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Fragments from a Mistresses diary.........
May 5th Today I accepted a new slave into my service, the one I had been considering. Young and quite handsome. I don't intend to have this one castrated, at least not for some time. I locked his member into a chastity device and I'm curious to see how long he will be able to stand it. I don't intend to make it easy for him! The point at which he thinks he can't go on will only be the beginning. I allowed him to pleasure himself after explaining that it would be the LAST time. That he would not be doing that again while in my service. October 23rd My "chastity slave" is still with me. A little over five months now without sexual release. I'm impressed with his dedication. In addition to household chores I usually have him acting as my clothing attendant, dressing and undressing me. And as a reward I've let him bathe me a few times, though I usually prefer to have that done by my eunuch. He enjoys it but has admitted that it causes his balls to ache terribly. Maybe I will "reward" him more often. I love his frustrated passion and can see that he is sometimes desperate to lay me down and fuck me. But that will never be. And if he had the balls to do something like that he would never have agreed to this arrangement. February 2nd Nine months and counting. But my poor tortured slave is beginning to crack. He has asked if I might release him from his restraint, "just for a few minutes", but I reminded him that that wasn't the agreement. He must either remain chaste or leave. He chose to stay and I said that castration might be an option if he felt he couldn't bear his sexual frustration, but he would have to convince me that he really wanted it. February 9th Today he kneeled before me and begged to be castrated. It was a wonderful feeling of power! I must savor the feeling and experience it further. I told him I would think about it. March 1st After repeated begging I agreed to have him castrated if he agreed to my conditions. 1. He would be fully trained as a lady's eunuch and would be expected to apply himself to becoming skillful. 2. He would not be allowed to pleasure himself before being cut. Castration would be a relief from his torment and nothing more. I want him to accept castration as part of serving me, not as an opportunity for sexual gratification. I also made it clear that his alternative was to leave and never return. I told him to think about it and not mention the subject for at least two days. We shall see...... March 3rd He agrees! He will become my willing and obedient eunuch! He was disappointed (and relieved at the same time?) when I told him that I was setting the date of his castration for a couple of months from now - exactly one year from the day he entered my service. I'm looking forward to observing the changes in him as he goes from lusting male to calm eunuch. I'm sure he will be a good one, given his already submissive nature. I've thought about allowing him to "get off" just before being cut. It would be interesting to watch him do so. His very last chance after a full year of chastity. But I've decided not to. He will likely adjust to castration better if it is a relief, and escape, rather than experiencing sexual gratification right before being cut. Better that he isn't powerfully reminded of what he is giving up.
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