitter and receiver, and some good information as
well. It's one heck of a brilliant bit of engineering. It only
has a transmit range of a hundred yards, but the clarity is
fucking fantastic.

You'd think you were right there beside him."

"I,... God, Wilderstein! You want to cut one of Shelley's
balls off. You want to put the Russian thing inside his ballsac?"

"He'd look a bit strange with three testicles wouldn't he?"
Wilderstein suggested feebly. "Rick, I knew you wouldn't like
this, but there's no other way."

"Jesus, you've sunk to an all time low this time,
Wilderstein."

"I've looked into it. It's not like a boy really needs both
of them."

"The hell he doesn't!"

"No really! I've spoken with a pediatrician, and an expert
in the field.

With one testicle Shelley'll be able to do the same things
he'd do with two of them. I'm told it's a very simple operation."

"I'm sure it is," I interjected cynically. "Local
anaesthetic too, I bet?"

"It could be, except that we don't want Shelley to know what
happened to him."

"You're going to cut one of his balls and you don't want him
to know about it? You're fucking crazy, Wilderstein. As soon as
he comes out of anaesthesia, he'll feel the difference. There's
going to be some pain.

Hell, maybe a lot of pain. You really think he won't figure
it out?"

"All that's involved is a single incision less than an inch
long to insert the transmitter we took out of the Russian kid.
With laser surgery they tell me Shelley will heal completely in
only a few days. He can be keep asleep until then."

"And there won't be a scar?" I asked sarcastically.

"The doctor assures me that it'll be next to impossible to
see a scar, even up close, after a couple of days. Like I said,
that's the advantage of using the scrotum. The scar is already
there. I saw some photos of the Russian boy the day before they
removed the transmitter. His balls looked normal enough to me. He
looked exactly the same when I saw him after they removed it.
They used a silicone implant and I tell you I couldn't see any
difference. It'll take less than fifteen minutes and there won't
be any pain that an aspirin or two can't take of."

"Yeah, except afterwards."

"Why?"

"You don't think he'll realize one of them doesn't feel the
same as the other. Don't even try to get me to believe he won't
notice the removal of one of his testicles," I interjected
angrily. "Which one by the way, as if it makes any difference."

"If they're both healthy, then I'm told that it's be the one
that hangs the lowest. The weight of the transmitter is a bit
different to the real thing I guess."

"They haven't dropped yet," I answered. "It's hard to tell."

"What? What hasn't dropped?"

"His balls, Wilderstein," I replied angrily. "He hasn't
started puberty yet, so they haven't dropped. Okay, assuming I go
along, what happens afterwards?"

"When the job is done, Shelley will go to a clinic. We'll
provide the doctor. We'll tell you who and where, if and when the
time comes. He'll have another operation to take the transmitter
out. I'm sure you wouldn't want anyone listening in again, now
would you?" he laughed. "If you're worried about the aesthetics,
he can have the silicone replacement thing done. It might be
artificial but the doctors tell me it will pretty much look and
feel like the real thing from the outside. Only the two of you
will know it isn't real. In or out of his clothes, he'll look as
normal as any boy. Hell, if you want Rick, he can even be fitted
with the next size up so he can really fill out his swimming
costume."

"You're fucking hilarious," I swore.

Wilderstein smirked and slowly walked back towards the
window where he had being standing earlier. I could see that from
where he was standing, he was looking at the DC Veteran's
Hospital, the site of many CIA operations involving medical work.
I wondered whether the operation would begin there again.
However, given the nature of the situation, more than likely it
would be done at a private clinic. That way there would be no
record at all of what happened.

"He'll still be able to have children?" I asked querulously.

"If he wants to it shouldn't be a problem with only one
ball, but somehow I don't think his getting married and having
kids is on the cards, do you? Not after what he's been doing with
you. If I wasn't sure the kid was queer, do you think I'd be
doing this to him?"

"Who knows?" I answered grumpily. "What's the down side for
him?"

