We got on the Internet and looked for more detailed information than we had about puberty. In particular, we wanted to know what order to expect things to happen in and when to expect them. We thought that it would be easy to find what we wanted in one place, but everyone with information on puberty seemed determined to be niggardly and we had to combine information from many places, but we finally had an ordered list of what to expect in what order, with both typical year and month and normal limits for when to expect each thing to happen.

[Author's note: I'm a former Goldwater Republican who became a Libertarian when the ‘neo-conservatives' who are really ‘pseudo-conservatives' drove most of the conservatives out of the party. I don't speak Democrat and don't have any intention of learning how to speak it. I know that many Democrats think niggardly means "of or like a Nigger" but it can't and doesn't. It means "very stingily" and was part of the English language long before the word ‘Negro', the Spanish and Portugese word for black and the word ‘Niger', the Latin word for black, entered the language and later became ‘Nigger'. The names of two African countries, Niger and Nigeria, also come from the Latin word for black. American Negroes later decided that they wanted to be called by the English word ‘Black' but that parochialism doesn't work south of the border.]

We started taking showers when we got up in the morning and our parents didn't realize that we were close and talked about the changes that were taking place in our bodies, usually while we were washing each other in the tub after school and before they got home.

About two years after I'd entered puberty and after I'd noticed that Chris had entered puberty, I had my first period and the next weekend our parents sent us to visit our uncle. When we got back, our bed was in storage and there were bunk beds in its place. The morning Chris had his first wet dream, he had me climb up to the top bunk with him so he could show me what had happened. I looked at the semen on his sheets and tasted it with my tongue.

That night he joined me in my bed and I stroked his penis with my hand to see if I could get more semen to come out. I did, and Chris said that he'd enjoyed what I did much more than he'd enjoyed the wet dream he'd had. I showed him how and where to stroke me and soon found that I enjoyed it more when he did it than when I did it to myself. We'd obviously given in too easily to bunk beds.

One thing led to another, and soon we were having intercourse every night. We knew that we weren't supposed to do that, but we'd learned long ago that parents were killjoys who liked to condemn things that they were too old to enjoy. Our dad caught us and threatened to have Chris castrated. We thought that he was just blustering, but now we're scared. This morning, our parents took us to the state's castration facility for sexual offenders.

We met Heather and she took us into a meeting. She started by saying, "This meeting is unusual in that we're dealing with a case of consensual incest between twins. That's a sexual offense, but it hasn't been reported. Instead, the twins' parents have brought them here, seeking confidential help. Since the sex was consensual, I decided to have both the preteen girls and the teenage girls who deal with married men present.

"Normally, I'd have everyone who came present when we ask questions, but I've decided that in this case I want to question each one of them privately first and to keep the ones I've talked to separate from those I haven't talked to yet."

She sent my parents and brother out and talked to me first, starting by finding out that we were twelve and that I was early in stage four of my puberty. I told her what had happened, that I loved my brother, and that we'd both wanted to do what we'd done. She asked me, "Are you just having a brief fling caused by puberty or do you expect it to last?" I told her, "I don't know, but I'm not ready for it to end."

She talked to my brother next, starting by finding out that he was in the middle of stage three of his puberty. He told her the same story I'd told her, including that he wasn't ready to quit.

She talked to our mom, and then our dad, and both told her that they'd do whatever it took to keep us from continuing our incestuous relationship.

She called everyone back in and said, "If all of you maintain your positions, John and Mary won't see Chris and Rebecca again after they're eighteen. If all four of you are willing to compromise, on the other hand, there are a variety of possible outcomes. Compromising, of course, means that each one of you will have a reason to be unhappy with what I want you to do. Are each of you willing to trust me and compromise in the hopes of a better outcome?" It wasn't quick, but we finally all agreed.

She told our parents, "The twins slept together until they were twelve and sexual activity is common in much younger children than that. They may have experimented with sex when they were young, but not continued; that's common and none of anyone's business. I think that you were right to try to get them to agree to have their own beds once puberty began for Rebecca, but I also think that it was a mistake for you to override their decision to continue sleeping together. If they'd continued to share a bed, one of them would have felt the urge to masturbate. Let's suppose that it was Chris. He would have immediately told Rebecca about the urge and have been trying to resist it. She would have started stroking him, without asking permission, and would have tasted his semen when he ejaculated. They wouldn't have wanted to get semen on the sheets, and Rebecca would have soon learned to use her mouth, not her hands, to give him relief and pleasure. Sooner or later, they would have learned that he could also give her pleasure. The big difference is that while they would have talked about intercourse, I don't think that would have done it.

