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                     I am 35 and have been a eunuch for twenty 
years, since there is an interest in this sort of thing I would 
like to share my story with you.  Previously I had been ashamed to 
tell anyone how I became a eunuch but since I met John and his wife 
Sarah I have enough self-esteem to admit that I have always been 
homosexual and that it lead to my being gelded at age fifteen. I 
have become quite comfortable with being a gelding and would not 
wish to be a breeder if it were possible. I would rather be here as 
Sarah’s gelded maid. 
                     My first sexual encounter was at age eleven, I 
was going through puberty and was just beginning to experiment with 
myself when my older brother, age 14, brought home a pornographic 
magazine with the intent of showing it to me.  He waited until our 
parents were not home then carried me up to his bedroom. Where he 
produced the magazine and began to show me pictures of women 
performing oral sex acts with male partners.  After a few minutes 
he pulled down his trousers and began to masturbate, coaxing me to 
do the same, telling me it really felt good.  He always watched out 
for me so I believed him and followed his lead.  I quickly found 
that he was correct. It did feel good, very good.  My penis was 
immediately rock hard. As was his. 
                    After a few more minutes of us both whipping 
our Willy’s frantically, he told me that girls were not the only 
ones that did what we saw in the pictures, that boys do that for 
each other.
He then pulled off his trousers and sat down in the chair beside 
his bed, telling me to come over and get on my knees, he would 
teach me how it was done. 
                    It did look fun to me, so I did not hesitate. I 
was almost instantly on my knees between his legs with my hand 
wrapped around his cock masturbating him.  He liked this for a few 
minutes but then wanted to teach me more.  He pulled my head down 
over his cock telling me to take it in my mouth. I took it in my 
mouth finding it larger than I expected.  My brother then showed me 
how to move my head up and down with my lips firmly clamped around 
his cock.  I masturbated as I sucked his cock and really enjoyed 
this.  Within only minutes something salty tasting filled my mouth, 
I swallowed not knowing what it was.  I kept going and only minutes 
later something salty tasting filled my mouth again, which I 
swallowed again. This time my cock was beginning to feel really 
good and then the sensation began to go all over me. 
Something was happening. When it was over I did not feel like doing 
my brothers cock anymore nor my own.  I took my mouth off my 
brother’s cock and looked down at my own. There were white liquid 
drops all over the floor and a drop hanging from the end of my 
cock.  My brother explained that I was a natural. That the white 
stuff was cumm and that was the liquid, which I felt in my mouth, 
and that I was correct to swallow it. But to masturbate with one 
hand and catch it with the other. Turn loose of his long enough to 
cumm and just hold his with my mouth. When I was finished cumming 
to lick it off my hand, and that would finish both of us. 
                     The next day went by but when bedtime came I 
went over to his room and we repeated the act and this time I did 
as he had told me. It was fun. This continued for two weeks or so 
with us doing it every day. Then he told me a friend of his was 
coming home with that night and he expected me to do both of them. 
That night it was not a problem, and I enjoyed doing both. But his 
friend could only cumm once before his cock went soft. I had 
already lost my cumm before my brother did his second one. It was 
not as fun after I lost mine but he made me finish anyway. It was 
OK.  His friend told me just to ask boys if I could suck their cock 
when I wanted to do someone. Soon I was doing all my little 
friends, none of them turned me down.  They all liked it.  
                    Then one day one of the little girls my age 
came over in school and sat beside me and asked, “do you suck the 
other boy’s cocks?” 
                    When I told her yes she sort of giggled then 
nodded to the other girls across the room who also let out a little 
giggle.  Then I asked if she wanted me to suck hers.  She looked 
surprised and said,”girls don’t have one.” then got up and left.
                     I had no idea what she meant but asked my 
brother that evening. “Dummy, girls have a hole down there.” then 
he brought out another magazine and showed me. 
                     It looked awful. I did not want to see 
anymore. I would just keep doing boys, which I did all through 
school. Later I found out what a homosexual was, I guess I was one. 
The girls all knew and would not have anything to do with me anyway.
                     This continued until I was fifteen, it was 
then that one of my friends took me to a house where I met a woman 
he knew would have sex. She was older than we were, she was thirty-
five but I had been wondering what sex with a girl was like and 
none at school would have anything to do with me. 
                     When we got there I was a bit bashful. She was 
well built with long black hair. Her breast sagged a little but 
they were rather large. She let us in wearing only a bathrobe. Then 
once inside she immediately dropped the robe and was completely 
naked.  I was embarrassed and she could tell. She loved it, 
saying, “so this is the little queer boy who has never had a girl.”
Then continued, “if you will perform for me first by sucking your 
friends cock while I watch I will make it very special for you.”
                      I would not at first but the two of them 
together talked me into it.  We both stripped naked and I got on my 
knees. The woman got behind me and told me she was going to play 
with my balls while I performed that it would be better.  It was 
the most erotic experience I had ever had. It was great to suck my 
friend’s cock and masturbate while she massaged my balls.
About half way through I felt her tie something tight around my 
scrotum, but she reassured me it was only to make it better for me. 
I continued and moments later my friend squirted his cumm into my 
mouth just as I masturbated mine to climax. As I climaxed my friend 
pulled his cock from my mouth, which was still full of his cumm, 
when I felt a sharp burning pain in my groin.
