Ultimate Fantasy Come True 3

Every sense I was about 7 or 8 years old I have had the desire to hang my self by my penis and testicles. I have tried many times to do this and usually just ended up with sore testacies. I would tie a slip knot and put it around my genitals, Tie it to something and try to lower my self down on the rope until I was hanging. The pain always got too much before I had my entire weight on the rope. I learned in later years that if I tied a hangman’s noose with at least 12 or 13 loops around the rope it would not loosen up when it was cinched down. I had to cut a lot of ropes to get out of them until I learned how to put a slip loop in the top of it. If I had an erection when I slipped the rope around my penis it wound cinch down hard enough so it would not slip up the shaft and put pressure on my testicles. The first time I did this I put the noose around my penis below the testicles and looped the rope around a hook above my head and back down behind my back so I could pull on it from behind. I stood on my tip toes and pulled the rope tight and raised my toes. I had to do this about three or four times tightening the rope each time and the last time I raised my toes I was swinging free. I was excited I had finely hung my self. Then I realized I was only holding about half my weight with my penis and the rest with my arms behind my back. But no matter I was going to have fun with my new method of hanging. I went out and got three plywood boards about 12X12 inches and stood two of them on there side and laid the other one across the top to form a hanging platform. I eased up on the platform and pulled the rope tight and went through the tip toe thing until I swung free and then with my toe I tipped the boards over. Now I was not only hanging I was hanging a foot above the floor. I played with this method off and on for the next couple of weeks when I learned that the body is longer and heaver above the penis than it is below. I stepped up on my platform and tightened the rope and decided I would tip over the boards before I was swinging and then I would drop a couple of inches and start swinging. When I wiggled the boards and made them drop I was off balance enough that my head was going down and my feet was coming up before I could let go of the rope. I let go of the rope and my head and shoulder hit the floor and about cold cocked me. That was enough of that for a while.

I am now back into hanging myself and trying to fully hang by my penis and testicles. I tried putting the rope around the hook and pull up from the front but when my feet leave the floor my feet goes out in front of me and I can’t get them back so I have to lower myself to the floor on my butt. I finely tied the end of the rope to the hook and took hold of the rope and bent my knees up off the floor. I then started relaxing my hold on the rope putting more and more weight on the penis until I could finely let go of the rope and use my hands only to balance me so I would not swap ends again. It was very painful but I stand the pain because I was finely after all these years I was finely hanging by my penis and testicles. Then I started thinking about what it would have felt like if the weight of my body would have pulled off my genitals.

Over the next few months I hung myself quit a few more times and continued thinking about pulling my penis off. I started preparing the way to do it not thinking I would ever do it. My garage has a vaulted roof and it is about 12 foot to the peak. I put a eye bolt at the peak and every time I was in there I would look at the bolt and dream about what I wanted to do. One day I took my favorite hanging rope and put a hang mans noose on one end with out the slip loop in it so when tightened I could not get it undone. I then measured up eight feet and cut the rope and tied it to a ring. I then found a padlock that I could lock the ring to the eye bolt and took it up the ladder and put it through the eye bolt. I then nailed two 2 X4 between the rafters on each side of the eye bolt that I could hold on to with my hands on one side and hook my feet over on the other. I them went on about my business and glanced up at the set up each time I was in the garage. A day or so later I said what the hell and put an old box springs and mattress under the eye bolt and got a hand held phone and dialed 911 then hung up so all I had to do was hit redial to get help. I went and got the rope and slipped it over my penis and testicles and hooked the other end over a hook and pulled back on the rope to tighten it. I climbed up the ladder and snapped padlock through the ring and the eye bolt. I took a hold of one 2X4 and put my feet over the other one and pushed the ladder over. There I was. Now I could not back out because there was no way I could get the lock off or untie the rope. I knew I could only hang there for so long so falling was inevitable. So I let go. I hit the mattress and the pain hit me. I looked up and seen me penis and testacles still on the end of the rope and picked up the phone and hit redial before I passed out.

It is now a year later and I have healed. I don’t miss my penis but I do miss having some thing to hang from.