"I want you to give the twins back their single larger bed so they can return to routinely sleeping together. People who sleep together with skin contact often have sex less frequently than those who sleep apart. Sleeping with your skin in contact often fills a deep emotional need and I don't want to interfere with the non-sexual bonds that they share. It's too late to stop the incest, but it may make it less frequent if they're using it to meet emotional needs.

"I want to find out if the incest was mostly the result of sexual love, normal brother-sister love, or lust. To do that, I want to suspend Chris and Rebecca's puberties for six months. That'll set back their development by six months and give us some time to make decisions. We don't want them to have intercourse, but they can enjoy as much oral sex as they want. If they're being driven by lust, they might well decide not to continue their sexual relationship, or at least be willing to put it on hold until they're older. If they're being driven by love, they'll continue their sexual relationship.

"We'll make sure that Rebecca wouldn't get pregnant, but her parents are going to have to trust the twins to stop having intercourse if they can. I know that John and Mary won't like having to accept that, but I'm asking even more of Chris and Rebecca. At the end of six months, or earlier if they've stopped having a sexual relationship, you'll all need to come back and we'll decide what to do next.

"I'll assign Sarah, our youngest girl, to your case, since you might be seeing us regularly until you're eighteen, but some of the other girls will also need to help.

"I can't predict what the outcome will be, but I can tell you some of the more likely possibilities. The twins may abandon their sexual relationship within the next year. They may continue it until they start dating, then establish sexual relationships with others. They may find people to marry. They may decide that they want to spend their lives together. In that case, once Chris is fertile and we have two good semen samples in our sperm bank we'll give Chris a vasectomy so he and Rebecca won't have to worry about her getting pregnant. Remember, the reason that brother-sister consensual incest is illegal is because of the serious problem of birth defects.

"Are all four of you willing to agree to what I've proposed, or do you want to look elsewhere for help?" We asked if we could talk to each other privately first, and she told us where to go to do that, then suggested that our parents do the same.

When we returned, none of us were very happy, but we agreed to do what Heather had asked. She asked Sarah to evaluate Chris and when she was done to evaluate me. She asked the oldest teenager to talk to our parents and the youngest to talk to the one of us not being evaluated and then both of us together.

Heather said that our parents could leave that day, but since we were out of school for the summer she wanted us to stay for a couple of weeks to allow time to get our medications adjusted correctly and then observe us for a while afterwards.

Jasmine, who was fourteen, questioned this, "When do you intend to start giving them medications?" Heather replied, "Probably tomorrow." "Our rules don't permit that. Anyone who's being castrated, or their sexual functioning otherwise altered, has the right to a minimum of a day of sex first and they haven't waived that right. Since Chris and Rebecca are a couple under our rules, even though not married, one of us who deals with married couples has the right to supervise that and decide how many days they get. They haven't been having intercourse for very long and I'd like to spend the full time our rules permit educating them about different ways to enjoy sex and giving them time to enjoy each other before we start interfering with that. I'm also asserting my right to at least monitor their drug treatment and look after their rights at that time. They get to choose which one of us they want, and I'm asking them to choose me."

I spoke up immediately, "I'll choose Jasmine. Chris, do you agree?" He said yes.

Heather said, "Jasmine, are you all sure you're doing the right thing? Chris and Rebecca haven't been having intercourse for very long and that will make it easier for them to give it up, if we can get them to do that. You're going to be decreasing the chance that they'll be willing to give it up."

Jasmine disagreed, "I didn't say I'd teach them more ways to enjoy intercourse, I said that I'd teach them more ways to enjoy sex. That includes the oral sex that you seem to think they already know how to enjoy, although what they said made it clear to me that they've never tried oral sex. I'll also teach them Tantric sex. I won't teach them masturbation, though, because I don't want them using that to replace other forms of sex. There isn't anything wrong with masturbating; it's a good choice when your partner is absent and you want sex, but it isn't good for anyone to masturbate instead of finding a sexual partner. It's particularly bad for boys who sometimes do it for years before finding a girl because it teaches them to ejaculate too quickly and the girl doesn't get any pleasure that way.

"As to my making them less willing to give up having intercourse, I think that they'll probably discover that they like oral sex and Tantric sex better than the intercourse that they've been enjoying and thus find it easier to give up intercourse when I've finished with them than they are now. If I'm wrong, and I increase their desire to continue having intercourse, I've still served their interests, which is my right to do, by increasing their understanding of their own sexuality.

"If I'm right, and they are willing to give up having intercourse for the next six months, then, since it's summer and they don't have school soon, I want them to start with three weeks of only Tantric sex, giving them time to get proficient at it. Then two weeks of both Tantric and oral sex, one week of only oral sex, one week of Tantric sex, and repeat that four-week pattern until the six months are up.