This ended my climax and my cock went limp immediately. I turned to 
look at the woman as she got up holding my testicles and scrotum in 
her hand. She showed them to me saying, ”queers do not need these, 
because you might do something perverted with a woman. This will 
make sure you never have any desire for women, and since you have 
never had a woman it makes sure you never will.” Then she told me 
to get up on the little table so she could stitch up the cut. She 
then walked over to a desk and dropped my sex organs into a jar of 
liquid, and returned to me with a needle and thread with which she 
closed the wound after deadening the area. 
            When she finished she told me,”I wouldn’t tell anyone 
of this unless you want everyone to know a woman castrated you 
where you can never have sex with a female, besides in a couple 
weeks you will have healed up and be impotent, you won’t have the 
slightest desire for women, you won’t even become aroused at the 
sight of a woman’s naked body, you will just keep sucking cocks 
like you always have, learn to enjoy being exclusively homosexual.”
             My friend helped me get dressed and then helped me 
home. I asked him if he knew she was going to do that. Which he 
admitted he did and said my brother also knew and agreed. They 
thought it best and that woman enjoyed castrating virgins so they 
would always remain as such. That I was not her first, that the 
others were also homosexuals. He said he would take me by to see 
her again when I was well. She would check to see that everything 
was OK down there. 
                They were correct, it took more like a month but I 
healed up just fine and did become completely impotent. The woman 
was also correct that the girls around me no longer attracted me 
and I did suck cock just like before, only now my cock was 
permanently soft. I could not masturbate. My friend did teach me 
new tricks to cumm. He began to stick his cock up my butt and fuck 
me until I would have a better climax than I did masturbating, but 
there was no white cumm to shoot from my cock, it was dry. Once he 
taught me anal sex I began to prefer it to sucking a cock. That way 
I could climax too.
                The next week my friend carried me back to see the 
woman who had gelded me. I was not angry with her, because I did 
like it.  She had me strip and sit on the table she used to stitch 
up my wound. As I sat there naked she remover all her clothing 
until she stood naked before me. She then walked over to me and put 
her foot up on a stool where I could easily see every detail of her 
pussy telling me, “if you still want some and can get an erection 
you can take me anyway you would like.”
                I looked at her femininity and told her I had no 
desire for any, nor could I get an erection.
               She looked very pleased then reached down and stuck 
her finger inside her own pussy. She then pulled it out and had me 
open my mouth for her to insert that same finger. As she had me 
suck her finger she said, “taste the only flavor of a woman you 
will ever have and remember it well.”
               She then removed her finger from my mouth and 
pointed to her earrings. She told me to look closely, they were my 
testicles dried and encapsulated in clear plastic balls and set in 
a golden woman’s sex symbol as her trophy, that she would wear them 
for her girlfriends as she did not like men. She too was homosexual.
              She made me bend over and then gave me one injection 
of estrogen into my buttocks to start me off and help me lose any 
bodyhair I might have. She then asked my friend if he had taught me 
to fuck yet. When he replied yes, she seemed very happy with that 
as well. Lastly she carried me to her restroom and made me lie 
naked on the tile floor. She straddled me and squatted down over my 
face, telling me, “This will be your most useful position for a 
woman.” Then she parted her pussy lips with her fingers and gave me 
my first “golden shower.” I think I liked having a woman pee in my 
face.
               We left her house and I never saw her again. Never 
again have I had the urges towards women as I was beginning to have 
before I was gelded. Women do not stand out sexually to me, I 
definitely prefer men. I have had many lovers and am very 
submissive to a point of being docile. I have become accustomed to 
having anal sex almost all the time and do enjoy it, as do my 
lovers.  They all know I can’t perform as a male and this makes 
them all the more excited. 
This was everything until around five year’s age. I was from man to 
man for fifteen years but then I met John. I did not know he was 
married at first. When I found out was after we had been lovers for 
a few months. He carried me home and gave me to his wife as a 
eunuch slave. She was very nice and we got along well so I decided 
to stay. I have been here for five years. Sarah and I are like 
girlfriends but no sex. Occasionally she will let me suck a nipple 
while she masturbates or while her and John have sex, but I am not 
allowed to touch her pussy under any circumstances. Occasionally 
when Sarah does not want sex, John will ride me for a woman. Sarah 
has watched a few times and seems to enjoy seeing me made into a 
woman. This is not very often. As a eunuch it is good I have a low 
sex drive because Sarah seems to like to make me do without, but 
occasionally peak through to watch her having sex with a man, while 
I masturbate my soft little penis. If I get any once a month I am 
doing well, and then it is when a guy takes me anally. Sarah will 
not allow me to have sexual contact with a woman, even if I could 
perform.
                Usually I am just her maid, she makes me maintain 
my brunette hair long like a woman and wear a French maid’s dress. 
I do all her household chores and keep her children. She also has 
me do the shopping and any running around she might need done. 
Plus, she lets me do her hair, makeup and nails.
               I have taken women’s hormones as a eunuch for so 
long that it is hard to tell I was ever a man. If you do not see my 
little penis, you can’t tell. I have become comfortable here with 
Sarah and guess I will remain as long as she wants me.