THE STORY… MOSTLY TRUE EVENTS

My wife, Connie, and I were married in Houston Texas about 15 years ago……. We had maybe a normal sex life for the first 3 or 4 months and then I started getting uncomfortable with her and our relationship as it was. I remember having the same problems with other “guy girl” relationships I had prior to marrying Connie but, I never understood why…. I have since discovered why as I explain in the events and paragraphs to follow…

I remember one time Connie came home after we had been married for about a year after going to the Laundromat one day due to our washer and dryer being repaired. When she came home she shared with me an experience she had with a young woman she met while doing the laundry. I think she felt comfortable telling me this story as she kind of thought that I may have a female dominate personality and would understand, but never suggested it out in the open. Anyway, she explained that this young woman had put her hand on hers while they were talking and that she had a feeling that felt wonderful and sensuous. After that conversation I thought that maybe she had a Lesbian side that may be dominate or at least equal to her interest in a more traditional male female relationship…. Assuming she had a female male need.

We didn’t talk about her experience much over the next several months. However, when we moved out of town for a business opportunity I had, she would come back to Houston often to visit her family and friends. I found out by accident a short while later that she wasn’t coming back to visit family but to visit with a female friend I had introduced her to several months prior to our move that I knew through a business associate. This female friend I will call Carol for privacy purposes was in the medical field, had been a casual friend of mine before I introduced her to my wife. I had often wondered if she may be bi-sexual… or a lesbian for that matter but never gave it much thought until my wife started spending time with her when she would make these trips to Houston. My thoughts of our conversation a year or so before our move with the young woman she met at the Laundromat started fueling ideas that my suspicions may be more accurate than I had originally thought. I could never prove one way or the other that the two may be involved sexually. I wished she would have told me about it so I would know if my suspicions had been correct or not as I would certainly have been okay with it. Not wanting to use it as some male fantasy but, to use it to become closer in a more comfortable setting as girl friends, not girlfriends.

After living together for several more years and moving back to Houston we divorced. I honestly believe the divorce was due to neither of us understanding our sexual or my gender roles and deep rooted personalities at the time and growing apart in all the wrong reasons.

A few months after Connie and I divorced, I had to have my prostate removed due to medical purposes much younger than is traditional due to cancer. I wasn’t sure I wanted to have the surgery so my Urologist put me on female hormones in the interim so I could make up my mind whether to have the surgery or not. During the year and a half on hormones, my breast started to develop, my whole body started changing and I started to feel much more female than I had felt in the past. I guess the hormones convinced me that my feelings of being feminine where not suspicious thoughts after all but reality…. This new frame of mind and my body changing into more physically a female made me happier than I can express in this story/documentary. I started researching the physical and mental changes I was going through and discovered that my female ideals where not unique in the least. I found out that people, who thought as I, were medically identified as Transsexuals or Transgendered in nature. I did go ahead and have the prostate surgery as that would be my first step in becoming the person I thought I should have been born as…… a woman. After the surgery I continued taking the hormones and even added additional ones to my regimen that would help me continue with my transitioning…. The only problem was the expense of surgically becoming a woman and the hassles I could expect and have to endure becoming female…. Yep, I am a Transsexual…. And DAMN proud of it. I realized that I probably can not afford all the surgeries required to fulfill my destiny. Therefore, I have been looking for alternatives and believe me, my mind has been running rampant…!

Well, it has been about six months since my prostate surgery. I ran into my ex-wife Connie the other day and she noticed that I was developing very nice breast and was curious what was going on. I told her the entire story about the surgery, the hormones and my thoughts as a boy and as an adult….. And my thoughts while we were married were no exception. I also informed her I had changed my name to Meredith. I reminded her of the story she told me several years prior about meeting the young woman in the Laundromat and how that made me feel and my suspicions I had about her visiting Houston after we moved out of town with our female friend Carol…. Well, at this point neither of us have anything to loose…nor reason to lie. She told me that my suspicions about the girl in the Laundromat were true, that she did have a sensuous and sexual relationship with our friend Carol when she came to Houston on those visits. She also told me that she had come to terms with her sexuality and had admitted to herself that she was predominately Lesbian. After my confession to her about my sexuality, she displayed her regret that we did not understand our true sexuality when we were together that we could have had a much different and happier relationship than the way it turned out due to our stupidity and denials.

