Permanent Change

Sam Benette was surprised by the youthfulness of the female doctor, from her name he expected a doddering old geezerette, she must be around thirty-five no more than forty and down right attractive and sexy.

Sam took the chair, and got himself seated. The doctor returned behind her desk, and looked at the notes she had for this Sam’s first appointment.

“Well Mr. Benette, your primary care physician referred to you to me, how may I be of help?”

“Well Doc, it is my sex drive, or libido to use the more precise term.”

“It is too little, too strange, too what?”

“Still here would be the best explanation. I thought when I arrived at this age the urges of younger days and the craziness would be gone. But they are still with me. Was looking forward to a time when I could go puttering around, still with vitality, and not stare at every cute ass that strolled by. It gets to be a burden, particularly when you know the person you are staring at is younger than your grandchildren.”

“Ah, I see now why your doctor referred you to me. That is one of my specialties, sexual redirection. When the libido becomes too burdensome, I help men and women too re-channel their energies into more useful areas of life.”

“That is exactly what I need. I have wasted a fortune over the years on pornography, prostitutes, and chasing girls in bars. Had some spare time last week and went out and rented about two dozen porno films. The frustrating part; is there is no one around to help me out. Of course I did this even when I was married, so cannot use that as an excuse.”

“Well Sam, may I call you Sam?”

“Of course.”

“You sound like a perfect candidate for my therapy. Did your doctor tell you I also completed a surgical residency.”

“No but why should that matter?”

“Move over to the couch Sam and I will show you.” Sam did as he was told and moved to the couch, the doctor sat beside him, and took his head in her hands.

“Sam you mistakenly thought that by your current age you would be ruled by your mind, and you think now that a little talking with me may help you reconcile a problem you and many other men and women have had for years. That is completely wrong” Reaching into his crotch with her hand she squeezed his balls. “These little pests are still ruling you, they are the source of your problem. Now a woman goes through menopause, she has a bad time for a year, but then her ovaries are dead, unless she gets hormone therapy her vagina dries out, and she looses interest in most sexual activity. Of course with all of the hormone therapy going on today, if you will excuse the expression there are a lot of grannies out there fucking their brains out.”

“Maybe there is a drug that would help me, in my lucid moments I realize I don’t want to spend my declining years hanging around porno shops or patronizing hookers. I used to look at the travelers in the bars, old guys in their fifties and sixties, and say to myself that is not going to be me in ten years or twenty years, now it turns out it is me and I don’t like myself very much.”

“Well Sam as I said it is these little pests here that are causing the problems. More and more we are learning that the entire body is built on chemistry. These” she still had her hand in his crotch ‘are causing the problem, they are pumping out chemicals that make you act the way you do.”

“What can I do?”

“First take down your trousers and shorts and let me examine you.”

Sam did as he was told taking his trousers down to his knees along with his shorts. Gee he was really glad he remembered to put on clean shorts. Of course going to a head-shrink he hadn’t really thought it was necessary. The doctor reached into his lap and in a very unprofessional manner fondled him. Much to his chagrin Sam got an erection and started to blush.

“Don’t be embarrassed Sam, it is a perfectly natural reaction, you are sitting here with your manliness showing, and an attractive woman is handling your organ, you are expected to get hard. You do find me attractive don’t you?”

“Yes very attractive, you are probably the sexiest doctor I have ever seen.”

“Good that is a normal masculine reaction” she continued to fondle him, “what do you think your chances of having sexual intercourse are with me Sam?”

Oh I would say about 10,000 to 1, and even that is generous.”

“Tell me would you take the bet if it were made?”

“Yes, in a heart beat.”

“So at 10,000 to 1 you would bet just on the off chance that I might take pity on an old man and fuck him.”

“What can I say, you are right, I pardoned your crudity you pardon mine, if you spread your legs and just pointed I would be on my hands and knees and suck on your cunt till you screamed.”

“Very good Sam, see now we are getting somewhere. There is no possibility of that happening either is there Sam?”

“No probably not, but I can dream can’t I, you probably are quite lovely down there. But I am also sure that someone that looks like you has either a husband or a string of boyfriends begging for you charms.”

“Perhaps not as many as you might imagine. Sam I don’t want to mislead you about what I am going to ask you next. But would you like to leave here this afternoon completely free of this problem?”

