I'm Jasmine and I work at the state's experimental rapist castration facility. I was ten when we got a request like none that we'd ever seen before. I'll start by telling what happened before I got involved.

Mike, who was in the eighth grade, had used the date-rape drug to rape Ashley. The prosecutor talked to her about our program, but she said no, Mike deserved prison. The prosecutor knew that her mother had talked her out of using the morning-after pill to keep from getting pregnant, knew that Mike was just old enough to maybe get her pregnant, and told Mike that it might be wise to suspend his puberty and give Ashley more time to think things over. He told Mike a little about our program and said that the earlier he was in his puberty, the more options there were, and Ashley was angry enough that it was best to leave her as many options as possible. She might well, for example, want to keep his voice from changing.

Then Ashley found out that she was pregnant. She told the prosecutor and asked him who could answer her questions about the program. The prosecutor called Heather, who's in charge of our program, and told her that he'd suspended Mike's puberty just in case because he was very close to having his voice change. Heather called Ashley, and Ashley asked her some detailed questions about what was and was not possible. Heather had to check some things and call her back, but she finally told Ashley what we could do for her. It was her problem to talk Mike into accepting his punishment.

Ashley and the prosecutor met with Mike and his attorney. The prosecutor told Mike more about the option of castration instead of prosecution. He hadn't said much earlier because Ashley had said that she wanted Mike to go to prison. Now, she'd reconsidered and would consider it with some additional conditions. If Mike thought castration was a better choice than prison, she wanted to talk to him about it.

Mike told Ashley, "I'd rather do whatever you want than go to prison." Ashley warned him, "You'd better listen a little longer before you agree. I don't want you backing out later."

Ashley explained, "Mike, I've got a problem. You got me pregnant and my mom is very opposed to my having an abortion. I could get one anyway, but she'd make my life miserable if I did. I finally got her to agree to my having an abortion, but only if you don't want the child. If you do want the child, I'm going to have to let you choose castration instead of prison so you'll be free to raise the child. I thought it over, asked some questions about what choices I had about what will happen to you if you choose castration, and realized that I could choose a custom punishment for you that fit the crime.

"I need to ask you some questions and it's important for you to answer each one accurately. If you want to stay out of prison, there are some questions that you'll need to answer yes, some that you'll need to answer no, and some that won't matter."

Ashley started questioning Mike. "Are you willing to be castrated?" Yes. "Are you willing to raise our child without my help?" Yes. "Are you willing to be with me and help me near the end of my of pregnancy and during the birth of our child?" Yes.

She changed subjects. "Do you have any idea what it's like for a girl to get pregnant?" No. "To give birth to a child?" No. "To nurse a child?" No. "To give your child to someone else to raise?" No. "Are you saying that when you raped me you knew nothing about what it would be like for me if you got me pregnant?" Yes. "Are you willing to learn any of this?" Yes.

She changed subjects again. "Have you ever loved a girl?" No. "Do you have any idea what it's like to be a girl?" No. "Do you have any idea what it's like to be raped?" No. "Do you have any idea what it's like to live knowing you might be raped some day?" No. "Are you saying that you have no idea what life is like for a girl?" Yes. "Are you willing to learn what life is like for a girl?" Yes.

She said, "If you mean what you've just said, you aren't going to go to prison. I'm not going to be vindictive, but I'm going to punish you. Are you willing to accept that?" Yes. "If you want to change your mind, you'll have a chance to do that before you're castrated, so we don't need to go into a lot of detail now. The prosecutor has an agreement form ready for you to sign that will protect you from prosecution if you are in fact castrated." Mike conferred with his attorney, then signed the agreement.

Ashley said that she and her mother would take him tomorrow to be castrated, but there were things that they had to get done today. She took Mike home with her, did some things to make him look like a girl, and went to a shop which was used to selling clothes to cross-dressers. She asked the clerk for suggestions on getting him dressed so she could take him shopping at other stores without the clerks realizing that he wasn't a girl. She told the clerk that he needed a girl's name now and the three of them talked about names. They agreed on Elizabeth, which could be shortened to Liz or Beth and all three were unmistakably girls' names. He said he'd go by Liz.

