I live in one of those old fashioned houses with an attic.  The attic is where my mom and I store some of the stuff we don't use anymore but don't want to throw out.  It's where we keep stuff from when I was little.  I went up there looking for a book mom had given me when I was only six or seven years old.  I found the book in an old cardboard box with some of my old toys and games. 

The book was called, "Pete's Pinto".  It was one of those large children's books, you know what I meant, it was mostly colorful pictures with the writting at the bottom of each page.  The last time I had seen it I was still too young to read but now I opened it and started to read it to my self.

"Pete's Pinto.

Once upon a time there lived a boy named Pete.  Pete lived on a farm way out in the country far from any cities.  On this farm he had a pony named Checkers.  Pete and Checkers were best friends.

Although Pete was only a boy he was the only person who Checkers trusted.  It was Pete who was able to saddle brake Checkers.  Pete loved Checkers very very much and Checkers loved Pete just as much.

Checkers was a very gentle hourse and fun to ride.  Pete would spend hours each day on Checkers back and the two of them explored the hills around the farm.

But as Checkers started to grow from a colt into a stallion he became not so gentle.  At one point when Checkers saw a mare in heat he forgot all about what he was doing and he throw Pete from his back.  It was a lucky thing that Pete was not hurt.

Pete's father explained that Checkers still loved Pete.  Checkers didn't mean to be bad.  It was just that when Checkers saw a girl hourse he couldn't think about anything else.  Checkers couldn't control himself anymore.  Pete's dad explained that they would have to use Checkers as a stud.  Either that or have him gelded.

Gelding Checkers would make him manageable again, Pete's dad said.  Since Checkers was Pete's hourse Pete would have to decide what to do.  Pete knew that gelding Checkers would mean that he would have to be cut between the hind legs.  He didn't want that done to his friend.

But at the same time Pete didn't want Checkers going crazy every time he saw a girl horse so he decided that his friend should be fixed.  After the operation Checkers healed quickly and once healed he was his old loving self again.  Both Pete and Checkers were very happy that Checkers had been neutered.

Soon after this Pete had his 12th birthday.  For reasons he didn't really understand Pete found that he was often moody and withdrawn.  He had a hard time concentrating in school.

Pete was even losing interest in Checkers.  Pete's father suggested that perhaps the doctor in town could help Pete return to his old self.  Pete asked what the doctor could do and was stunned when his dad repiled, "The same thing that was done to Checkers.  He could fix you son.  You know that it did a world of good for Checkers and it would do the same for you.  Just think about it, okay."

Pete thought his dad was only kidding and when he realized that his father was serious he got really mad.  He said, "Dad I hate you!  How could you even think of doing such a thing to me?"

His dad replied, "You don't really mean that Pete.  We wouldn't be doing anything to you that you didn't agree to have done to Checkers.  In time you'll come to see that I'm right.  When you do we'll take you to town to have Doc Brown fix you.  You like Doc Brown.  He has been caring for you since you were a baby."

Pete knew that if they fixed him it would mean that Doc Brown would cut him between the legs and Pete was afraid that would hurt.  But then he remembered that Doc Brown had been taking care of him for as far back as Pete could remember and Doc was always careful never to hurt him.

The next day Pete's dad drove him in the old pick up truck into town to have Doc Brown castrate him.  Pete felt a bit uncomfortable having to strip and then being strapped down to the operating table in such a way that he couldn't move at all and his legs were spread wide apart. 

Doc explained that the straps were not to keep Pete from running away but just to make sure he didn't accidentally move around during the operation.  Doc Brown said that this was the way boys had always been gelded. 

Pete was given a shot so that he wouldn't feel any pain  Being tied naked to a table Pete didn't much enjoy being being castrated.  Doc Brown said that none of the boys he fixed thought it was much fun but Pete would feel much better in only a few days.

A week later Pete was all healed and he found he enjoyed being a eunuch.  It felt good not having to worry about getting kicked in the crotch or getting anything trapped when he crossed his legs.

Pete took Checkers out for a ride and he found that sitting in the saddle was more comfortable now that he didn't have to worry about his boy parts getting in the way.  Both Pete and Checkers were glad that they had been gelded.

THE END."

I guess giving me this book was mom's way of getting me used to the idea of being castrated even when I was only six.  Castration seemed pretty easy for both Pete and his pony Checkers.  Perhaps it was easy for a pony but I kind of think that in real life castration wouldn't be so easy.  Not for a boy anyway.

I heard my mom calling from down stairs.  She was saying, "Josh, Alan is on the phone and he'd like to say hi."  Alan, I thought as my heart skipped a beat.  I dropped the book forgetting all about it and rushed down from the attic.

I was excited to have a call from Alan but at the same time very nervous.  I didn't want to say anything wrong and have him think that I was some sort of geek or anything like that.

I picked up the phone and said, "Alan, it's good to hear from you."

"Josh," he replied.  "I really enjoyed meeting both you and Kelly the other night.  It was a good time."

I wasn't really sure what to say next to Alan.  I wondered if my mom had told him that-well you know what I mean-that I liked him.  Knowing my mom she probably did.  Mom probably described my feeling for him as nothing more than a cute little school boy crush, puppy love. 

Not knowing what to say to Alan I said, " It was a lot of fun meeting you.  I sure hope Kelly and I didn't freak you out by talking about castration,"  Geez that sure sounded stupid but it wasn't until the words were out of my mouth that I realized just how stupid it sounded. 

But Alan was cool.  He said, "No you guys didn't freak me out at all.  In fact I think it's really interesting.  You have to admit that not every boy decides to have his genitals removed.  I wonder if it's the start of a new trend.  If you'd be willing I'd love to spend some time talking with you about it."

WOW!  I thought, Alan used the word LOVE!  "Are you going to make me the subject of your Ph.D. thesis?"   I asked with a laugh.  I meant it as a joke.

Alan's voice changed.  He sounded really serious like he didn't want to upset me or anything.   "Josh you're much more to me than just the topic of a paper." he said.  "But if you'd like to work with me on this project I'd be thrilled."

I didn't want to say it out loud but I'd be thrilled as well.  Just imagine me spending time alone with Alan and him taking an interest in me and what I'd have to say.  Of course we would be talking about why I asked to have my genitals nullified but I guessed I could live with that.  All I was able to say was, "I'd like that Alan."

"How about I pick you up tonight at six for dinner?"  he asked. "Would that work for you?" I couldn't believe it.  It was like he was asking me out on a date.  I had butterflies in my tummy.  I said, "I'll have to ask my mom."

"I already did," Alan replied, "And she said you could."

I turned to face my mom, who had been listening from across the room, and I asked hopfully, "Mom is it really okay?  Can I go out with Alan?"  She smiled and nodded yes.  I was already wondering what I should wear.  What do I have that looks sexy?

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