Transition Clinic

I saw the ad in the local Underground Scene newspaper. I said “Ultimate Transformations”. It had a local number and business hours. I was curious yet a bit anxious given some of my desires. I grew up in a normal setting, yet was anything from normal. I hate being male. My life has always be focused on how to become female and get rid of that ugly piece of meat between my legs. I can’t believe how many times I actually tried to neuter myself when riding a bicycle. I constantly borrowed my moms and sisters clothes from the hamper. When I was old enough to get a job I started secretly buy my own women’s clothes. I read every Internet site about natural hormones. I take Black Cohash and other herbs to increase my estrogen levels. I have only noticed a ever so small affect in my breasts. I think hopeful thinking is clouding my vision.

So I called the clinic. A very nice sounding woman answered the phone and explained the clinic was staffed by a doctor and a registered nurse. In addition the clinic was set up to make sure insurance companies would cover most of the procedures that were offered by the clinic. She commented that the clinic was in business to facilitate the transformation of an individual into what they desired. She commented that it would be best to make an appointment to consult with the resident psychologist and the resident doctor. This would cost $150 up front and from this consultation, a program would be devised to make sure the transformation was completed.

I set the appointment for the next day at noon. The receptionist commented that it would be appreciated if I were to come dressed in the clothes that were most fitting to what I wanted to my life to reflect. In addition, she instructed me to have all my body hair shaved off. This would be no problem, given my light body hair and my routine shaving an use of Nair.

When I awoke on the morning of the appointment, I was nervous and excited. I decided to have an early hair appointment with a manicure. My stylist could sense that I was up to something different, so she style my hair with a nice wave. She also made sure my face was made up to appear and naturally feminine as possible. My finger nails and toe nails were painted in a burgundy red. With a wink she gave me her usual “Go Girl Go”. I was in heaven. She whispered in my ear, that she was thinking I should be her new lesbian partner. I blushed and almost cried. We hugged and she gave me a light kiss.

I arrived at the clinic just before my appointed time. The receptionist,Trish, greeted me and asked if I was Tom. She smiled and commented that it appeared that the direction of my transformation was very clear. She complimented my choice of clothes and the wonderful hair style I filled out the forms, dealing with health issues, insurance data. When I was finished I gave Trish the forms and the initial payment. After Trish filed all the papers and check, she asked if I wanted the staff to address me by another name. I smiled and told her that I really loved the name Gweneth, or Gwen. She said Gwen was a beautiful name and that would be what I would be called from that point.

I didn’t realize that that was going to be more fact than fiction.

I waited for aout five minutes before my name was called by the nurse. “Gwen are you ready for you consultation.?” I smiled and she told me to not be nervous, this was just a time to have the doctor examine me and then have a consultation. The nurse, Nancy, led me to an exam room, she told me to take off all my clothes and put on the standard exam gown. She told me to but it on with the ties in the front. Fortunately the room was not too cold. I undressed, being careful to hang my cloth up carefully. I unsnapped my bra and looked in the mirror hoping to see even the smallest changes. I sat on the exam table and waited. Dr. Johns knocked on the door and entered. I expected the Dr. to be a man and was pleased that he was really a she. She introduced herself as Judith. We exchange pleasantries and then she told me how we would proceed. First she could see that I was a male that was dressed and was rather successful in passing as a woman. She then told me she would examine me and then we could talk prior to the consultation with her and the psychologist.

Judith told me to lay on my back and relax. She first took my blood pressure, and heart rate. These appeared fine. She asked if I was on any medication natural or prescribed. I commented on my herbal combinations telling her the amounts and frequency I took them. She frowned and commented that, one I could be doing some damage to my body and for the most part there was no chance that I would see any changes in my exterior, breasts, or hips due to these concoctions. She smiled and apologized for being harsh, “I just see too many cases of individuals both men and women who get sucked into believing that these herbal concoctions are a magic cure”.