She took him to more typical and less expensive stores for teenagers and he soon had a modest wardrobe of girls' clothing. He could take everything off except his padded bra and panties and he'd still look like a girl as long as he didn't have an erection, and that wouldn't be a problem for long.

She told him, "We'll have to share a bed for the night. That'll be a good chance for me to see if you're really willing to do what I ask. The bed is a tight fit for sleeping side by side, but I can easily sleep on top of you. You'll have to put your penis inside me or it'll be in the way. Once you're inside me, I want you to just hold me and go to sleep. We need to get up early tomorrow and I don't want any semen inside me or on my sheets." He asked, "Wouldn't it be easier for both of us if I sleep on the sofa?" "No, I need to know that I can trust you. Do you have any better idea of how I can know that by morning?" "No, I'll be aroused enough that I don't even know myself. We'll both find out." "Good, that's what we need."

Ashley woke up the next morning to the feeling of Mike getting an erection again. Once he was nice and firm and still holding her, she told him, "I'm glad to know that I can trust you. I think it'll be easier on you if you aren't so firm when the alarm goes off and we have to get up. Do you think that you can get your erection to go away?" Mike said, "You can get it to go away easily enough, you just . . ." Ashley interrupted, "No, I won't make it that easy for you." She did help, though, by talking about other things, like what they should have for breakfast.

After breakfast, her mother drove them to the castration facility. Heather met Mike and Ashley and showed Ashley's mother where she could sit and read while she waited for Ashley. We girls met Mike and Ashley and each told us their part of the story. Ashley told us, "After Mike is castrated, I want the rest of his sexual equipment left in good working order. I want you to give him hormones that'll terminate his male puberty before it's finished, will keep his internal male organs in working order, and will turn him into a pregnant girl ready to begin nursing his child in about nine months.

"I'll return to watch him being castrated and started on the hormone treatment. That'll be the end of the Mike who raped me and I'll have to accept there isn't a Mike to hate anymore after that. We chose the name Liz for him and he's come dressed as Liz. He needs to get used to his new name and to being referred to by feminine pronouns."

We conferred briefly and then I told Ashley, "This will be our first time to turn a boy into a girl and we really like the idea of turning him into a pregnant girl and having him nurse his child soon after it's born. We all think that'll be an appropriate punishment for him, and each of us wants to be the one to do it to him."

Heather said, "Mike's under eighteen, and that means that the youngest girl is supposed to get him. Are you objecting, Jasmine?" I said, "Yes. Ashley's being deservedly hard on Mike, but I think that he should have some last sexual pleasure before being turned into a girl. That means that he should have a larger girl. We don't get many chances at young boys and this one is too good to miss. Sex changes are rare and fun and we all deserve a chance at the first one." Heather said that she'd let each of us say why we should be the one. Mike said, "No, I don't think that I need to hear that. You're all younger than any girl I've ever had sex with. I want a girl who has nipples that stand up to be kissed but doesn't have breasts yet. Jasmine, I agree with what you said and if that describes you, I'll choose you." I walked over to him, took off my blouse, and said "Do I pass inspection." Yes. Heather talked to him more and we learned that he was thirteen and in the middle of stage four of his puberty. It had been suspended during the short period of time between his becoming fertile and his voice changing.

I said, "Ashley's right. It'll be too hard for Mike to suddenly adjust to being Liz just before he leaves. The rules say that Mike has to be castrated within two weeks, and I want him to have time to chicken out and go to prison so Ashley's mother will let her get an abortion. If he still has the nerve to go through with it, it'll give me great pleasure to have Ashley here to watch me castrate him during the evening of the final day of the two weeks and start the process of turning him into Liz. Ashley, do you want me to stop Liz's growth or let her grow taller?" She said, "Keep her as she is now."

I said, "I want to see what Liz looks like in the rest of her new outfits." Liz held one up for me to see and I said "No, put it on. Everyone here is a girl, so you shouldn't mind changing your clothes in front of us." Liz blushed for her first time, but did as she was told. I said, "Usually, when I'm giving a boy his final days of sexual pleasure, I spend twenty-four hours a day alone with him. This time, Liz needs to learn about girl talk so we'll join the girls who aren't busy working for at least an hour a day. Liz will wear girls' clothes from now on and be called Liz at all times except when naked with just me. Then he'll be Mike so I won't feel like I'm having sex with a girl."