Connie admitted that she was still in touch and was still in close contact with our friend Carol and that they both discovered how much they hated men and what they stood for. She also told me that she and Carol had a fantasy of performing a complete nullification on a male and doing it without any kind of anesthetic. I had told her that I could not afford the surgery I required and wanted to complete my transformation into the woman I so desired. Connie expressed her empathy for me and I saw a twinkle in her eyes. That was the end of the conversation at that particular time.

Connie called me about a week later and asked me if I would like to come by and visit and have a drink… I accepted the offer, especially since we had found that we could now be girl friends. After a couple drinks, Connie ask me more about my desire of becoming a woman… I explained it to her again more in detail this time and convinced her that I was completely serious about the transformation. She ask me what I thought about her helping me achieve that dream and that Carol would help. Connie explained that she had told Carol about our conversation and that she thought I was serious and would let them help. My eyes lit up and of course I told her that hell yeah I would let them help. Connie said she would relate our conversation to Carol and would give me a call in a few days and let me know what to do….

I had been tucking this disgusting prick between my butt cheeks for a few years and keeping my testicles tucked into my abdomen as well. I had already been banding my testicles and penis for about a year hoping they would die where I could go to the hospital and have them totally removed without any BS….. Under those circumstances, they would have to remove them. After the prostate removal and being on hormones for the last few years, I had no interest in sex and little to no need for my genitals any longer therefore, I wanted them removed in anyway shape or form.

Connie called me a couple days later and said she and Carol could help me out… I was so happy to hear that. She ask me to come over on Friday evening for dinner and drinks and we would talk about the process. After we discussed the process and expectations we all decided there was no reason to put it off any longer that they were looking forward to this as much as I was. Connie wanted to make sure one last time that what I was telling her was good information as she and Carol did not want any sort of legal repercussions. So Connie and Carol both disrobed and started sucking and licking each other’s pussies. They both were convinced after about 15 minutes of girl on girl and my penis barely moved let alone get hard. I have to admit though that I did get horny and wanted to be involved with them as girl on girl on girl… They explained that I should go into the bedroom that they had it set up to get started… I was told to take my clothes off in which I submitted to without delay or hesitation… I was told to sit on this table and to put my feet into what was an add on feature of stirrups that Carol had brought home from the office. When Connie saw my breast she admitted that she was jealous of my breast’s being bigger than hers and that she would be looking forward to fondling them and making love as girl on girl. Of course Carol said she would not be left out of this…!! Connie and Carol said they did not want to perform the total nullification at the same time so they would do the castration first and the penectomy next weekend. Connie was absolutely giddy saying those two words, Castration and Penectomy…!! She loved the thought of seeing that happen to me…. And I have to admit, I was excited knowing it would finally happen to me.

Connie pulled my penis up and Caro temporarily sutured it to my abdomen by the area just below the head and then pulled my scrotum down with my testicles as far as they would go… She had this tri-bander she borrowed from a friend who owned a ranch nearby. She placed a band on the three prongs and squeezed the handle to open the band up. She ask me if I wanted to release the band myself….? I was hesitant but, I agreed. I placed the band over my two testicles and released the band with a somewhat pop. Connie and Carol were still naked and started playing with one another’s pussies when they saw me release the band on my own testicles. I have to admit that it didn’t hurt that much initially but, after about 10 minutes it began to pinch and shortly after, I could feel pain in my spermatic cords as they were having the life and blood squeezed out of them. About that same time, the scrotum started turning a deep purple. I have to tell you that by this time they started hurting like hell. To make sure I would not change my mind from the pain, my hands were tied by the wrists under the table. I had no choice but to go through with it… By this time the scrotum had started turning black and the pain started to subside. Another band was place up against my body. Carol said she was ready to finish the job. Connie was so turned on by this time that she started sucking and licking Carol’s pussy again relentlessly and rubbing my scrotum and my semi hard penis at the same time. Carol told Connie that the testicles were now dead and they were ready to come off. Cutting them off would help prevent infections. Carol by this time was so turned on by Connie’s relentless sucking of her pussy and emasculating me and at the instance of her and Connie’s orgasm, Carol took this scalpel she brought from work and cut the scrotum through the spermatic cords and with one savage swipe of the knife the testicles were gone with a plunk sound into the stainless steel dish placed on the floor under me, they were gone FOR GOOD..!! I’m not sorry to say I was now a Eunuch. She tied the spermatic cords with suture material and then sutured up the wound. Connie came over and cut the bands off and I was given some Ibuprofen for pain. Connie took the scrotum with the testicles and started sucking on them. She said after being married for all the wrong reasons, she wanted a taste of the bad times one more time to remember what it was like to live a lie.

