Will I Say Stop?

I was 22 years old. I had my degree and was looking for a job. There had been a few girls in my life. I even had sex with a couple. But it was not much more then masturbating. I had read about gay sex. While I was not sure if I wanted it, I did not dislike the thought.

I was trying to figure out who I was. So one night I went to a gay bar. In I went and found a set at the bar near the door. I guess so I could run if I decided. My heart was beating so fast. I could hardly keep my voice steady to order a draft. I was half done when this gay looking follow came and sit down near me. “Hi I am called Sally and you?”

“I am Sam. I am new here”

Just then a dancer in tight underpants only came up on bar and started dancing.

“Women make me so mad they never care about you.” Sally said.

I noticed she was dressed like a male but called herself Sally. “I know what you mean. My last girl friend borrow $500.00 then when I tried to have a little sex she kick me in the balls and said if I ever call or tried to see her again she would file rape changes.”

Sally looked so sad “oh honey I know what you mean”

One man at the bar handed the dancer a $20.00 then another and another after which the dancer took off his red underpants and gave then to the man. Oh was he really hung. A large penis and a set of big low hangers for balls. The man at the bar started to play with his penis which got hard as a brick. The man then took him by the hand and helped him off the bar. They them went into the room behind the bar area. Oh that started my penis to get hard.

I had forgotten about Sally. “That really turns you on. I see by your pants.” He put his hand on my leg and moved it to my penis. He had a nice touch. But it scared me.

“I better get going... sorry I have an appointment.” I thought I better run or I would do something I may not like afterwards.

I left as he said “bye, some other time” then as I reached the door he was right behind me and rubbed my ass. “ after you have more nerve”

I left and walked down to the next bar around the corner. It was not a gay bar so I sat at a table. And ordered a draft again. It was steam beer they said. I never had heard of it. But it sure was good. I sat and drank and thought. Oh why had I run. I believe you want to try it, why run?

I was finishing the beer when a musclebuilder type with blue jeans and white t-shirt put another beer down in front of me. “My I join you.”

“Sure, I am Sam” I looked him over he looked ok. “ Thanks for the beer”

“I’m David. You looked deep in thought, have I interrupted you?”

“O not really I was trying to figure something out.”

“Do you want to talk about it, sometimes help.” He was looking me over.

“I don’t know maybe.” I took a drink

“Would it help if I said I was in the other bar and saw you with Sally. He, she or it sure can come on too strong”

I most have turned red. I took another drink.

He place a hand on my shoulders. “It’s ok, you have never been with a man before have you.?

Something inside said run not walk and go home. “ That is true but female do me nothing. I can’t tell if it is that I have not found the right one or I’m gay.”

He took a drink from his beer and was thinking. I was thinking why did I tell him this. Sam you better run. Oh why maybe you would like it. He doesn’t seem to off bet, he should be ok.

“It is hard to tell. Some never know. Some try making love with a guy then decide it is not for them. But the true love for those who find the love in the arms of their best man.” He took another drink and let what he said sink into me. “Tell me what have you been thinking.”

“I think about touching another man, sucking his penis and maybe being fucked in the ass. And of course him doing it with me”

I drink the last of my beer. “Any thing else?”

“Well I have thought maybe ... I can’t say it”

He put his hand on my shoulder. “ Oh come now say it... you will feel better.”

I looked at him for a few minutes. He got up with both our glasses and got us some more beer. I was building up more nerve.

“Look” he said as he sat down. “Tell me and then after the beer you leave alone or what else happens.”

“Will I have thought about” it was hard but I just looked away and said “ about being spanked in the love making. Now isn’t that crazy.” I took a drink of beer.

He moved closer and put is hand on my knee and said after a few moments of silence. “ Not so crazy as you think. I have had several lover who enjoyed a good spanking” He took a drink of his beer. “ and to tell the truth I enjoy apply the spanking to butt and shoulders. What ever you like.”

We fell silence again. Or I knew I should run but I getting hard and the thought of getting that spanking I had been dreaming about. ‘Oh Sam run, run and do not look back’ I was thinking.

I finished the beer with out a word. My mind and heart was racing.

He finished his “Listen I am going outside. I will wait for 5 minutes. You come out and we will go to my place. It is a short walk away. We can try as far as you like. I will go slow and stop when ever you say so.” Then he got up and left.

Oh I knew what I should do, but he said he would stop when I said so. I sat and thought for awhile. Then got up and walked to the back door I walked there slowly then turned and walked fast to front door.

“Sure glad I was slow leaving. That was seven minutes.”

“I can’t be I know I was thinking for a while but that long”

“That is right, so if this isn’t a I will go with you – say so and I’m gone”

I did not think this time,” which way to your place.”

“This way,” he patted my ass, which this time I liked.

We walked to a door between two stores and went up some stairs. There were three doors there. We went into the one on the left. It was a beautiful place. A big living room that had a chair, table, couch and TV. The kitchen open to living room with a table in-between. The hall way lead to a bathroom and then to the bedroom.