"When they come back, if they didn't like anything they did as well as they liked the intercourse they'd been having before they got caught, then John and Mary have reason to worry and we'll all need to spend a lot of time talking about what everyone wants. If they liked best the time when they were having only Tantric sex, then they're using sex primarily to satisfy the emotional needs of a normal brother-sister relationship, not their sexual needs, and John and Mary can relax, confident that Chris and Rebecca will each later find their own sexual partner. If they liked best the time with only oral sex, then again John and Mary will worry, but not as much. If they liked the time with both best, then think that John and Mary will be happy in the end, but will worry until Chris and Rebecca each find their own sexual partner.

"Heather, if we give them the right combination of pills, shots, or patches, Chris won't be making any sperm and Rebecca won't be making any ova, neither will be fertile so we won't need to be concerned about pregnancy, and as long as they agree not to have intercourse (other than Tantric sex) we wouldn't need to worry if they were fertile."

Heather asked us, "Chris, Rebecca, are you willing to agree to all this?" Yes. She said to all of us, "Then I'm going to have to apologize. I was too concerned with John and Mary's interests and didn't make sure that one of the teenage girls was representing the twin's interests. Jasmine's right, it's her job to look after the twin's interests, even if that does make things take longer and make things harder for the rest of us. Sarah, when you examined them, would you have thought to tell the twins that they had the right to at least a day of sex before we did anything to interfere with that?" "Yes, of course, I always talk about that. If they'd asked who got to decide how long ‘at least a day' really was, I think that I would have realized that one of the teenage girls should be doing that. You're right, though, it's your job to tell them that before I evaluate them and you didn't do it.

"Jasmine, I think that you're right that what you've proposed will help sort things out for all of us. I just hope that you're right to be optimistic about the outcome."

Chris and I, and our parents, had been accepting everything that Heather had decreed, and assumed that our only alternative was to look elsewhere for help. No one had told us that we had any rights. Now we've got Jasmine and Sarah on our side, our stay will be at least a month, not the two weeks that Heather wanted, and it sounds like we get to spend two weeks having an orgy.

After the other girls were done with us that first day, Jasmine took us to what she told us would be our room for as long as we were there. She told us to look around and ask questions if we didn't understand something. At first look, it was a good hotel room: A bedroom with a king-sized bed and a nice bathroom, all with the usual amenities, including a hair drier. There was a place to eat, but no way to fix food. I asked how we were supposed to get food and was told to call room service. If we wanted to, we didn't have to leave the room until someone came to get us in thirteen days. If we locked the door, no one would bother us unless there was some sort of emergency. She'd be coming to talk to us frequently, but we'd know when to expect her and would have to let her in.

We had supper with her there and she talked to us about oral sex. She told us that when it was getting near bedtime Chris should have oral sex with me until he was firm enough to fit inside me. Then we should check the time, we should lie on our sides, nestled spoon fashion, we should start to have intercourse, Chris should put his upper arm around me and hold one of my breasts in his hand, we should stop before either of us climaxed, and we should go to sleep. If I was awake and Chris was slipping out of me, I should massage his testicles to get him firmer. If either of us climaxed before morning, we should check the time and see how many hours we'd been able to hold that off. If we were still together, we should enjoy 69, which she explained, before breakfast.

At breakfast the next morning, I asked Jasmine, "Do you expect us to spend all our time having sex?" "No," she said, "but you ought to be able to manage at least twelve hours a day. Did you manage to stay together through the night?" I said, "Yes, but 69 is going to take some practice before we manage to climax together." "You're going to enjoy the practice, aren't you?" "Oh, yes, definitely."

Jasmine explained Tantric sex and told us to spend the day on it and then sleep together like we'd done last night. We could order our meals whenever we got hungry, and she'd see us at breakfast tomorrow. At that breakfast, she asked how we'd liked Tantric sex. Chris said, "I'd expected it to be intercourse without most of the pleasure, but I found that what was really missing was guilt over committing incest. We weren't moving for pleasure so much as just to keep our bodies aroused so we'd continue to enjoy a feeling of comfort, shared love, and a strong emotional bond."

At the end of the two weeks, I told Jasmine that when we came here, we were worried that we might not be able to leave with Chris's testicles intact. I thanked her for what she'd done for us so far and asked how hard it was going to be on us having our puberties suspended. She said Heather had agreed to do it the expensive way that wouldn't be hard on us.