Connie changed her mind and said she wanted the penis taken off now and that she didn’t want to wait until next weekend…. I still hadn’t been untied from the table so it was a most opportune time to finish the whole nullification. Connie said she wanted me to be as much a woman as possible and wanted it to happen… NOW!! Carol agreed. So Carol took a catheter she had also brought from her office, pulled it through some KY Jelly and pushed it into my Urethra until it pushed up against the area just below from where they castrated me. Carol took a scalpel and made an incision at that point. She then pulled the catheter through and I had a new pee hole. Carol then sutured around the catheter to help healing and keep the new pee hole open and unobstructed. I now had a new pee hole where when I sit to pee now…. it will be for real. Carol took another band loaded it on the tri-bander opened the band up and placed it over my penis right up against my abdomen. With a snap, it was released and in place. It only took about 5 minutes for my penis to start turning that dark purple I was so familiar with now. Connie and Carol were so excited with this visual they started sucking one another’s pussy's with vigor. Connie started to put her index finger up my asshole to see if my prostate was really gone…. It was..!! Connie’s finger being pushed as far up my asshole as she could push it with the pulling out and ramming it back in made me have this enormous orgasm that kept coming. Connie moved her mouth to encompass my now dark purple penis turning black. She bit down hard around the circumcised area. My penis had already become numb so, I didn’t feel her bite much more than for pleasure. While Connie had my penis in her mouth with a tight bite around it, Carol took her scalpel and made an incision around the shaft just above the band. The whole penis came off still in Connie’s mouth. Connie was still so excited with the evening’s events she actually started eating my penis shaft. She took the testicles she had been sucking on earlier and placed them in my mouth still covered in blood.

At this point I myself was so excited not only with the process of the nullification and watching my ex-wife having sex with Carol and then looking down at my once attached penis still in Connie’s mouth but when I looked at my now smooth genital area….. No more penis, scrotum, testicles or a prostate….! No more genitals whatsoever…!! That was so exciting and sexy that I started eating my own testicles that Connie had placed in my mouth.

After Connie, Carol and I had cooled off….and down, Carol sutured up the area where my once attached penis had been right up against my abdomen. After the healing process, I would have a smooth groin area and a new pee hole I have so much being wishing and hoping for. Carol bandaged the area and told me the bandage would have to be changed daily with a antibiotic ointment on the area for proper healing… I expressed my appreciation to Connie and Carol more than you can imagine… Both said I could show my appreciation on a regular basis in servicing them and this is the first time I heard this…. They had a couple male friends that they wanted me to have sex with as well…. After I thought about having sex with a male, I decided that would help me with the process of becoming the woman I have been hoping to become, for what I understand now, since I was a young transsexual boy. I have continued with my female hormones and will for the future to keep that wonderful Estrogen flowing through my veins and without a prostate I was closer to being female than most transsexuals. I already had unmistakable breast’s but they have developed more than I could ever have hoped for and now I have that smooth beautiful groin area to go with them…. My hair has grown out below my shoulders now and I wear women’s cloths out in public now. I truly feel and look like a woman now. If you ask Connie or Carol, they will without a doubt agree with that and add that I perform like a woman as well better than either could ever have hoped for. I have also had sex with their two male friends on occasion as well and we have also had a foursome a couple times. Connie and I are truly “Girl Friends” now and have become really close….. In many respects.

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