"The only adverse affect the doctors talked about might be a
delay in starting puberty, and maybe his physical development
will be a bit less manly than it might have been if he had two
nuts. Apparently, you can fix that with testosterone injections,
if you want," Wilderstein added gratuitously. "However, for a boy
lover like you the side effects are probably a good thing, I
expect. As far as Shelley is concerned, it probably won't make
any real difference given his sex life. He'll doesn't need his
nuts to lie with his butt in the air."

"You're real funny, Wilderstein," I commented dryly.
"If,..."

I paused thoughtfully, trying to decide how far to push
Wilderstein. The fact was that there was little I could or would
do to stop what was being talked about. Wilderstein had confirmed
my deepest fear. There was a Russian spy, planted under deep
cover, in the highest position in the country. God only knew how
much damage he had already been able to inflict. Under certain
circumstances, the long term fate of the nation might depend on
him. The loss of one of Shelley's testicles was a relatively
small price to pay.

"If this is going to happen, I need to know what's really
in the purse? And how soon it has to occur?"

"I already told you. You'll get five hundred thousand, Rick.
This thing might only take three or four days once you're in
place. Only how much is in the budget isn't the real question, it
it? You want to know how much is it worth to the Agency?"
Wilderstein asked flatly. He shrugged. "The Director said to do
it no matter what. There are any number of reasons why he wants
to get rid of him. However he wants it clean and he wants it
tidy. No traces, Rick. That's why you have to disappear. I'll
even destroy your file. I don't know why, but he said he wants no
dirt on either party. No bad press for anyone, unless it's the
FBI, then it's open season," he laughed. "Fuck the bastards, to
quote him. To answer your question, how much is it worth to him?
I have no idea."

"A mole who is this deep and this important is worth a lot
to get rid of," I said ambiguously. "There's going to be a bigger
budget."

"Okay. You're right. I've got more or less whatever it
takes," Wilderstein replied suspiciously.

"Then it's going to be more rather than less," I said. "A
million dollars for me and you're going to set up a trust fund
for Shelley. One of his balls is going to cost the agency another
million dollars."

"You're joking."

I stepped closer to Wilderstein. "The way I see it, Jacob,
you've got a problem."

"How so?"

"You're screwed if either of us say no."

"You won't!" Wilderstein said adamantly. "Unless you plan on
spending serious time in a Federal pen. With your million
dollars, you can take Shelley a thousand miles from here. You can
find a place in Central America where you can do whatever you
want to do with him to your heart's content. But you can forget
the million buck trust fund. It's not going to happen. No kid's
balls are worth that much. Hell, he could lose a nut playing
soccer. One of my neighbor's kids supposedly lost a ball last
year when he got kicked in the groin. It's no big deal."

I shrugged with pretended disinterest and casually started
to move towards the door to give a clear indication that we were
finished. I had only moved a few feet before Wilderstein laughed.

"Okay, Rick, a million bucks even for both of you. You get
yours in cash as soon as the job is done.

The kid get's his when he's eighteen or twenty one, or
whenever the hell you want."

"One million payable in advance. It goes in the usual
account in Switzerland, transferred through an intermediary like
you did for that payoff for the arms merchant in Brazil. I'm sure
you know which one," I said dryly. "The balance will be in
unmarked cash, old notes, nothing more than hundreds. I want it
clean. I'll come after you if you screw me."

"Agreed!" Wilderstein said quickly. "Anything else?"

"I want the adoption papers signed and approved by a judge,
or whatever you have to do with the authorities for me to have
full guardianship. I want the adoption papers in my hand before
you do anything to Shelley. I want it done right, Wilderstein. If
you fuck with me, even a little bit, I'll cut both your balls
off."

"No! You'll get the papers only after the thing is finished
and you're getting on the plane. However, I'm prepared to give
you half the money and the all of the photos just as soon as
Shelley's had his little operation."

"How soon?"

Wilderstein turned away, breaking eye contact. The meeting
was finished.

He spoke quietly, giving only the critical instructions that
I would need.

"How soon?" I repeated. "I need time to talk to Shelley."

