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My name is Werner. I am 32 y/o, 185 cm, black hair, slim, like travelling, reading newspaper, listening music. I have lost my penis at an accident with my motorcycle 14 years ago. The accident happened in summer. I wore a pair of short trousers only, no safety dress, when I made a short ride with my motorbike in our village. A car hit me and I came below my bike. My lower body got contact with the chain and foot rests. I can't remember these things, but police suggested this way. Additional to the direct injury, there occurred an infection one day later because of dirt.
That time I got seriously injured and survived only due to good medical help in a nearby hospital. The penis could not be rescued however. The shaft with all erectile tissue had to be amputated due to the infection and strong damage. It has been removed completely. No erectile tissue is left. The urethral opening was relocated between scrotum and anus. (Only a short piece of the urethra could be saved by the doctors due to strong damage during accident). Also, the bladder had been injured. The closing muscle does no longer work well. So I have to go to bathroom frequently. All wounds have healed long time ago. The testicles are working as hormone producers, so that I have not to take supplemental hormones externally. My sexual drive has decreased strongly however after the accident. Erections are no longer possible. Soft massage of my balls etc. is a wonderful experience for me. I am still very shy since the accident. First period of time in hospital I had a catheter after the surgeries. But after one week I learned to use my new pee hole. In the beginning it was very painful because of wounds. It was difficult to do the job without too much spray. Nowadays I can handle it quite good. Due to the very back location of the opening I have to lower my trousers and panty for urinating. I have to sit down for this business of course. Only this way I can pee without spray. I can use the urinal toilet with special pose only. Practically I use the sitting toilet where no one can watch me. Because of strongly reduced capacity of my bladder I have to pee quite often since the accident. For me the accident was a big change of life. Before that I had been never thinking about such a handicap as you can imagine. There are so many problems physically and mental. I was 18 yrs old when it happened. At that time I was living with a lovely girlfriend. First time she gave me good support already in hospital and later at home. But after 6 months she went away with another boy. I had several injuries, also broken legs. But that is all okay since long time. "Downstairs" some organs had been badly hurt. Testicles (contusion), urethra (rupture, shortened), bladder (rupture) and prostate (removed) got much damage. Erections are no longer possible, there is nothing left to grow and get hard. Only in my dreams I can have it, and it happens. Generally my sex drive has reduced much. I have no more ejaculations. Only from time to time, mostly at night, some liquid is coming out of my pee hole. I am still a human being, even without cock. But education of boys from childhood on, gives a feeling of importance of having a (big) penis. That's why the loss was a big shock to me. I have finished my studies and work as a civil engineer now. I face sometimes challenges when I have to pee. The toilets at construction site are often times grotty. Just pee standing would be more convenient in this case. I have a girlfriend right now. Relationships become difficult when my handicap becomes obvious. But apparently she has accepted me as I am. You may send me some feedback to [email protected]. It is my girlfriends address. She does not allow me to have my own e-mail account.
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