“Yes more than you can imagine.”

“No I can imagine, I have helped many men like yourself obtain the peace they are seeking. Now this is a minor surgical procedure; that is why I mentioned my other skill as a surgeon, in addition to my training as a psychiatrist. It can be performed under a local and in about an hour’s time you will be a changed man. Do I have your permission to proceed with this?”

“Yes by all means, but what is the procedure?’

“Technically it is called a bi-lateral orchiotomy with a partial phalloectomy.”

“That really explains it doc.”

“Let us just say that it will cure your problem once and for all. Recovery as with any surgery is a full thirty days. I have however refined this procedure done so it is quick, with minor pain and 100% effective at re-leaving your symptoms.”

“Okay doc, lets go for it.”

“Good let me get a release, I have a surgical suite next door, the procedure will take about an hour and you will be able to go home free of all your concerns.”

No one in my acquaintance ever reads a surgical release; even a Philadelphia Lawyer will just sign the thing, then pray the doctor didn’t have an argument with their spouse that morning. So Sam missed some of the wording as to the possible side effect of this procedure.

Once he signed the form the doctor led him into the surgical suit and instructed him to disrobe completely, and mount the surgical table. The surgical table was the strangest thing Sam had ever seen.

“Sam you would be surprised to learn I no longer have a husband and no boyfriends.” She chatted amiably as she washed. “Yes my husband fell in love with his nurse, he was a doctor too, and left me. Of course before he left I performed the same procedure on him that I am about to perform on you.”

“Well that makes me feel a whole lot better, I flunked Latin in high school.”

“It shouldn’t Sam, it really shouldn’t, but we are too far down the road to back out now. Up on the table on your knees, I have to strap you in so when I am cutting off something vital you won’t move and injure yourself.”

Sam did as he was told; now nude he got on his knees into the position and laid his upper body down on the table. The doctor strapped him down top and bottom, so he was totally immobile, then swung the leg rests apart so that his genitalia were hanging down and open for the world to see.

“No boy friends, I would think you would be as popular as steak at a boarding house dinner.” Said Sam in an effort to hide his uncomfortable position.

“Hold still, you need a couple of shots, one to numb you and the other to freeze you in position, so you won’t move while I cut off your vital parts.”

“Don’t you mean so that you won’t cut off my vital parts.”

“No Sam, I am afraid I don’t, when you leave this afternoon your vital parts will be in waste container over there. That’s why I don’t have boyfriends. When my husband left me I cut his balls off, and his penis. Nice and professionally of course, but I wasn’t going to let that slut of a nurse have him. They didn’t put me in jail, but they took away my license to practice surgery, that is why I am now a head shrink. Today I am going to shrink your little head. You will be happy you came to see me, you will be peaceful and quiet all the problems you described will be gone.”

“Just a goddamn minute here, I don’t want my balls cut off. You said this was a simple little procedure.”

“Oh it is simple Sam, I have it perfected, other surgeons want to make it into major surgery, I do it quickly painlessly with one smooth cut. You will love your new smooth look. In thirty days when all the testosterone is out of your system, you won’t have any desire to stray or roam around again. In addition, you signed a full descriptive release. It states in Latin and plain English, that I am going to cut off your balls, and your prick. Is that plain enough for you? You are going to have a full emasculation, that will take you mind off young girls asses, whores and pornography once and for all. I could leave your prick, but then you might start using testosterone patches and be right back to where you are now. So, removing that just saves you from that temptation.”

“That’s not what I wanted, I wanted to talk about my problems get some real help.”

“Sam, this is real help, fast, permanent, and cost effective. Do you want to lie on that sofa in there for the next two years at $100 per week? No of course not, a little cut here and there, then your entire life will be changed for the better.”

“Your arguments leave me cold, you haven’t convinced me yet that this is the right thing to do. You double talked me in here on purpose, it seems like you have a hidden agenda.”

“No Sam your wrong, I have no hidden agenda. If I could have gotten my hands on the last president, you know the one I mean, my procedure would have set him straight. As the woman said he thinks with the wrong head. That is your problem, you letting your little one eyed friend down there; do your thinking for you. That sex drive was necessary when you were twenty and were prime stock to reproduce, but now you are an old stud who needs to be gelded for his own good. That is what happens next Sam, you get gelded.”