"I have a doctor scheduled to do it as soon as you agree. If
you must know, it'll probably be done later today."

"No! I need to talk with him first."

"That's not possible."

"Where is he?" I demanded.

I felt my heart sink. I wanted to tell Shelley, to explain
why the operation was necessary, why it was the only way we could
spend our lives together.

"He's safe. Trust me."

"For God's sake. You fucking bastard, Wilderstein. You've
got him already, haven't you?"

Wilderstein shrugged. He tried to be nonchalant, yet I
sensed his nervousness. He took a deep breath.

"Listen, Rick. There was no other way. We had to move
quickly. There's no time to waste. It'll take a few days to
heal."

"Where is he?" I repeated anxiously.

"I told you he's safe. Okay?"

"Not okay! You wanted to be absolutely certain, didn't you?
Maybe you weren't sure I'd go along with your dirty little
scheme. So you grabbed him first, just to make sure, didn't you?
What happened?"

Wilderstein smiled slightly. "He had a slight accident,
Rick. He fell off his bike on the way to school this morning. It
happened just before I called you."

"How?" I demanded angrily. I took a deep breath to control
my temper. It was a trick I had learned after many years working
in Central and South America. "Is he okay?"

"There's a few scratches on him, that's all Rick. He took a
dart in the thigh. He never knew what hit him. He almost stopped
the bike just before he fell off. He's fine. He's sedated right
now. Of course, he'll,..."

"Where is he, Wilderstein?" I interrupted angrily.

"He's at a private clinic if you must know, Rick. It's fully
equipped for surgery. He's in safe hands. Now that you've agreed
to do it, I'll place a call there and give them the go ahead."

"Damn you!"

"Be at your place tomorrow morning. I'll have the boy with
me. I think you know what needs to done until then. The things
you'll need to get Shelley ready for his part of the assignment
are in the briefcase on the desk. He can even keep his first
name, but you'll have to clue him in on the rest of it. His last
name will be the same as yours. You'll go by the name of Robert
Walker. You ought to be used to the name, but you still have a
lot of work to do between now and then."

There was nothing more that I needed to say. It was not hard
to know the contents of the briefcase without opening it. There
would be an envelop big enough to hold half a dozen sheets of
paper, a few photographs, various credit cards and a driver's
license in a name that was very familiar to me. I suspected I
would also find a bottle of pills or some other way of keeping
Shelley asleep for the next few days until there was no sign of
the operation. I breathed out slowly, shaking my head futilely.
It was impossible not to feel depressed.

"Do you have any questions?" Wilderstein asked.

"More like an observation. Shelley's ten years old. You said
the Russian boy was about twelve. The last time I looked,
compared to ten-year-old boys, most twelve-year-olds had bigger
balls. At that age, even a year can make a big difference in that
part of the anatomy."

Wilderstein shrugged and then he smirked. "You're the expert
on boys' gonads, I guess.

Aren't the Russians supposed to have small balls? Actually,
the doctors didn't say anything was unusual when I talked with
them earlier today. Maybe because the transmitter isn't all that
big. You want to see one? I've got the spare right here. I
thought you might want to see it."

"Show me," I said curiously.

Wilderstein slipped his hand into his jacket pocket. He drew
out a small plastic box and flipped the lid open with his thumb.
He held it out.

"It's a marvellous bit of engineering, Rick. If you didn't
know, you'd think the Israelis made it, rather than the Russians.
It looks just like the real thing the doctors tell me. Even the
color is right."

I studied the small egg-shaped object that lay in a foam
insert within the box. It was less than three quarters of an inch
long, a half an inch in diameter. It was cream colored and the
surface was slightly variegated in color and texture to represent
the real thing. Three small shiny tubes sprouted from one end,
like tiny catheters.

"Two of those tubes hold antenna," Wilderstein remarked.
"It's remarkable. The thing is even enclosed with silicon so it
actually feels a bit spongy. Inside there's a titanium casing
around the electronics. It's probably darn near indestructible."

"Batteries?"