“Ok enough with the preaching, let’s see what we have going on.” With that she opened my garment and began examining my breasts. “Your nipples appear to be a bit larger than expected, probably due to the herbs.” “You seem to have very little fat and your waist is trim.” She then examined my cock. Her feminine hands sent a shudder through me, and gave rise to the meat she was holding. “Hmmm I see that you still have feeling down here” Now don’t be embarrassed, what I really want to see is just how big it gets. I do this to see what kind of material we will have to work with and to see if you are still potent. I hope you don’t mind, but we will need a sample of your cum. Now I can help you or I can leave you alone and let you produce the specimen. It appears you seem to not mind that I help you. With that she gently caressed my cock into its full 7 inches. “Nice, we should have plenty of material to develop genetalia if that is what you want.” By this time she could have told me anything. I was enthralled in this goddess stroking my cock. She looked into my eyes and smiled, I can tell you love women.” Do you think you will be drawn to women if you are made into one?” I looked at her and started to cry, I can’t see myself as anything othere than a lesbian. With that she stopped her strocking and lifted her skirt for me to see the most beautiful shaved pussy. She mounted the table and lowered herself on top of my cock. She began to rock back and forth, looking into my eyes. She slowed and made me become aware of what she wanted to say. “ I want you to know that this will be your last male orgasm. From now on you will begin the process of becoming a woman. Once you cum into me, you will end all your existence as a male. You will live only as a woman and when the time is right you will have SRS. Today will be your beginning , however this beginning will not be with out some pain. Are you ready to start your transformation?”

I knew that it was now or never, I grabbed her hips and pleaded with her to help me become a total woman. I told her that I wanted a pussy and boobs. She smiled and told me to cum, in the most seductive way possible. I erupted like never before. She hugged me as I came and told me that I would make a wonderful lesbian lover. She giggled and said that, my sample would be a bit unusable, however she was sure that it was ok. She dismounted me and went to the sink, to clean herself up. She returned to the table with a warm cloth and began to clean my spent cock.

“OK Gwen, get dressed, fix youe make up and go to room at the end of the hall. We will meet with the psychologist and set up the process of your transformation. Now I mentioned an issue with pain and this is something we will go over in the session.” With that, Judith left me to get dress and prepare myself for the next session.

When I entered the room I was greeted by a stunning red head, Amy, and Judith. They told me to make myself comfortable, and asked if I wanted coffee or tea. I asked for tea , which was brought to me. Amy started the conversation with a description of the services the clinic offered. “We established this clinic to serve the needs fo individuals that want to make major course changes in their lives.. In some cases we work with women that want to become men. In other cases we have men that want to become completely emasculated. That is to have no sexual reference.” I gasped and Amy commented that there was a rather large underground group of men that wanted to only experience sex from the point of being the tool to provide it. The abhorred any sexual excitement. To them the only use for there penis was to pass urine. Therefore a pee hole would suffice for this purpose.” We do not recommend this transformation to everyone. In you case we can see that you want to be transformed into a woman. Can you describe what this means to you?”

With that I went into my long and arduous life history. How I had dressed, my constant web searches in the area of the Transgendered. How I had researched the various surgical methods and providers. My network of TS and TV friends, I told them how I worked like a maniac to build a business, so I could have the money for a wardrobe and even for the possibility of traveling to a country where SRS would be easier to acquire than here in the US. By the time I was finished I was exhausted and assuemed they were also exhausted listening to me. Judith and Amy conferred quietly, and then announced that they would help me on my journey.

“First we need to prescribe an effective hormone treatment” Before you leave we will give you a shot that will start your treatment. We recommend that you take hormone shots, fro various reasons. One they are more effective in creating the secondary sex traits. Second they have less side affects. We can monitor your blood chemistry and make changes to your dosages. Now if you want to have larger breasts, we can easily set up to have them surgically augmented. In addition, we will probably recommend that you have some surgery to change your facial features. Now we also recommend that you have your testicles removed.” I must have looked a bit shocked. “We know that this is a major change, however if you want to see the affects without having anti testosterone drugs, we feel this is the best process. We would not be making this recommendation if we didn’t think you should have this done.

I asked when did they want to have this done. To my surprise they said, “Tonight.” “We want you to come back here at 7pm sharp. You will be dressed very simply. Don’t worry we will take care of the costume.” I looked at them and they looked very serious. “Gwen you are going to become a woman, with all the attributes, except for one. That being you will never enjoy the pleasure or the pain of giving birth to a child. In our minds we are giving you the gift of becoming a woman. In exchange we require you experience some of the pain a woman goes through to bear children.” With that they became quiet. “Do you want to be transformed?” I began to cry and said yes.

