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this is part two of castrated and suffing .Here I am coming to accect what was done to me and to just learn to cope with it.Its been only three months since I was pulled off steroids and hopely have only 9 months to go to get another check up to see if i can start again .But the damage is already done to my body. No dont get me wrong am not depressed just acceting my fate as a eunoch .
You see even if i can start taking steroids agian the shrinkage to my penis is permanent and it would be real hard too loose the distribution off fat . what some of these stories dont tell you is even when you take steroids its a nightmare your breast swell you gain wieght in you thighs your butt you bloat up real bad. And for me when i was on steroids my penus would go for about 3days when i coundnt feel it.
So im thinking of not even going for the check up in 9 months the effects are already taking hold of me . I think back to that night it happend and i had no idea it would change my live this bad.i know i just have too take my fate and go on . I should have fought harder ?. maybe i shoudnt have been drinking that much .when they had me and were tying me down i did fight i tried as hard as i could to close my legs but once they were tied to that pipe even with all my straining i couldnt close them. And another thing i thought about was no, no way this guys are playing around . Theres no way they would caught my nuts off to put your hands on another guys balls i thought no way . But when he crabbed them in his hand and yanked hard down . I knew then they were not playing . He pulled them and twisted them and then began to cut on my left testicle and then quickly my right one . When he should me the first one and threw it and did the same with the other i still couldnt belive it. To be honest after i healed and for a month after i felt exactly the same . but after a month and a half i felt my penus going numb then is when i went to a docter . You see i was real embarassed to go to a docter and let him see me down there but when i felt the numbness i went and was prescribed steroids . So thats that no i cant take them because of my previus partiying . Doing damage to my liver so i go on . I put my story here because im tired of holding it in and im sending my pictures to bme under eunoch . As youl see by pictures the castration has realy taken effect . Also i put on a set of stockings just like the guys said i would .
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