Wilderstein gave me a supercilious look that was intended to
show that he was well versed in the latest technology.

"Fucking brilliant, especially for the Russians. They used
some Japanese technology for a change. There's one of those Seiko
kinetic batteries built right in. No need for a replacement,
which is good because there's no way of putting it inside short
of another operation. It gets charged every time his nuts move."
Wilderstein smirked. "Make sure your boy wears boxers so they
bounce around a lot. If my wife's watch is any indication, it
should be able to last at least a dozen years."

"How convenient," I said sarcastically.

"Once it's fully charged it'll run for ten hours if he
doesn't move. That's the down side. The problem is it works great
at night, and lousy when he first wakes up in the morning. If you
don't want it charging up, you switch it on and off by squeezing
on both ends at the same time."

I nodded, strangely interested in the device displayed
before me, yet still questioning the capability Wilderstein was
attributing to it.

"Their experience with high-tech pretty much requires that
they always have a backup plan," I said bluntly.

Wilderstein ignored my observation. "This thing is great
even by our standards, Rick. There's a spare, of course. I don't
know how you'd replace a transmitter in the field, so I don't
what good it would do you to take it with you," Wilderstein
joked. Then, true to character he was finished and he was ready
to dismiss me. "I'll call you if there's any thing else you need
to know. You know what arrangements to make."

"Expenses?"

"Pay them out of your fucking million."

"No way!"

"Okay. Don't get pissy with me. Use the cards inside the
file for everything you need. There's a twenty thousand limit on
each one. Get yourself some decent clothes. I'll bring the kid's
clothes with me. And get started learning your cover again.
You're still in the import business, the president of American
Imports.

It's a small company with big plans. You import mostly from
Bolivia."

"Very funny. I'm back in the cocoa business I presume. One
of the Agency's most successful firms," I said.

Wilderstein nodded. "It's a good cover. After all, you've
had a lot of experience in that part of the world and Bolivia
grows something like half the world's cocoa."

"It's more like a third," I corrected. "And I spent most of
my time in Mexico."

"Whatever! The important thing is that American Imports
hasn't been noticed by DEA yet. You need some help getting rid of
the opposition down there, so you want government support,
specifically military strikes against the other cartels.

You're willing to make a large contribution to his legal
fund. The donation will get you a face to face meeting. Then you
offer him more money under the table for the right words in the
right places. Hopefully they will have asked the Agency to do
some homework on you. He'll know you're in the cocaine business.
He'll try to play games with you, Rick. Once he sees Shelley,
you'll have to play the rest of it by ear. If nothing happens,
then maybe I'm wrong about him."

"I do have one question for you, Wilderstein." I watched for
his reaction. "How do you know he likes boys?"

"If you must know, it came up in a conversation with someone
in the British Secret Service who was looking to move to the
Agency. We discovered that he had some information. He raised a
few questions," Wilderstein said absently. "That's all I can tell
you."

I shook my head. "There's too much at stake to walk into
this cold.

Elaborate, or I walk out of here."

"Okay. So the guy told us a few things we didn't expect. It
turned out he was actually a Russian mole. In fact, you might say
he came from a family of moles."

"And?" I prompted without showing surprise. It was not
unusual for the Russians to involve several generations of the
same family in their nefarious plots.

"And?" Wilderstein shrugged. "You can figure it out."

"Let me think. Okay. He wanted to change sides? That makes
sense in today's market. Except he was afraid the Brits wouldn't
like that one of their own was playing on both teams, so he tried
us? They were never too keen on doubles, but we went for it."

Wilderstein laughed. "You're good, Rick. It's a pity you
left the Agency.

Now tell me how we get from him to our man."

"No idea."

"Think!"

"I don't have time to play games."

"You're right, Rick, and neither do I. Our British friend
was only a boy when he emigrated from Poland. He was eleven or
twelve at the time. One of his parents, I forget whether it was
his mother or father, was a professor at Oxford, made the
connection with our Man. It was in the late sixties, when a lot
of Americans studying at Oxford were flirting with socialism. It
would not have been a problem if that was all it was, but of
course, both parents were working for the Russians.

