Interview with a Modifier - Part 7

James: No, my youngest client was Aaron. He was 14 years old.

Q: Really? That young?

J: Actually, he was just 13 when I first met him. I got an email from a cutter who said that Aaron had contacted him because he wanted to be castrated. The cutter wanted nothing to do with it, so he passed Aaron on to me.

Q: Tell me about Aaron.

J: Well, Aaron had only just reached puberty when I met him. He was a beautiful boy, with long black hair, small and thin. He wanted me to castrate him, so I asked him why.

Aaron said that for as long as he could remember, he had thoughts of castration. Even when he was just 5 or 6 years old, he would tie up his scrotum with string or rubber bands until it turned purple. Later, he’d pierce his sack with needles.

When puberty had hit a few months earlier, this castration desire grew stronger. He used a sharp knife to inflict small cuts in his sack. Sometimes, he’d put his testicles between two books and squeeze them, flattening them until he couldn’t stand the pain.

Q: Was Aaron gay?

J: Yes, but that didn’t seem to have anything to do with his castration desires. He came from a liberal family that didn’t mind the fact that their son was effeminate. Aaron had begun fooling around sexually with other boys, and didn’t have any guilt or shame about it.

I asked Aaron if I could examine him, and he agreed. I saw at once that he had been torturing his balls. The scrotum had many small scars, and it was heavily bruised.

I told Aaron that he was too young for me to castrate him, and that more time would need to pass to be sure this was something he really wanted to do. He began to cry, saying that he wouldn’t change his mind, and that if I didn’t castrate him, he’d do it himself.

Naturally, this put me in a dilemma. I thought that Aaron was too young for castration, but I didn’t want him hurting himself by trying to do it alone.

Q: What did you do?

J: I told Aaron that I would castrate him, but only if under certain conditions. First, he had to promise that he wouldn’t attempt to castrate himself. Second, he had to wait at least one year.

He wasn’t happy about having to wait, but Aaron was relieved that I agreed to do the procedure. So, he agreed to my terms.

Q: What happened next?

J: Well, Aaron continued to explore his sexuality, and soon found himself a steady boyfriend, Jason. He told Jason about his castration urges, and Jason agreed to engage in ball torture with him. They managed to buy a ball stretcher from a mail-order house on the Internet, and spent hours using it on Aaron.

A few months after I first saw Aaron, the two of them came to visit me. Jason was a little older than Aaron, about 16 years old. He was okay with Aaron’s castration fixation, and I think he enjoyed doing ball torture with Aaron.

Aaron said he couldn’t wait, that he really wanted me to castrate him right away. I told him some of the side effects of castration, but it didn’t seem to make any difference. Aaron said that he didn’t want erections anymore, that he liked being fucked.

I told him again that I wouldn’t castrate him until he at least turned 14, but that I would go part way if he’d agree to wait until his 14th birthday.

Q: What did you mean by part way?

J: I told Aaron that I’d cut open his sack and take out his testicles, but wouldn’t sever them yet. He got very excited by this idea and agreed to my deal.

Q: Why did you suggest that?

J: I thought it would satisfy him for the time being, and also possibly would discourage him from seeking a full castration. Seeing his balls exposed like that might make him change his mind.

Q: Did it?

J: Well, I had Aaron take off his clothes and lay down on the examining table. He had a large erection because of his excitement. I positioned a mirror over the table so he could watch.

I injected an anesthetic into his crotch and then picked up a scalpel and showed it to Aaron. I thought it might scare him, but he just got more excited, although his erection wilted from the local anesthetic.

Jason was more scared than Aaron, actually.

I placed the scalpel against Aaron’s sack and slowly made an incision. Jason became pale when he saw the blood oozing from the cut, but Aaron just became more fascinated.

I took my time, gradually slicing through the protective tissue until the right testicle was fully exposed. Then I pulled it until it emerged from the scrotum, dangling from its stalk.

Aaron became extremely excited. He said, “Oh shit, that’s amazing.” He asked if he could touch his testicle, and I said yes.

Aaron cradled his testicle in his hand, feeling the weight. Then he rubbed his fingers on it and began squeezing it. Naturally, he couldn’t feel any pain, but he was fascinated by the way it felt in his hand. He told me to go ahead and take out the other testicle, so I repeated the procedure.

Aaron told Jason to go ahead and touch his balls. Jason was reluctant, but finally began feeling the exposed testicles. I could tell that it excited him as well. Jason had quite a bulge in his jeans (laughs).

Aaron begged me to finish the castration, but I reminded him of our agreement, and returned his testicles to the scrotum and stitched it up. Aaron was very disappointed, but by now he trusted me and knew I’d keep my word.

Q: When did Aaron turn 14?

J: About six weeks later. He called me a few days before and reminded me of the date. He said he’d be at my office the morning of his birthday. I told him that I’d keep my promise.

Aaron arrived with Jason again. Before I did the castration, I told Aaron again about the side effects of castration, but Aaron said again that he wanted it to happen. He liked the idea that he would keep his boyishness. Aaron had no body hair to speak of, and hadn’t yet developed the chest muscles that typically come with puberty.

So once again I had Aaron get on the table, and injected him with a local. I traced the earlier incision scars with a scalpel, and once again fished his testicles out.

Jason was sitting next to the table holding Aaron’s hand. He said, “Are you sure, baby?” and Aaron just smiled and nodded. I knew that this was no passing fantasy, that Aaron had a deep-seated need for castration that wouldn’t go away.

I tied off the blood vessels and put the scalpel against the stalk. With a quick cut, the testicle was freed. I placed it on Aaron’s chest so he could get a close look at it. His face was just ecstatic.

I asked Jason if he wanted to finish making Aaron a eunuch, and he was surprised and pleased. He stood up and took the scalpel. I directed his hand, placing the blade against the stalk, and told him to do it. At first he didn’t apply enough pressure to cut the testicle free, but eventually the blade passed through and the testicle dropped free. Jason’s face lit up with delight, and Aaron began to cry with happiness.

I stitched up Aaron’s scrotum and placed the balls in a preservative. I gave the jar to Jason for safekeeping.

The boys spent the night in my office, sleeping on separate cots side-by-side.

Q: What was the aftermath of the castration?

J: Aaron had the usual symptoms. He didn’t like the hot flashes, but got used to them. His erections gradually disappeared. He began having swelling in his breasts, and his nipples grew larger and more tender, but both boys enjoyed that. (smiles)

That was about six months ago, and Aaron hasn’t been sorry at all. He enjoys his new body, and Jason still is his boyfriend.

This incident showed me that even someone as young as Aaron can make up his mind on body modification. I firmly believe that he would have pursued castration until it finally happened. I was able to help him in a safe way. So, I’m glad for the outcome.

(To be continued)