They both broke into smiles and said good. They told me to relax and called the nurse to bring in the meds. The nurse brought in a tray with swabs, and a syringe that looked like it was to be used on a horse. “Now this may sting, but you will thank us. And by the way, (as Judith gored me) I want you to toss all those stupid herbal treatments away. I will be having you do blood tests and will be very angry if I see any of that horse shit in your system.”

We both laughed as I rubbed my sore arm.

“Now go home relax and show up here at 7pm. Only eat a very light snack.”

I went home and quickly changed. I noticed that there were messages on my machine. The first was from Sarah, my stylist. She wanted to know how I was and did I have any news. The second was from an investment firm representing a potential buyer of my company. They were happy to confirm the value and terms of the acquisition. From my perspective, being free of this company was great and having about $70 million after tax in an offshore account was not bad either. The other calls were from friends telling me about TS meetings and if I was going to be in attendance. I called back my friends and told them I was not going to make the meeting tonight, but would be in touch and had some surprises for them.

I called the investment firm and told them to forward the contracts to my attorney and I would sign them ASAP after they did the last check of the terms. I told them I was very pleased with the deal.

I called the clinic and asked to talk with Judith. Judith answered and told me that she was so pleased with my decision. I told her that they did not need to use my insurance, because I would be paying cash for all the treatments. She commented that this would be fine and would have a firm estimate on the cost of the program. I told her that my only concern was that I looked as beautiful as her. She said “no problem”. I asked her about tonight, and what I would need to do for recovery. She giggled and said, “you will need some TLC for about two days.” I commented that I may do this at my beach house. She reminded me to wear loose clothes and be back at the clinic in 3 hrs.

After hanging up, I called Sarah, she was excited that I called and was interested in talking about whatever I was going to do. I told her that I was going for a special treatment at 7pm. She said she would be over in 10 minutes to have a girl chat.

Sarah arrive in no time, I was just finishing taking off my clothe, so I threw on a robe to let her in for our chat. I was given a nice surprise when she hugged me and gave me a kiss. We went into the living room for our chat. I started out the conversation by telling her that I had decided to go forward and have the complete program of surgeries that would change me into a physical woman. Sarah smiled and then began to cry. She said that she was so happy for me. I then told her that I was starting the process at this clinic and that my first procedure would be tonight. She looked surprised and asked what was going to be done. I took a big breath and told her that I was going to be castrated, as in having my balls removed. I then told her that it was supposed to be in a painful way, so that I could experience some of the pain that women experience in child birth. She gasped again and then looked a little sheepish. She asked, “Is it possible for me to watch?” I told her that I really didn’t know what was going to happen or who would be there. She told me that she loved me and wanted to be part of this whole process. She smiled and told me that if I let her watch, I could expect some wonderful times after those little things were gone. She commented that she would think of the remaining part as a really big clit. I decided then that I would call Judith and tell her that Sarah would be joining us as tonight. Judith was happy that I had the support and commented that Sarah would be welcomed, she asked if Sarah was there and if she could talk to her. I handed the phone to Sarah. After about 5 min. of talking Sarah was smiling and told me that she was going to be there as a participant, and that she was going to be my TLC provider for the whole program of Transformation.

As 7 pm approached, I began to get nervous. I knew this was going to be the beginning of a truly wonderful life, however I was afraid of the notion of pain. The notion of a painful castration was beginning to concern me. Sarah for her part was reassuring me that I was going to be alright. That she would be there and was going to be with me always. She reached for my hand and brought me to her. I could feel here breasts against me and realized how much I wanted breasts. I told her that I wanted her to be my lesbian lover.

At 6:30 we left my apartment and headed for the clinic. It was at this point I told Sarah that I was selling my company, and wanted her to stay with me at my beach house. She smiled and told me that Judith was adamant that I give you TLC for the next couple of days. She commented that while I was taking a pee she called her salon and to have her appointments rescheduled.

The Evening:

When we arrived at the Clinic, Judith met us, she was dressed in Goddess clothes, High healed boots, Black leather bustier, and a black leather mini. She told Sarah that her clothes and my outfit were in the clinic. She smiled at me and told me that everything was set up for my new life. She also commented, that as a doctor, she would make sure nothing done tonight would create a danger to my health. She just wanted to have a ceremony that made my transition to being female memorable.