It was only a matter of time until the boy became involved
as well. It's not only the Russians know how to use a boy, it
seems." Wilderstein laughed and scratched the back of his balding
head."

"Very funny," I snarled."

"He was very good at it too, at least from what I've read in
the file. He was particularly good looking and he wasn't afraid
of getting his clothes off for Mother-Russia, and given His
predilections, it was only a matter of a few weeks before they
had Him under control."

"Fuck! You're joking!"

"No, but I wish I was. Like I said, the boy was very good at
it. From what I can tell, the kid probably looked a bit like
Shelley.

Straight blond hair and blue eyes. What you once referred to
as the 'Aaron Carter look', wasn't it Rick?"

I breathed out in frustration, again realizing that there
was no limit to how far the Agency could or would go.

"The boy recruited our man while he was the guest of his
parents for the weekend. They obviously set it up, or at the
least, they noticed the interest being shown in their son and
allowed it to happen. It's quite likely that it was the kid who
started the ball rolling. Maybe it was blackmail after the first
time or two, although I doubt it. Perhaps he even fell for the
kid, but more than likely, the boy was simply a way to exercise
his lust. Anyway, it worked. Our man bought into the other side,
for sex as much as anything else they might do to enhance his
career. You can imagine how pleased the Russians were when he
became governor, but when he took office they must have been
ecstatic. God only knows how much damage he's been able to do
since then. This is important, Rick. I'm not going to give you
the fate of the Nation speech, but it's that important."

Chapter Four

That afternoon I was very busy. By the time I went to sleep
late that night most of what I needed to accomplish was either
finished or well underway. There was even a 'for sale' sign
outside my house. The real estate agent had been told to sell it
quickly. My accountant had been instructed to sell my investments
and deposit the funds in a New York bank where they were promptly
transferred to an anonymous Cayman Island account.

The next morning, I was finished breakfast and reviewing the
cover documents for the third or fourth time when a white van
slowly came down the road. It turned into my driveway and stopped
in front of the garage. I called out to Maria to keep out of
sight and I was out the back door and waiting when the car door
opened. Wilderstein came around to meet me.

"Is he okay?" I asked as I tried to peer through the
darkened glass.

"He's fine. It went smoothly. At least there were no
problems at the clinic. The doctor used laser surgery. He tells
me it'll heal fast."

"What else?" I demanded.

"We've got the funds transferred," Wilderstein said. He
passed me a small piece of paper with a line of numbers and
letters on it. "You have to move fast, Rick. The Director wants
this wrapped up by the middle of next week."

"That's ridiculous!"

"You have ten days as I see it. It'll take at least half of
that for you to get the boy ready and set up the contact. A day
or two to get into place in Cincinnati. You have three days at
most to get it done. All I can tell you is it's important. It's
very important," he stressed.

"Fuck! Okay, Jacob. I'll try. I really don't have much of a
choice. Let's get Shelley inside and settled in bed."

"He's still unconscious. The nurse gave him a shot of
something right before we left the clinic. It's supposed to last
about six hours or so. I've got some pills for you to keep him
knocked out for a few days. I'm told that the feelings will have
returned to normal."

Wilderstein opened the side door of the van and stepped to
the side. I looked inside. A pale blue blanket covered his body
almost from head to toe. Only the top of his head peeked out. I
smiled slightly, remembering how soft his hair was. I wondered
whether he had been conscious at all since he fell off his
bicycle. It was unlikely.

"I'll carry him inside if you get the blanket and open the
door for me," I said. "At least you could have put some clothes
on him. It's cold out here."

"The doctor said to keep him bare or lightly covered down
there, Rick.

Fresh air aids the healing process, you know."

"I'm sure it does."

"He's okay, I promise. He might be a bit sore, but that's
all. He'll be up and about just as soon as the drug wears off."

"He's not okay, Wilderstein. Your bastards cut one of his
balls off. And don't bother trying to tell me it was a matter of
national security. I know better than that. There must have been
another way to get the bastard."