“I rescind that release, let me up.”

“No Sam, afraid not, every man I have had in these stocks has said exactly what you are saying now, so I put it down to fear of the unknown. Now doctor knows best. I will have you all fixed up in just a moment.”

“I beg you let me go, this isn’t what I wanted or had in mind at all.”

“But it is what you need, now be quiet or I will gag you, your balls and cock are coming off as soon as the drugs have had a chance to work. I have something to show you while we wait.” The doctor began to disrobe; soon she was completely naked except for her shoes. “Take a look at my breasts Sam, see no nipples, I did that myself, and see my cunt, no clit and the vagina is sewn closed. Take a close look. I did all this myself, after seeing this, do you really think I can be talked out of your very necessary procedure.”

“God you are a great looking female, why did you do that to yourself?”

“So I could sympathize with men like you Sam, know the pain you will feel, and the relief being free of sexual desire, and ability. The last one is the key, see I can’t fuck even if I wanted to. Of course there is always my mouth, and ass, but you will have those too. Most men find me so unattractive that they wouldn’t even accept a blow- job from me now. That is the point you know.”

“You know doc you are sounding just a little bit on the goofy side, you seem a little crazed yourself.”

“That could be, but take into account I am not the one that is strapped to the table. Let us get on with the business. The first innovation I have made is to make this just one cut, in order to do this and not have you bleed I am going to use a band castrator, this is designed for cattle, but works perfectly well on men. First a catheter so you will be able to relieve yourself.” The doctor inserted a catheter into Sam’s penis. “Next the band, this acts as a tourniquet and makes a lot of sewing of bleeders and cords un-necessary.”

She put the little latex donut into the banding pliers and expanded it, then slipped it over Sam’s dick, so that in the kneeling position both his dick and his scrotum were cut off from blood supply with the one band. “There you go, didn’t feel a thing did you. Those drugs are marvelous, you don’t feel anything when the knife goes through you either, I did my nipples with the help of those drugs. Now two more items first a shield, that’s metal so we don’t cut the band by accident and have you bleeding all over the place, and then the cutter itself.”

She placed in front of Sam what look like a miniature Guillotine.

“Neat isn’t it. It is an exact replica of Dr Guillotine’s famous machine. I have adapted to cut off different heads now. There is a special frame on the operating table that holds it in place, the blade though small is extremely sharp and has a forty-pound weight on top. It will go through your cock and balls like a hot knife through butter. The first few times I used it left hangers, you know it didn’t completely sever everything. So I added extra weight until if cut a man cleanly and humanely with just one drop. It also cuts off the catheter flush with your body, so after the band falls off you can pull it out yourself or go to a doctor and have him fish it out. So are you ready to become a changed man?”

“No.”

“Don’t be that way Sam, this is the best thing for you, let me get this little fellow set up on you.”

Sam could hear her working behind him, he heard screw tightening, and felt hot and cold things touching him, but no sensations. Whatever the doctor had shot him with left him completely numb. Then he felt a tugging, no pain but a tugging.

“Oh I forgot to tell you about this part, I put a little rope, noose actually around the head of your penis, then there is a weight suspended from the rope. Two hundred pounds of weight, I have found this gets everything all nice and stretched out, so when the blade falls it cuts the patient nice and close. You are all locked in to the little Guillotine and nicely stretched out. When the blade falls, you will be totally emasculated, that is your cock and balls will be cut off flush with you crotch. You won’t feel much, just the tugging will stop.”

The doctor still nude pulled a chair up in front of Sam and sat down, she had a small chord in her hand. “This is the lanyard that releases the blade, are you left or right handed Sam?”

“Right”

“Okay then hold the lanyard in your right hand, that’s it, here I will give it a couple of wraps so it doesn’t slip. All it takes is a one-inch pull and the blade falls, and cuts you. So whenever you are ready for peace and quiet, just gently pull the chord.”

“Your fucking bananas.”

“Perhaps I am Sam, but as I said before my body has already been modified, and you are the one strapped to the table. You are also the one that still has the problem, you came to me to solve it and you have been all prepared for the solution. All it takes to solve your problem is a little yank on the cord and your problem will be totally and irrevocably solved.”

“I am not going to do it.”