“Have a sit on the couch.” He went and got two cokes.

He came and sat next to me. He put is hand on my leg. Then took off his t-shirt, took of his shoes and then looking at me took off his pants. “ you can get comfortable if you want.”

I just sat there.

“How do you like my muscles.”

“Oh I do” I touched his arms then his chest. “ I bet when you spank it really hurts” Why did I say that.

“You will find out soon enough.” He than started to unbutton my shirt and off it came. Then he help me off with the t-shirt. He played with my nipples. He pinched the right one real hard. “How do like that little pain?”

“Glad it stopped but it was ok.”

Off came my shoes and pants. He then put his hands in my balls and rubbed them. Putting his hands in the waste band of my under pants and off they started to came. I raised my hips and they were off. He started to jack my penis. Then put his mouth down and kissed and then sucked my penis. Oh it felt so good. Just I was enjoying it he stopped.

Off came his pants. And he was really big. “Your turn.”

I took his member in my hands and felt it then pulled back. Hey I had someone else’s dick in my hand. But I put it back and pumped. “Ok kiss it”

Oh how could I ? I came close to him them back , then back near his penis. Almost but then back. “Close your eyes” I did and got close and he guided my head to his penis. I kissed it closed lipped. Back I pulled my head then back eyes open and kissed it again. I waited a few minutes, he said nothing. I then went to kiss it and open my mouth and in it went. I did nothing. I could not believe what I had in mouth. I sucked a little, I loved the taste and there was power in his penis, I could feel it. I pulled off. He rubbed my penis.

“Lie down and put your face between my legs.” Why was I doing this. I lie face down with hand in his lap. As I lay head down I let his penis go into mouth and I sucked. I took it out and kissed his balls. I could not believe I was doing this, was I dreaming or a dream come true. While I was kissing his balls and sucking him he was playing with my ass, rubbing it and running his finger over my asshole. Then he put a finger in my hole. Oh it hurt but it came right out. He played more and put the finger back inside and it was better. I pulled my mouth off his huge cock.

“Not to sure I can eat your cum or not” I milked his cock and out came the clear pre-cum.

“OK lick it and see if you like it.” In went the finger in my ass.

I licked it, why I did it I do not know it was sweet and I liked it. I let penis back into my mouth and sucked it more and more. The finger went into ass again and he came into my mouth. I started to with draw my head up but his other hand held it in place. I sucked and eat it all.

You are good at that. Not meaning to sound funny, you are a great cock sucker” And laughed.

“What do you think of taste?”

I thought for a minute. “I never dreamt it would tastes so good. I was always told it was bad. I loved sucking your love handle.”

“That is the lie to keep people from giving blow jobs. Your mother more then likely told you it was bad and then sucked off your father.”

“Let us go take a shower.”

“How about you” And I pointed at my cock.

“You bet” And he put his hand in my lap and as he sucked and I dreamed of sucking him. When I came I could almost taste him again. He finished and came up and kissed me. What a surprise as I open my mouth to him and he let my cum go into my mouth and I ate it.

We then went into bathroom. We got wet and soaped each other up. How I loved the feel of those muscles. I toweled him first. Them him me. I then saw him pick up a razor strap. “Bend over and hang onto the sink.”

I did and he brought back the strap and wham right on my ass. “Oh god that hurt”

Wham on the ass again. Then again twice more.

“I told you would find out soon enough” I rubbed my ass and looked in mirror they were red really red. He took me by the arm and lead me into bedroom. There beside the bed was a padded bench and he put me over it. My feet almost could touch the floor. He held my two hands beside my back.

“Here we go. Count with each hit” So I counted to ten. Each one set me on fire. Why didn’t I say stop. He laid down the razor strap. And rubbed my ass. “Hold on to the front legs” I did, "why?"

I counted to ten as he put the strap from the left side across my back. Then ten from right side and ten on my ass.

Finally I had had enough “Hey that is enough with that razor strap”

“Ok” He laid it down. And I felt fingers of leather across my ass. “This is called a cat o nine tails. It will not leave any scar but only a few welts.”

Oh god that first one on ass hurt so bad. “Count”

He hit me again. “Two”

“No you start with one.” So I counted to ten again, twelve really. He had took of my hands so pulled me to the floor.

“Kiss my feet then ass.”

“I don’t think so” I was lifted to bench. He took my hand and tied them this time behind my back. Ten from each side. I was really too full of pain I don’t know what was going on. Also I must say I loved the pain. Oh at least I was telling my self I did. He was also telling me I was enjoying it.

On the floor and I kissed his feet. I worked my self up his legs. I kissed his two butts.

He bent over. I couldn’t go to asshole. “It is twenty each side this time.”