"Maybe. We don't have time, Rick. There's too much at
stake."

Gently I lifted the blanket away. He was dressed in a
disposable gown that hospitals use. It was loosely tied at his
waist and it had come apart far enough for me to glimpse his
chest and belly. Below that, a white gauze bandage loosely
covered his groin area. Shelley wasn't very heavy but it was
difficult maneuvering his inert body out the van. Once I held him
in both arms, his eighty pounds provided no difficulty. I carried
him into the house through the kitchen, into the hallway. With a
little difficulty I carried him up the stairs and carefully laid
him out full length on the king-sized bed in my bedroom. I stood
back to look at him for a few seconds before I turned to
Wilderstein.

"You okay to go to work or do you want some time to check
him out?" Wilderstein said snidely.

"You're a real asshole," I replied.

"Go on, take off the bandage. I can see you're curious,
Rick. You might as well see him now as after I'm gone. But
believe me, there's not much to see."

Rather than sit on the bed and run the risk of disturbing
him, I knelt down on the hardwood floor and carefully untied the
cord that secured the hospital gown. I lifted the sides away and
gently peeled the tape back from the gauze dressing. Cautiously I
lifted the gauze up. At first glance, everything looked normal.
Shelley's little penis was limp and lying against his lower
belly. His scrotum was relaxed, the delicate silky skin revealing
the rounded and slightly elongated shapes of two very small
testicles.

Shelley looked exactly the same as when I had last seen him
on Sunday morning. Well not 'exactly' the same. The last time I
had seen that part of him, he was putting his clothes on. He was
erect, for him a perfectly normal state. For a few minutes he
strutted around the room with his penis pointing the way, until I
wrestled him to the bed, gave him one final kiss on his hard
little projection and pulled his briefs up despite his
protestations to the contrary. We were already twenty minutes
late.

What surprised me was that there was no sign of an incision.

"You can't see anything, can you Rick?"

I turned back. Wilderstein had closed the distance between
us and was looking over my shoulder.

"They're the same size," I admitted.

"I told you it wouldn't be a problem with the Russian boy
being two years older."

"Where is it?" I asked.

"Way down between his legs, at the very back of his scrotum.
You'd think the doctor tried to take it out through his fucking
anus it's so far back."

"You're a funny guy, Jacob."

He laughed. "I told him we didn't want a visible scar so he
put it were no one would see it, not even Shelley, not unless he
looks in a mirror. Of course, cleanliness will be a bit of a
problem if you can't keep your hands off him for a few days."

Wilderstein's crude comments were enough to turn my stomach.
I wanted him gone from my home as quickly as possible. I stood up
and guiltily placed the blanket over the boy I loved. It was bad
enough that Wilderstein was there. He didn't have to see
Shelley's naked body.

"You got some coffee, Rick?" Wilderstein said. He regarded
me uncertainly. "You're still pretty sore about all this, aren't
you?"

"What do you think?" I asked testily. "Yeah, I've got some
coffee in the kitchen."

He followed me out of the room, back down the stairs, and
into the kitchen, taking a chair where he could have his back to
the wall and look out the window. Old habits died hard, even for
someone who had spent less than a year or two in the field. He
crossed his legs and arms and observed me in silence.

"So Rick, what makes a guy like you do it. I mean chasing
after little boys. You could probably have any woman you wanted.
I mean Shelley's a cute kid and all, but he's still a little boy.
It's not like he's really able to make love to you."

I winced. "If I have to explain it, you aren't going to
understand. It'd be a waste of time."

"Is it so great, fucking a little boy in the ass?"

"I'm not the first man to do it, Wilderstein. And I'm sure I
won't be the last. It's been going on since we lived in caves."

He shrugged. "I have a question for you? How are you going
to be able to look him in the face, knowing you let another man
fuck him?"

"Why do you think?" I replied petulantly. "Do you think I
like the idea?"

"I don't know. Probably not," Wilderstein smirked.