“It is not a matter of your deciding to do it, that decision was made when you outlined what you wanted from me, relief. The concern is when, do it now or in an hour it doesn’t matter, I will sit right hear with you until you decide to pull the cord and end your suffering.”

“The suffering isn’t bad enough for this, there has got to be a better way.”

“Not that is as sure or elegant as this solution. I did this to my husband, just like this when he tried to leave me for the nurse. It took seven hours but he finally pulled the chord. You will not need that long or that much convincing. Tell me one of your best sexual experiences.”

“This seems like a damn strange time to be talking about sex.”

“What better time, this is your last sexual experience and let me tell you that it is a sexual experience. You are not diseased, so this has to be for sex, or to get your mind off of sex. Go ahead what was one of your best sexual experiences.”

“Doubles were good.”

“Sorry, what’s a double?”

“You know, when you fuck twice in the same night.”

“Which of those were the best”

“Oh there were several, I remember the girl in Chicago best. The boss’s daughter, as a matter of fact. Don’t think this was cradle robbing; she was 30. It was the last night of a convention and after listening to a band in the bar we went up to my room and made love. We fucked, but it was real love making, she was warm responsive, and so sexy. When I was inside her she seemed to grip me.”

“Like you are gripping the chord now.”

“No for gods sake.”

“Just asking, don’t get upset.”

“I don’t want to go into anymore details, it was a marvelous night, all of our parts fit together so well, my mouth on her cunt, her mouth on my cock, then the mounting and the thrusting was so good. She came, I came, then I got hard again and we did it all over again.”

“How long ago was that Sam.”

“1982.”

“Where is the girl now.”

“I don’t know.”

“Did you love her.”

“No, not in the sense that I loved my wife, but she fascinated me, and we got along well, she was marvelously intelligent, and an athlete with a great body.”

“Will you ever duplicate that experience again?”

“No, not like that I won’t.”

“That is sad Sam, pull the chord now, and it will all fade from importance, do it Sam, pull the chord, you won’t feel anything, you hear the blade go whoosh, then the sound of your cock and balls landing on the floor, and it will all be over, memories like that one won’t bother you anymore, do it pull the chord.”

“No.”

“What other great experiences do you remember?”

“One night in Elmira, I picked up this girl in the lounge. I was shit faced and so was she. Went up to her room, she insisted we take a shower. While we were in the shower she admired my body, no one had ever done that before. I had been working out with weights for several years, and she was impressed. Nothing like having a woman flatter you to get you to perform, and perform we did. Oral sex, and then two sessions on the bed, she was not particularly good looking by Hollywood or New York standards, but she was one sexy woman.”

“When was that Sam?”

“I can’t remember 1980 or 1981.”

“Will you ever see her in Elmira again?”

“She was from Rochester, no I won’t see her again.”

“Pull the chord Sam and you won’t care any more, just a little jerk on the chord and it will all be over.”

“You almost had me that time, but the answer is still no, I am not pulling the chord.”

“How about your wife Sam how was she?”

“She was a very sexy lady. Her problem was she couldn’t bring herself to ask for things, and I was too shy to talk about sex with her. It took us a lot of years to get things straight between us.”

“What was your best time with her.”

“Oh there were lots of them. The first time I went down on her, I gave her about two licks and she came all over the place. It was the first time a man had ever kissed her pussy; she loved it. Then another time when she was on an extended assignment in the west, I flew to Tucson to be with her for a week. Her company had given her this really great condo out in the desert. We had dinner and some drinks, then went in and made love for about three hours. I went down on her and when she came she ejaculated fluid out of her pussy, her climax was that violent.”

“When was that Sam?”

“That I remember well, it was 1987.”

“Will that happen again Sam?”

“No it can’t.”

“Why Sam you’re crying.” the doctor reached out, patted his head then laid her hand on his. “Pull the cord Sam, it is time for you to change.”

“Yes.” He said in a very soft voice.

“Here Sam, let me help you over the line.” She grasped his hand, leaned over and kissed him and together they pulled the chord.

There was a whoosh as the blade fell, then a plop, as Sam’s genitalia hit the floor.

“That was a wonderful decision you made Sam, I enjoyed talking to you so much, and am glad that my little procedure was right for you. Now just lay there for a few minutes, until the drugs wear off. Then you can get on with your new life.”