I was given an outfit that consisted of a white bustier, white garter, white stockings, white 4 inch pumps and a white thong. I was given a long white robe to wear. Sarah was given an outfit like mine but in red. We used Judith’s SUV to drive to her house which was a small mansion. She commented that she had a fully equipped medical office and a wonderful dungeon. She also commented that there would be additional entertainment tonight. On of there clients has asked for a penectomy, and in a very painful way. We decided that you might enjoy this little festivity before you event. I squirmed in my seat. Judith reassured me that my event was going to not be as painful and that my castration was intended to salvage the scrotum for use in the SRS surgery. I asked if she could tell me wha they were going to do to the other person. She responded that they were going to have some fun with wire and her dogs.

When we arrive we were by another Dom who was dressed in black. She greeted us and told us to follow her to the dungeon. The dungeon seemed to be the size of a ballroom. It had 10 foot ceilings. The wall was covered with equipment ranging from bondage and constraint devices to varying styles of crops and paddles. We were seated next to a very formidable St Andrews cross. Arranged in front of the Cross were several tables rolling medical trays and a formidable devise that stood at least 9 feet tall. The Device looked like a small oil derrick. It had a exterior trap platform that had a large weight attached. Below this was a net. Attached to the weight was a study steel cable that went over the top of the derrick on a roller. At the end of the cable there was a clip.

After a few minutes Judith and the other Dom entered the room leading a man that was nude and blindfolded. The man had a collar and hand and ankle constraints. He was led to the cross and they proceeded to attach the constraint sot the cross, so that he was facing out. Judith roughly pulled off his blind fold and asked him if he was ready to lose his pathetic cock and ball. He said yes. Judith looked over to me and told me to rise and come over to the cross. I complied and went to her. She began by saying “Gwen, today you have decided to make the wonderful transition in to the world of womanhood. One of the unfortunate aspects is to service men either out of desire, compassion or to fulfill their pathetic needs. As I serviced you today, I am asking you to service this puke tonight.” She then told me to knell before the victim a service him. She leaned over and whispered that his blood had been tested and he was completely free of all viruses. I looked over to Sarah and she nodded with a smile.

As requested I knelt before this doomed victim and began to give him oral pleasure. I massaged his soon to be destroyed ball and could feel him begin the rise to his very last orgasm. As I felt his muscles tense I forced his cock down my throat to receive his last outpouring of manhood. Just as he was about to erupt Judith pulled me away and grabbed his ball sack. She took a long piano wire that had a loop at one end. She handed the wire to me and told me to gore his balls which she was holding. I took the wire and forced it into the scrotum and began pushing them through his balls. The wire slid easily through and emerged from the other side of his ball sack. I looked up and saw that his eyes were about to pop out. Judith then told me to continue my sucking. He quickly regained size and was again beginning to approach orgasm. Judith again pull me away and told me to stand by the derrick. She then took out a package and removed a sterile catheter. She inserted it into the man’s penis. She then asked Sarah to come over to the man. Judith then handed Sarah another section of piano wire that has a loop on the end. She grabbed the mans cock by the head and told Sarah to impale the mans penis at its base in the same way I had done. Sarah inserted the wire so that it went below the catheter. Judith told Sarah to take the end of the wire and pass it through the end loop so that it was cinched over the top of the penis. Sarah was then instructed to do the same thing to the wire passing through the balls. Judith then took the end of the wires and handed them to me. She told me to loop them through the clip attached to the cable, then twist them so that that the wire was not slack and they were secure. She then turned to the victim and told him that one way or another the wire would come out. She then took out a length of string and tightly secured the base of the mans penis, thereby cutting off blood flow. His penis looked like a swollen sausage. Judith then applied a generous amount of lubricants to the mans penis and told Sarah to bring him to orgasm. Judith told me that I would pull the cord on command. The man was in a state of pain and pleasure as Sarah massaged his doomed cock. Judith noticed his impending eruption and told him to enjoy it because he would be forever nullified with this last eruption. Just as he was beginning to cum Judith told Sarah to back away, leaving the man to look at Judith with pleading eyes. She looked to me as I saw the first spasm produce a white rope of cum, she nodded and I pulled the lever. Immediately the weight plummeted pulling the cable, which was followed by a shriek of pain. The loops of wire lay on the ground. The mans ball were an sliced in half as was his cock. Judith put on her latex gloves looked at the man who was weeping, and picked up a large and very sharp butcher knife. She grabbed the bloody mass and with on movement severed the cock and ball sack just before the secured tounnecut. The man shrieked again and began to cry as she held up the freshly butcher meat. She then told the other Dom to release the dog, who came running into the room and sat before Judith. Judith then looked at the weeping man and told him to watch as she fed the mangled mass to her dog.