My tongue went to his asshole licked and licked. I can’t say I liked it but it sure bet getting your ass bet again. But then he lifted me to the bench again. He tied my legs to the bench. And untied my hands but tied one then the other to front bench legs. By now I got up the nerve to ask. “What are you doing?”

“Oh it is time to cat your back and ass.”

My ass was on the bend of bench and back out straight. “ must you really, how much do you think I can take.”

He rubbed my sore back and ass with the finger in the ass again. “ I see you didn’t say stop, so I know you can take more.”

He played with my ass more then took the jar of petroleum jelly and took a finger full of it and put in my asshole. “You will learn to love the feeling of being greased because you will know getting fucked is next.”

“I’m not sure I any longer want it now.” But I was getting hard thinking of it.

He rubbed my ass. “Oh you do too. You are getting hard. And if you don’t just say stop.”

Oh how I wanted to say stop but I had went this far and while it was with a lot of pain I just couldn’t say stop.

“I know it is hard but you are a real pain horse.” He pulled my ass apart. I could feel him play with his penis across my virgin asshole. “Can you feel that against your hole. You like that don’t you. Now tell the truth.”

“Yes I must admit it feels good. My body has a lot of pain but your penis on my asshole feels good.”

“What about the pain do you like it.”

I thought for a few more moments as he played with his penis on my asshole. “Yes I must admit the pain I like why I can’t tell.” And I really did. I can’t tell why then or now. I still am a pain horse.

“Thought so, there will be some pain when I put it in. Let me know when ready”

I felt him play a little more then “ok”.

He put it all the way in. I felt some pain but not bad. He held it there for a few moments then started to pump. I heard him make some sounds that got louder. “Oh god it is great” He must have cum. “I tell you, you have a great ass. It was made for fucking.”

He pulled it out and cleaned my ass off. Rubbing my ass “ you know you are a great slave, really. there is only one thing that gets in the way” He went into bathroom and washed off. On returning he had something in his hand I could not see. He pulled on balls so they hung lower. Then I felt something going over then. Snap – oh the pain.

“What the hell have you done. Do you know how bad it hurts”

“I have banded you. It will stop hurting in awhile” He then started to flogged me on back and ass.

Real hard a few and soft. My balls hurt but so did the rest of my body. Then he took a paddle and spanked me one side of the ass at a time. I was about to say stop several time but he must have realized it for he slowed down. I was not my self I could not believe I had taken so much pain. And to really top it off I seemed to be enjoying it.

He stopped beating me. He untied my hands and tied them behind my back. I was so happy the beating was stopped I never said a word. Plus I was crying too much. He undid my legs and I was soon on knees and his cock in my mouth again. I needed no order I sucked him off and enjoy it all and ate all the sweet tasting cum.

Next he tied my leg in the air between bed and bench. He took my balls in his hand. It was then I realized how cold they were. “It has been almost an hour since I banned your balls. They must have stop hurting as bad.”

“True I said” I did not know what he had done and what it meant. But I soon was to find out.

Your balls are almost dead maybe an hour or so but I do not plan to let it go that long. For like I said you are a great slave, really. there is only one thing that gets in the way” He rubbed my balls. “Your balls are the only thing that stops you from thinking of master’s pleasure. I will cut then off. And it will change your outlook on life.”

What was happening. I was first only going to try a little gay sex now I was beaten so bad I could not keep my thinking straight. I had been fucked and learned to eat cum. And now was to lose my balls. Can I say no. Can I say stop.

He took a hold of my balls and pulled then away from my body. It was then I saw he had really put on two bands, one near the other. He put a single edge razor blade between the bands.

“Well what will it be. Will you say stop or will you say take off my balls”

He turned the blade over and rubbed between bands with dull side. It is easy, draw it across the ball one, two, then three and off. Some time only two times.”

Oh my mind was racing so fast. “You like sucking the cock and feeling the power. You liked the taste of the cum. I believe you liked being fucked. Did you?”

Weakly I said “yes, I must say it felt great to know you were in me and you felt so good putting you love in my ass and I know your cum is in my ass.” What am I saying, I am going to say take them off. No I can be it is time to say stop, what is wrong with you.

I will make it easy on you. Say ‘stop’ or just ‘off’”

What now, he had sharp edge of blade between the bands. My mind started to say stop, stop, stop,

my mind was crying inside me, stop. I opened my mouth to say stop, but my heart yelled at full force

“OFF”

One cut “oh god” two cut I am still yelling and they only hang on by so little and three they are gone.

He cut into sack and brings out a ball and then puts it in his mouth. He is eating my testicle.

As he eats it he cuts out other ball and puts in my mouth and says “eat it or I take off penis.”

I eat and enjoy.

Next he sews end of sack that is left and cuts off band then stop the little bleeding with red hot iron on bleeding spot.

I have been his slave for 10 years and enjoy it very much. What else can a eunuch who is a pain horse, that loves to be fucked and enjoys cum for breakfast to do.

Maybe someday I will say stop.