The night after the dinner at CATS restaurant I had an extreamely realist dream.  A dream so real it was almost like being awake.  Alan and I were all alone on a grassy field next to a beautiful lake.  I was sitting in his lap with his arms around me.  I was as happy as I could be and we watched the sunset together.  He ran his hand up and down my back and kissed me.  It was heaven.

We started to roll on the grass and wrestle but it was all in play.  Alan was so much stronger than I was that there would have been no contest if it had been real wrestling.  Then Alan started to remove my cloths.  I fought back like I didn't want to be undressed but again it was all in play,  "Help me!  Someone help me!  I'm being raped!" I shrieked but since I was laughing at the same time Alan knew I didn't really want help.

"You can scream your head off little one," he said.  "There is no one with in miles.  There is no one to come to your defense!  I have you under my power and will do with you as I like!"  It was like Alan was the bad guy in an old movie and it was a lot of fun.

Then I got sort of quite as I knew I was about to lose my pants.  I decided to serender.  I didn't put up a fight or resist in any way as he pulled them off and then tossed them into the lake.  Fully stripped and helpless  Alan then spread me out on my back so he could see every part of my body.  I made no attempt to hid my nudity from his eyes.  He leaned over and kissed me on the lips and then whispered into my ear, "I love you Josh."

I looked into his eyes and said, "I love you to Alan.  I'm all yours."

He leaned back and slowly started to undress.  I was entranced by his beauty and his rippling muscles.  'What a man!'  I found myself thinking.  I knew that this would be a moment I would remember all my life.

But when Alan lowered his pants I was shocked.  His dick was huge, the largest I had ever seen!  It was about as big as my fore arm. And its head was wet with pre-come.  I looked at Alan and I knew that he intended to penetrate me.  I was moments away from being mounted and I knew that I would be split in two by that giant cock!

I attemped to flee but quick as a flash he reached out and grabbed me.  I tried to break loose but he held me fast.  "No Alan don't!"  I pleaded.  "It's much too big and I'm not ready for it!  Please don't f*** me!"

"You belong to me Josh," he replied.  "I'll tell you when you are ready for it.  I'll f*** you when I want, where I want and how I want!"

He then placed me on my back and grasping my ankles lifted my legs up and apart.  I was wide open to his dick.  There was no escape.  He thrust himself into my boy pussy.  There was a bolt of pain but it passed quickly.  With the pain gone I started to feel good, real good!  It was fantastic!

"Oh yes do me!  F*** me hard!  F*** me now!  I'm your little slut!" I heard someone yelling and through the cloud of rapture I wondered who it was.  Then I realized that it was me, my own voice!  I was being f***ed and I was begging for more!

"You like that don't you little Joshy?  Alan asked.

"No I love it!  I can't get enough!  You can do me anytime!  I love you Alan!"

"I love you to my little Nullo!" he replied.  Nullo?!  Quickly I looked down.  Alan's dick was filling me but above that I was smooth!  My crotch was empty!  There was nothing there!  I was a Nullo!

I awoke in terror.  I was in my room, in bed and it was dark out.  It was all just a dream, just a nightmare, but so real.

I started to reach down between my legs to make sure I still had my boy package.   But I stopped short.  What if it was real?  What if I really was a Nullo?  But that was silly!  It was just a nightmare.

I put my hand on my crotch .  Relief washed over me. It was all there. I was still male, for a little while longer anyway.  But the dream was so very real that I needed more reassurance.  I didn't want to switch the light on as that would wake up Kelly who was sleeping in the bed next to mine.  So I grabbed a small flash light from the bed side table, crawled under the covers and switched it on.  Pulling down my underwear I saw that everything looked just as it should, but man what a dream I had had! 

As long as I was down there I also had a look at my underwear.  This will sound really stupid but the only thing I had on was my Walt Disney Jungle Book underoos.  I remembered when my mom bought them for me , that had been last year when I was only 10 and at the time I thought they were pretty neat.  Over my butt was a picture of Mowgli the jungle boy hugging his friend Baloo the bear.  On the front, right over my thing, was a picture of Mowgli dancing around in what looked like red diapers.

Now that I was getting older, dreaming about sex with Alan and coming to grips with my inpending genital nullification my Jungle book undies looked silly, like something that belonged on a much smaller child.  But come to think of it Mowgli was an Indian boy and I had read that India has about five million eunuchs.  Perhaps Mowgli had already been fixed.  Perhaps I had a picture of a eunuch on my undies all this time and didn't know it!

I was too freaked out to go back to sleep so I did something that I had not done in years.  Wearing only my Mowgli undies I scurried into my mom's room and climbed into bed with her. 

"Oh baby," she said half awake, "Did you have a bad dream?"

"Sort of," I replied.  "It was both good and bad."

"Well it's all over now honey and you're safe with me," she said still mostly asleep and wrapped her arms around me.

"Mom?" I asked.  "Do you think Alan likes me?"

"Everyone loves you puppy," was her reply.

"No mom that's not what I mean.  Do you think he, you know, LIKES me?"

Mom opened her eyes and started to giggle, "Well what is this?"  she asked.  "I saw you flirting with Alan over dinner. Is my little Joshy having his first school boy crush?  Do you have a case of puppy love?"

"Geez mom I'm not a baby anymore!  And this isn't puppy love.  I know I just met Alan but I do love him!  It's real!  Why can't you understand that?"

"I'm sorry Josh," she said getting serious.  "I didn't mean to make lite of it.  Does Alan like you?  I don't know if he likes boys in that special way."

"But I might not be a boy much longer," I said.

"Might not?"  Mom was fully awake now.  "Josh I thought the matter of your castration was settled.  It's normal for a boy to have second thoughts and to fear the knife but being fixed is what's best for you,"  And then she added, "Besides you told Alan that you were to be a nullo and that's what you wanted.  What would he think if you changed your mind?  He'd think you were just a mixed up little boy who doesn't even know what he wants.  Do you think Alan would want a boy like that?"

She was right darn it!  My mom was right!  There was no way out, not with out looking like a fool in front of  Alan.  "Okay mom,"  I said.  "I know I'm afraid and I know that if you let me I'll chicken out so I want you to promise me one thing."

"What is it sweety?" she asked.

"Promise me that no matter what, no matter what I say or do you are not going to let me back out and change my mind.  Promise me that you'll order my nullification no matter how much I cry, beg and threaten to run away."

"I'll sign the papers first thing in the morning," she said

Underneath my Mowgli underoos my boy package was trying to hid.  I reached down to hold it and Mowgli in my hands and thought, 'What have I done?  I've lost my mind and will soon lose my balls'.

[TO BE CONTINUED.  OR WILL IT?]

Dear Friends

I hope you all enjoyed reading SiSC as much as I enjoyed writting it.  I have many ideas for new adventures for Josh, Kelly and Craig.   However if there is to be any continuation of this story I'll let others write it.  Anyone who wants to pick this story up where I have left off has my permission to do so.  You also have my best wishes.

Thanks to everyone for reading this far!

Timothy