With this the man knew that his destiny was sealed. Judith released the man from his constraints, she had me help him onto an awaiting gurney. She looked at the man and told him that he would be taken care of now. He would now begin to life of total emasculation and never again stand to pee.

After he left two maids came in to clean area. They wheeled away the derrick, and wheeled in new carts and tables. One of them looked like a custom butchers table that was set on adjustable legs. On the other table there was a portable cooking unit and small sauté pan. There was meat tenderizer mallet as well as an assortment of spices and herbs.

Judith looked at me and said quietly that it was now my time to begin the transformation. Judith asked Sarah to go over to the wall and get 4 constraints that would be put on my wrists and ankles. Sarah chose 4 that had lambs wool lining. Judith smiled and said that was fine. The then placed the constraints on my wrists and ankles. I was told to remove my robe and thong.

I complied and then without hesitation went to the cross and faced my future. Sarah was told to secure my constraints to the cross. I have never experienced the sensation of be spread out. I felt very vunerable at this moment.

Judith approached me and began to explain my fate. First I have decided that you will cum one last time. The purpose of this is so that we can save you seed for Sarah. She loves you very much and want to have a child from you seed. She just can’t bear to have a man with balls penetrate her. So we will collect you sperm and freeze it for future use. I nodded and looked and a teary eyed Sarah. With this Judith told Sarah to stoke me to the point of eruption. Sarah did this almost immediately. She smiled and told me that it would be so great to have my baby and that we could both be mothers. I was quickly brought to the brink, Judith quickly brought over a sterile medical tube and placed it at the end of my swollen head. I shot what seemed like a never ending load. She put a stopper into the tube and handed it to one of the maids with the instruction to have the nurse place it immediately in the sperm freeze under my section.

Judith then turned to me and said it was now time for me to understand the pain women feel when giving birth. She then had Sarah stand back as the customized butcher’s table was brought over. She adjusted the height so that it fit under my genitals. Judith then put on her surgical gloves and picked up a sterilized scalpel. She roughly grabbed my ball sack and quickly made two incisions, one on each side of my scrotum. I winced as the burning pain registered. She then pick up a tray and placed it under my bleeding sack. She turned to Sarah and asked her if she wanted to help, Sarah looked at me and I nodded. Judith told her to pop each ball out of the sack. As she did this I immediately was jolted as the raw testicle still attached to the cords hit the cold stainless steal tray. Judith then picked up the left testicle and pulled so that the cord stretched completely out of my sack. She then crimped the cords so that there would be little blood loss. She commented that, I should be in some serious pain at this time. I nodded as tears were beginning to fall. Judith did the same crimping to the cord of my right testicle. She then took some surgical thread and permanently tied off my cords. She then looked at me and said, “Say goodbye to these pathetic things. From this point they are completely useless. I tied the cords off so that they would die even if I put them back into the sack.

Judith then told Sarah to turn on the portable stove and heat up the sauté pan. She wanted it to be very hot.

Judith then picked up my balls and removed the steel pan and them placed them on the butcher block. She told Sarah to bring over the tray that had the mallet and seasonings. Sarah wheeled this tray over to Judith. Judith then told Sarah that she could have the honors of tenderizing the dinner treats. Sarah picked up the mallet while Judith watched. Sarah looked at me and them proceeded to pound my testicles to a flat mash. I thought I was being kneed, gored at the same time. I shrieked like a girl. Judith told Sarah that the dinner looked well tenderized. She told her to use the seasoning liberally this included salt, pepper, chili pepper and other spices. Judith them told Sarah to cut the cords and use the spatula to lift my mangled ball off the block. The next sensation was the smell of my testicles being fried in olive oil.

After the two finished eating my lost balls with wine, I was released from my cross and taken to surgery. They cleaned the sack and inserted two synthetic balls in to the sack. Judith explained that she wanted the sack to stay healthy. She would be using it for my SRS surgery. I was then released into Sarah’s care for recuperation.

To be continued.