I told Liz, "We keep all the guys for at least two days after their castrations so we can check periodically to make sure that everything is healing properly. Sometimes one is kept longer; the reasons vary. You'll have to be kept longer because your remaining male sexual equipment has to be kept undamaged until you've had sexual reassignment surgery. That means you can't be released until you've ejaculated at least twenty times to get all of the remaining sperm out of your system. I want to keep you around still longer so you can spend more time talking to all of us and getting used to being one of a group of girls."

Ashley came when it was time to castrate Mike and asked me to let her talk to him before and during his castration. She told him that she hated him for what he'd done to her and that since he'd be gone in a few hours she had to let watching me castrate him satisfy her desire for revenge. After Mike had become Liz, I reminded Ashley about the rule requiring us to empty Liz of sperm. Ashley said, "It's time for me to become friends with Liz. Girls aren't supposed to have sperm and I'll start by getting rid of Liz's sperm for her. Do you think that I should drink it, or just throw it away?" I said, "I've only had that opportunity a few times, and each time I drank it just before I did the castration and again just afterwards. I could notice that the second drink had a lot less sperm, but after a few more times I couldn't detect the few sperm that were left. I liked that."

Ashley and Liz stayed for a week and everyone thought that it had helped Liz. I took advantage of the extra time to fiddle more with her prostheses, starting with five times the usual dosage of estrogen to start feminizing Liz and to quickly stop her growth. Then I added progesterone so her body would know it was pregnant and get her breasts ready for nursing her child and added a few other things that would also help. Everyone talked to Liz about how her castration and prostheses were affecting her, and before the end of the week everyone was able to tell that she was more tranquil than before she was castrated. Ashley, of course, was part of all this and one day Liz thanked her for being so forgiving. She said, "I'm not forgiving at all. I hated Mike and destroyed him for what he did to me. I don't have any reason to forgive you, Liz. You didn't exist when Mike raped me and you haven't done me any harm since you came into existence when I bought you your first dress. You're going to be raising our child and I hope we'll be friends."

Ashley stayed with Liz while she recovered and took Mike's testicles home for a keepsake when they returned together. Liz wore a padded bra, a dress, and the rest of what a girl her age would be wearing.

I talked to Liz a year later and she told me what had happened since I'd seen her. She'd found a different school to attend, enrolled as a girl, and taken classes that would help her grow up to be a woman. Once Ashley had found out that she was going to have a girl, they'd each made a list of girls' names. They compared lists, intending to choose a name that would satisfy both of them. Jasmine was the first name on each of the lists. After a moment of stunned silence, I told her that I was honored by their choice.

She had stayed with Ashley during her last month of pregnancy, was present for Jasmine's birth, and continued to stay with Ashley afterwards. Ashley nursed Jasmine for the two weeks that her milk would still contain some colostrum. Ashley changed Liz's hormones to those of a girl who'd just given birth and put their child at her breast frequently to stimulate her milk production. Ashley continued feeding Jasmine, but as Liz's milk production increased she gradually took over until she could feed Jasmine by herself. Jasmine was then hers and she left with her and the responsibility for raising her, but Ashley had visitation rights. She breast-fed Jasmine for six months and then had a sex change operation so she'd look like a girl when she took off her clothes. Ashley had told her that now she'd learn what it was like to fear rape.

Now she was a nursing single mother going to a different school. It wasn't an easy life, but it was better than being in prison as a sexual offender. She'd thought at first that she'd see if she could find a single father she liked who didn't mind that she wasn't able to have any more children and would marry her. Then she realized that in her mind she was still a boy who liked girls. Since she was stuck with living the life of a girl, she'd have to find herself a girl who liked girls. She knew that many lesbians wished that they had children but didn't want to have sex with a man to get one. She'd just say that her child was the result of rape and a mother who was opposed to abortion and that she didn't ever want to talk about any of that again.