Lost and Found

All my adult life I felt out of place. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed sex, I enjoy having my cock stroked and tasted. Though all of this I enjoy, I still feel the need to be totally controlled, cuckolded, and dealt with sexually; by a strong dominant person. My wife first put it together about a year after our marriage, she noticed that I liked being treated feminine, and I was more submissive than she had believed. We started surfing the web, she found a site called Alt.com, and there she could talk with other dominant people of their experiences. She enjoyed talking with other people, getting ideas, and experimenting. It wasn’t until I discovered that there was a site called Eunuch.org which I realized there was another way to totally be controlled and to forever feel meek and helpless, like I had always secretly longed for. I could be asexual. I liked to sit and fantasize about someone taking me against my will, tying me up and doing the ‘unthinkable’ to me. Here is my fantasy:

We make a pact, one in which I am totally put in a feminine form, for her pleasure, of course. After work, I would be required to come home, get undressed, put on the frilly clothes that she picks out for me, fix my hair, and more or less be treated as a woman. She would take over my body. Tell me when to sit and pee, and then at night, when the kids are put to bed, I would be a woman. We go to bed, and instead of going to sleep, she would tell me that no matter how hard my day was, or how tired I am, that I will be fucked, and I will submit to whatever and however she chooses to penetrate me.

She makes me roll over in the bed, get up on my hands and knees, and rest on my arms. I can feel her as she removes the panties, that I now wear 24 hours a day. Suddenly I feel air against my anus, and then something cold, and silky rubbed against my ass, inside the hole, which she is peering at. Behind me, I hear the snap of rubber, not knowing what it is; I cringe waiting for the sting of a whip. That sting doesn’t come. I feel her fingers slide down my crack and under my balls, to fondle that sensitive area below my ass hole, and I instantly get hard, dripping my pre-cum on the bed below me. She reaches down to stroke my cock; she starts laughing as she rolls cum around her fingers, gliding it over the head of my dick. I start to tremble as I feel her fingers steadily moving over me. As I begin to relax and enjoy the experience, suddenly she shoves her finger (I now know is fully gloved) in my ass. Pushing her way as far in as she possibly can. She touches something that makes my cock jerk just thinking of it. I can feel her finger gliding, shoving, and ramming itself against my prostate. It feels amazingly erotic, and sensual at the same time, it feels submissive.

She reaches up and pulls my head back by my hair and tells me that the only way I will cum, is if I cum while being fucked up the ass, and fucking the bed. I start to writhe under her finger, but she only plunges it farther and faster into me.

So this is how it feels to be fucked? I immediately start pumping the mattress below me, as she pushes faster and harder against me. My knees start getting week, and she is losing tempo, but all the while she is hitting my prostate full force. As I feel her hands, seemingly all over my body, I fuck faster, knowing that at any minute I will cum. That my beautiful wife will make me know what it truly feels like to be fucked with no stimulation to my cock.

At the exact moment I shoot my load into the mattress, I feel a searing pain between my thighs. I start to scream in pain. In agony I turn over on the bed, look down, only to see that a metal band is where my balls had once been.

I look up at my wife, who is wiping her hands after removing the gloves. She is smiling, softly mumbling to herself.

I beg her to tell me why. Her reply?

Your tiny cock was never any use to me. And it won’t be long before it’s useless for you as well.