"That's an understatement. It isn't for the money either," I
added.

"You really want him that bad, huh?"

"Yes!" I answered. I watched Wilderstein sip his coffee. I
wished he would choke on it. "What else do you have for me?" I
asked after a moment.

"A couple of things. First, the receiver." He held out a
yellow box.

"It's been thoroughly tested and it's working one hundred
percent. It's got new batteries, too. You shouldn't have any
problems."

I took the object and turned it over. I examined it for a
few seconds. It looked very un-Russian. "It looks like a
Walkman."

"It is a Walkman, Rick. At least most of the insides are. It
looks like a Walkman on the outside too. Except for a few small
details that Sony doesn't provide, no one will notice it. You'll
find it works too, just like one you'd buy at the store. It's
tuned to the frequency of the transmitter so you won't get any
outside interference. The Russians used one of those new flexible
circuit boards to do the electronics. It's built right into the
plastic casing so it's totally hidden. The only difference
between this one and the real thing is how these two knobs work.
This one normally sets the AM-FM channel. It also sets the
channel for the transmitter. There are two of them. The alpha
carries your normal acoustic range of about ten feet plus or
minus. The other channel, well,... it's a bit different. God
knows how they managed to do it."

"What are you talking about?"

"Put the earphones and listen."

I placed the headphones on my head and waited. Wilderstein
said something about the way it worked. All I could hear was his
muffled voice. He moved the knob further to the right. A moment
later I could hear a soft tapping that mixed with a rustling
sound, rather like wind. It was slow and rhythmical, and very
relaxing. It was impossible to determine the source. I looked at
Wilderstein questioningly. He smiled. He pointed up.

"Huh? I don't know what I'm listening to."

"You can hear him breathing. The other sound is his heart,"
Wilderstein said. "Listen carefully."

He turned the knob. This time his voice was distinct,
although it sounded a long way away. I was reminded of a time
when I was child and a friend of mine and I used a hundred foot
length of garden hose to talk to each other.

It took a second or two before I realized what was
happening. I dragged the headphones away in surprise. Wilderstein
was not surprised.

"I told you, Rick. Marvellous bit of engineering, isn't it?"

I glanced up. "I could hear him breathing? And then when you
put it on the other channel, I heard you speaking. All the way
down here?"

He grinned no longer to contain his glee. "The microphones
are incredible. It has a range of up to two-hundred feet outside.
Indoors, it's only about half of that. It's not much good for
high-frequency sound, but voices? You've got to give the Russians
an A-plus for this one."

"It's fucking unreal. All the way down here. It sounded like
you were right next to him."

"Okay. Let's get down to business again. You have another
knob here. It sets the volume, just like a regular Walkman. If
you push in when you turn it, the volume changes for the
transmitter. You can record with this just like any normal one,
if you hear anything besides hard-core sex, that is." Wilderstein
smirked.

"Turn the volume up so you can hear through the head phones.
Then push the 'PLAY' button in and hold it. It writes onto the
cassette tape, using about a millimeter of the width, so the tape
inside the machine sounds perfectly normal if anyone plays it."

"What else?"

"If you push both the eject and the play buttons at the same
time, it sends a warning signal. Shelley will get a small
electric shock at the base of his penis. Not enough to make him
jump, of course, but he'll know something is up. Besides his dick
being up, that is," Wilderstein joked.

"It'll probably feel just like he's having an orgasm. He
knows how it feels to climax doesn't he? He can cum, can't he?"

"Fuck, you're a funny guy, Wilderstein. "A boy Shelley's age
certainly has orgasms, but it'll be a few years yet before
anything comes out."

"Thanks for that piece of valuable information. Like I said
yesterday, you're the expert on boys' gonads. I'll keep it in
mind when I start fucking boys. Anyway, lets get back to
business. Rick if you need to warn him, don't hesitate to use the
receiver to give him a warning shock. He needs to get his ass out
of there as quickly as possible. By the way, you'll get maybe two
shocks out of it before the battery is out of power. Remember it
won't be worth shit in the morning, unless he's had a very active
night," he said humorlessly.

