A story of a bi male who lives sexually between an incest relation with his aunt and a gay relation with his best friend finally chooses to end the issue by living as an eunoch.
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Between Two Forbidden Worlds
It didn't take long for me to discover both my sexual orientation,
bisexual and when to start doing it. I became sexually active at
the age of 12 years old, however it didn't happen the way most boys
learn about sex. I found myself in bed with my 32 year old aunt
discovering how women have their orgasms. For me this was not
particularly an exciting turn on, but a chance encounter my
neighborhood friend in the shower two years later convinced me the
male side of the street was far more preferable. At the age of 14,
I was leading a double life. After I found out my aunt was pregnant
by me, I decided for a while to stay on the gay side for a while.
During the pre-don't ask/don't tell military days, life was pure
hell, at this point in my life a new idea was beginning to jell in
my head. Between the AIDS fear and the homophobic fundamentalist
witch hunts of the 1980s my mental state was getting shaky. I tried
again to reestablish my old lifestyle only to discover how very
perilous things were in the late 1980s, between gays who could not
form relationships and a relative who played a head game it was time
to put the plan into action. The simple idea of going to a
Urologist and asking for a castration was a disaster, don't do it
folks, these guys are just plain crap artists and are afraid.
Finally after a year on the Internet I found a medico in
Philadelphia. He said he would do the operation for cash no
questions asked. Fine with me. In August 1998 I flew there and
took care of the matter. I was castrated, but my penis was left
intact. Two years later I do have sizeable breasts and may
eventually wear a brassier. Contrary to myth
I do still have erections on a regular basis. Any regrets? Few to
none, reason is simple, I fathered 2 kids by my aunt, they grew up
and are doing fine. I can still have sex with a woman or man minus
the baggage anytime. With a minor surgical procedure anytime I can
opt to go into the domain of the female if I should tire of the male
world at sometime.