Sometime during the two weeks we were getting used to the medications, I told Jasmine that we weren't having nearly as much sex as we'd had the previous two weeks, but we were still having more sex than we'd been having when we'd gotten caught. Jasmine said, "Good. Love and sex are what makes life worth living. You might change your minds about who you want for sexual partners, but you shouldn't ever go back to a life without sex. Right now, incest is all you have available to you, so you should love each other and enjoy it. I'll give you a few simple rules that will keep your sexual organs in good working order. Rebecca, don't go much over three weeks without making Chris ejaculate. Chris, you need to make sure that Rebecca doesn't go longer than that without an orgasm. Don't go over a week without some kind of sexual activity, and average at least twice a week."

We returned during Christmas vacation. We'd had oral sex and Tantric sex, but Chris and I kept our bodies under control and he never ejaculated in me. Heather asked us which we liked best, intercourse, oral sex, Tantric sex, or a mixture of Tantric and oral sex. I said that of those choices, we liked the mixture best, but we'd also tried three weeks of Tantric sex and one week of oral sex, and that was even better than the mixture.

Heather asked, "Was the Tantric sex primarily motivated by normal brother-sister love, and more emotional than sexual?" Yes. "Would either of you be upset if the other wanted to date someone else?" No. "What if the other had sex on a date? Would you be upset about that?" I said, "No, but as long as we aren't getting sex from someone else, we're going to get it from each other."

Heather asked, "Are you both willing to continue alternating Tantric and oral sex and not having intercourse or doing anything else sexual, and also not having intercourse or Tantric sex with anyone else until you've both finished puberty?" Yes. "In that case, I want to discontinue all drugs for both of you until then. I don't just mean all we're supplying, I mean all, even over-the-counter medicines. The last six months have interfered with your bodies' normal development and I want the rest of the time to be drug-free."

Mom asked about painkillers if one of us got hurt, and Heather said "I'll give you a list of specific drugs, including both some over-the-counter painkillers and some very strong prescription ones, that are acceptable for use when necessary for a short period of time. Nothing with the words ‘for symptomatic relief' or ‘relieves the symptoms' on the label is acceptable. Those drugs make you feel better but prolong the illness, and the twins shouldn't be subjected to prolonged illnesses." We, and our parents, quickly agreed that drug-free made sense to us.

Heather told us, "Rebecca, I'll give you a few morning-after pills for use if you need one. The Hindus who practice Tantra start before the boys are fertile and the ones without a precoital fluid sperm problem and with good self-control don't get their partners pregnant. You'll need to take a microscope with you and regularly check Chris's semen and precoital fluid for sperm. Jasmine, you'll need to write down some instructions for them. Also, Rebecca, you'll need to be willing to agree to use the morning-after pill if you make a mistake with Chris or anyone else. Will you and Chris both agree to that?" We conferred and agreed.

Heather continued, "Once Rebecca's puberty is over, I want her on birth control pills before she starts having intercourse with other boys. I also want Chris to be careful not to be getting girls pregnant. Are you both willing to agree to that?" We were.

After talking with the girls, we went home the next day.

It was summer, and we were back again. I had about a year and a half to go on my puberty and Chris a year beyond that. We were going to be in eighth grade this fall and had decided not to start dating yet.

It was a year later. I had about half a year to go on my puberty and Chris a year and a half. We were going to be high school freshmen this fall and had decided to start dating in about six months.

It was another year later and we'd been dating for a semester. We told Heather and the girls that we were getting some of our sex from others now and we just had sex with each other when things weren't going right with our sex lives with our dates. Our parents asked Heather when they could expect us to stop using sex to console each other. She said, "If they make good marriages, it may stop then, but if they have problems in their marriages they'll console each other then. Once we got the lust tamed and them mostly having oral sex, I think that they have been using it to console or give pleasure to their partner, not for their own pleasure. I don't think they'll ever go more than a few years without getting together and having oral sex because I don't think the desire of each to give pleasure to the other will ever go away.

"Tantric sex is different. I think that it strengthens their normal brother-sister love for each other and the lack of a climax keeps it from strengthening their sexual love for each other. Remember, they've been washing each other in the bathtub for a long time and they don't think of the mild pleasure that brings them as sexual. To them, Tantric sex is an emotional experience, not a sexual experience, and they'll probably enjoy it whenever they get the opportunity.

"You didn't want them to spend their lives in an incestuous relationship, and, working together, we've managed to avoid that. Accept that you're getting what was most important to you and don't begrudge them what is most important to them."

That was our last time to see Heather; really, she was the fourth Heather we had seen. When we'd first met the first Heather, we'd thought that her job was making sure that sexual offenders were castrated. By now, we realized that her job is the rehabilitation of sexual offenders. In our case, as long as we didn't have a child of incest and our relationship didn't become public knowledge, she'd done her job and we generated bonuses to be shared.