"Anything else?" I bristled, impatient for him to leave. I
wanted to be upstairs next to Shelley when he woke up.

"Just his clothes. I've got them in the bag." He gestured to
the brown-leather travel bag next to the kitchen door.
"Everything's there, right down to the silk boxers and socks. You
might not like the choice, then again, maybe you will. He has to
look the part."

"Of a boy-whore?" I suggested snappily.

"It pays to advertise, Rick. That sounds like something you
would say, doesn't it?" He smirked and raised an eyebrow. I
ignored him. "You have a nice place here. What are you asking?"

"Three-fifty."

"Fully furnished too?"

"What do you think?" I answered irascibly. "Can you see me
holding a yard sale during the next few days?"

"There's no need to become indignant. The way I see it, this
is an arrangement of mutual benefit. You scratch my back, and
I'll scratch yours. Anything you lose from selling this place,
you can probably find a way to take out of your expenses."

"It's always quid pro quo for you, Jacob. Is there a
contingency plan?"

Wilderstein ignored me. I had no right to ask. However, I
knew Wilderstein almost as well as my own parents. He was a man
who never went forward with at least two courses of action
available to him should he find one way blocked. In fact, it was
not unusual for him to have two operations going at the same
time, both moving in different directions but ultimately having
the same goal. Under normal conditions, if the Agency went to
Plan B it was only because Plan A had failed. In that way,
Wilderstein was different. It was usually a race to the finish.

"Good luck, Rick."

"Will I need it?" I asked quietly.

"Probably not."

"If Shelley's in any danger, I'll pull him out in a flash.
You know I will. I'll even kill if I have to."

He glared at me, considering the likely victim should I have
to follow through on my threat.

"I know that. Look when he's with the Man, don't do anything
rash. Just find out how the information gets passed on. That's
all we need to know. Then get your asses out of there and fast."

"I thought,..."

Wilderstein looked at me dismissively. "You thought what?"
he intonated.

"You wanted the goods on him,... so he could be forced out?"

"The Director changed his mind. He's got a year left on his
term."

"What you really mean to say is that the Director wants to
be reappointed when the Administration changes." I took a deep
breath in growing frustration. "Nothing changes, Jacob. The rules
are the same, it's only the faces that change. Even the Agency
doesn't care what he does. Lying, stealing, abusing his power,
whatever he does, it doesn't matter. He's immoral and you treat
him like he's immortal! The man has no ethics!"

"Maybe. It doesn't matter."

"Christ, there's enough evidence to suggest he's a Russian
spy, god damn it! He ought to be doing life in Leaven worth."

"Don't get self-righteous with me, Rick. I know why you're
doing this, and it has nothing to do with preserving the nation's
security, or ethics, or morality. All you want is Shelley, isn't
that the truth?" Wilderstein said as he pointed upwards. "You'll
get your little fag-boy, and your money, but it's going to be on
our terms."

"Get out, Wilderstein," I said angrily. "Get out before I
fucking kill you. You and the assholes you work with are the
lowest scum on earth."

"You've a right to be angry. You're no better. You can
pretend you are, Rick, but in truth we both know you have no
conscience. You were perfectly happy to recruit Shelley for Bob
Maxwell. And when you took a liking to him, you didn't waste more
than a minute before you started working on the Hewer boy as a
replacement. When you get right down to it, you're no different
to than me."

I groaned inwardly. There was no denying that Wilderstein
was right. At that moment I made a promise to myself and the
unconscious boy upstairs.

At the end of the operation, I would make sure that he was
never treated the same way. He deserved more, much more. I loved
him, and every minute we spent together convinced me that the
love was returned.

"I'll see you in ten days, Rick," Wilderstein said abruptly.

He stood up and walked to the door. I was vaguely aware of
him leaving. I closed my eyes in guilty self-hatred, wondering
how I could do what I was about to do. However, there was little
enough time to get ready, and certainly no time for self-
recrimination.


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