I'm Debby, I'm 32 years old now and am feeling better than I have in years. Since I was about twenty five I've been taking Depo Provera shots, which provide birth control for about three months. Since being on them I had put on close to fifteen pounds ... and the worst part is my sex drive had disappeared to nearly zero ... making love to my husband has been about as exciting as any other household chore, the only good part is it's over quicker than the laundry.

When I turned 30 I resolved to make some changes. I knew that on a certain level Depo Provera had been harming my health and my marriage. My husband was constantly frustrated with my low sex drive, and I've worried he might have affairs or sleep with other women. When he came home one night drunk, and with a smear of lipstick on his neck, I knew things were getting pretty serious. And every morning his hard-on became something I dreaded as I knew he'd just try and stick that thing in me when all I want to do is wake up, hop in the shower and get breakfast going.

Out of desperation I mentioned our situation to our family doctor. He was super understand and acknowledged that Depo Provera was a very dependable form of birth control -- but that it also had many side effects for women, including shutting down their libido. I mentioned that my husband seemed to have an above average libido and that it seemed to be a source of constant frustration for him. I also mentioned that my husband was very interested in staying in our marriage and wanted to work with me to change things around. The doctor said with a laugh, "Well, you'd solve both your problems if we just switch the Depo Shot ... Give your husband one shot a month and take you off Depo altogether. Soon he'll be sterile, won't be bothering you for sex, and you'll start to feel better and lose weight." With that, a light-bulb went off in my head ... it seemed so simple, easy and elegant.

That night I mentioned my conversation with our doctor to my husband. He was really curious about it, and admitted to me that his sex drive was driving him crazy, not only at home but at work. He told me how scared he was that our current situation would lead to an affair or other complications in our marriage. He told me he'd do anything to help with the situation, including getting a shot of Depo to see if that would turn things around.

I was due for my Depo shot in one month. The doctor told me it took a month or more to reduce a male's libido with Depo, depending on the dosage, so I figured now would be the perfect time to set something up. I made an appointment for 8am the next morning.

We woke up at 7:30 am, my husband with his usual "morning wood". I told him hopefully that will be a thing of the past, and we could both get better sleep from now on. He gave me a look of understanding.

We arrived at the doctors office and were shortly in a private room with him discussing our situation. He had a small table out with two injections of Depo Provera ready to go. He held them up and explained how Depo Provera works with the male body. He described how the progesterone slowly replaces a man's testosterone in his body and brain, and how it tricks the body into thinking it has enough testosterone. He described how eventually this shuts down the testicles, so that a man on Depo Provera will eventually end up with the testosterone levels of a pre-pubescent boy. He described how for many men this leads to a feeling of calmness and eventually impotence, that men on Depo Provera have very little need for sex at all. He described how it was reversible for the most part, that the only side effect might be some shrinkage of my husbands testicles, and possibly swelling of his breasts, but that that is usually not a problem.

He told us that the best course of action would be for my husband to get two shots of Depo Provera at once, in order to build up his levels of progesterone; every two weeks thereafter we'd come in and get him another Depo shot until it had shut down his testicles. After that the doctor explained many men were able to get by with only one shot per month.

We both agreed, and my husband pulled his pants down and lay on the examining table with his butt showing. The doctor pulled the cap off the first syringe and injected it into the right butt cheek; he did the same with the second shot, injecting it into my husbands left buttock.

He was a little sore for a few hours that day, but after work he said he felt fine. For the first week we didn't notice much, he said he felt a little "flushed" feeling and a little tired. We went back to the doctor two weeks later and after examining my husbands genitals, the doctor gave him two more shots of depo. He said this was a fairly high dose now, and that we should start noticing considerable effects on my husband's libido soon.

The doctor was right -- it was within a day or two, and we noticed my husband had woken up with no "morning wood". I was thrilled, and was so excited i just cuddled in bed with him. Over the next two weeks the same scenario repeated, my husband reported he was getting fewer and fewer erections and that they were getting harder to get. He said the strangest thing is he wasn't even THINKING about sex.

We went back to the doctor and he examined my husband's genitals again. It had been roughly two months now, and we were on his sixth shot of Depo. The doctor said my husbands testicles had indeed started to atrophy -- a good sign that they were starting to give up production of testosterone and shut down. We had my husbands testosterone levels checked, and they were about the same as a 9 year old boy's. He said he felt like he had the cock of a 9 year old now -- it was pretty limp and lifeless. The doctor said now we could probably get by only only one Depo injection per month, and this should keep my husband in a state of permanent chemical castration.

Over the next few months my husband and I grew closer and closer. I love waking up and cuddling with him, often times i'll put my hand on his limp cock and shrunken nuts -- I love to remind myself I no longer need to "fear" his cock, and I love the fact that he's as gentle and impotent as a small boy. I never thought I'd like being married to a eunuch, but I have to admit our marriage feels much more like a partnership now. I'm so proud of him and happy for him, he says he's starting to forget what the whole fuss about sex was about, and that he is able to focus and concentrate more at work. I've lost ten pounds and counting, and even though I have started to regain some of my lost libido, I'd never go back to having sex again. I did try and get my husband to play with me with his hands, but he says he's completely uninterested in sex and the idea kinda grossed him out. I told him i completely understand.