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A few weeks ago, i discovered something was wrong in my left testicle. i could feel some painless outgrowth there, a strangely shaped mass that was protuding on the lower part of it. So i went to see my usual doctor, which didn't spend very long time examinating it before sending me to the hospital... "It might be benign, but it's serious enough for me to need some specialist advice..." Well i went there, and again my testicles went between differnt hands, and finaly i found myself facing a a doctor who was obviously searching the way to tell me some embarrassing thing... The fact was, they didn't know whether the outgrowth was cancerous or not, and the only way to know the truth was to remove the testicle and open it. He kept explaining me that nature was well done, and that one testicle alone was working perfectly, i wouldn't feel any change, my missing testicle would be replaced by a silicon one, unnoticeable, and in 90 % of the case the tumor proved to be armless... The the phone rang, and after speaking a few seconds, he said "excuse me a minute" and left the room. I was left alone in the room with the computer on wich he had been typing the report of my case. so i went in front of it, and began reading... "... presents a tumor on the left testicle... ... further analysing... ... unilateral orchyectomy on the left side..." You know that function in the "word" program ? "ctrl-H"... the one who allows you to change a word in an whole text... Suddenly, I felt something come back from very far... I had fantazied to be castrated, but never felt I could recognise having that fantasy ! But now I had a way to make my fantasm true, without anyone knowing it was a voluntary mutilation ! so i typed "ctrl-H", and asked "word" to seek the word "left" and replace it by "right"... I can tell you i was greatful I was wearing a thick cotton brief, for as i pressed the "enter" key, I ejaculated without even touching my penis. Well, I just had the time to go back to my seat before the doctor came back...So he kept explaining me the medical process, and when he happened to tell "...then your right testicle..." I felt like a electric shock... Then a few days passed, and yesterday, I had the operation... Now I lay in my hospital bed, and i feel some numb pain in the right side of my groin... and i know that within a few weeks I'll go back to my doctor, and the problem will be discovered, and I'll finally be castrated... |