It all started when I went to the doctor’s office for a pinched nerve in my neck. He proscribed steroids and told me to come in later in the week to have my yearly physical. I was in a hurry to get to a meeting and in my rush I left my journal in the examination room. In the journal I wrote about my love for sex. I wrote that I would orgasm 5-6 times a day. I wrote sexual secrets about my tiny penis and my love for humiliation. I wrote about my love for porn, skinny dipping and streaking. He had all he needed to get me into real trouble.

I was so busy for the next three days that I didn’t even miss my journal. When I went into the office, he did the physical and got to the place where he needed me naked. At that moment, he pulled out my journal from a drawer. “Mike, you left this here earlier in the week. I had to look inside to see who it belonged to. I couldn’t believe what you wrote and admitted. I could ruin you and your standing in the community if I made copies and sent them electronically throughout the community.”

I pleaded with him. I told him that I would do anything if he would keep quiet about what he had read. He told me that he would keep quiet but the price would be chemical castration.

My mouth dropped open in shock when I realized that he had me by the balls. I asked him what he meant by chemical castration. He told me that there were numerous drugs on the market that would essentially make my cock and balls useless. “Chemical castration has the same effect as having your balls cut off. There are drugs to eliminate a mans ability to orgasm. There are drugs to make a man impotent and unable to get it up. Additionally, there are drugs that will shut down all of your testosterone production. You will have your manhood taken from you by force. Your days of jerking off and getting orgasmic release are almost over.”

He gave me a prescription for propecia, Primidone and Lexapro. The propecia was to stop a man from going bald or to shrink an enlarged prostate. He told me that the Propecia would soon remove all of the DHT in my body. “In about a week you will find that you are having a harder time getting an erection. Your balls will shrink a bit and your sperm and semen production will go down. You will also have some decreased libido. Take 5 pills a day. The 5mg will shrink your prostate and make you impotent rather quickly. Take the 5 pills every morning when you get up”

Then he gave me a prescription for Primidone which he proscribed for a slight tremor that I had in my left hand. He told me that the Primidone would eliminate my slight tremor but that it would also stop the massive tremors called orgasm. “Imagine that you are horny but you can’t get hard. You jerk your tiny, limp dick and try to orgasm but you won’t be able to get there. You will scream for release and be denied. No matter how hard you try you will not be able to get to the intense orgasmic release you have enjoyed all of your life. Almost every time you try to cum you will fail. It will drive you crazy. You will be just as horny as you are now but you won’t be able to cum. On those rare occasions when you do get to the top, it will be a couple of squirts with no pleasure or release. I want you to start off by taking 4 pills a day. After a week, add two more pills in the afternoon.”

Then he gave me a prescription for the anti-depressant Lexapro. He told me that SSRI anti-depressants like Lexapro reduced libido and caused impotence and anorgasmia. He instructed me to start by taking 1 20 mg pill every day for two weeks and then increase the dosage to 2 20 mg pills a day.

Then he said: “The combination of these three drugs together will keep your little, horny dick soft. They will also make it almost impossible for you to orgasm.” He told me to come back in a month for blood work and warned me that he would be able to tell by my blood tests if I was taking all of my medication. Then he gave me my first doses of propecia, Lexapro and Primidone.

I walked out of the doctor’s office in shock. I couldn’t believe what was happening to me. I drove to the pharmacy and had my three prescriptions filled. I jerked off three times that night. Each of my orgasms were spectacular. I couldn’t begin to imagine not being able to regularly jerk off. I started jerking off when I was 13 and I haven’t stopped. I jerk off 2-3 times a day. I live to get off. It was two weeks later when I got the shock of my life. I couldn’t orgasm. I could still get hard but I couldn’t cum. I would jerk for an hour or more to get to the point of release. When I got to the point where the release of climax and orgasm was supposed to occur, nothing happened.

I had no pleasure at all. Some dribbles of seamen came out of my dick. I was horny and frustrated.

My wife wanted me to fuck her a couple of days after my orgasms stopped. I mounted her but after a minute of thrusting, my dick went soft. I had never had a problem keeping it up and so I was humiliated by my inability to fuck her.

She looked at my tiny, limp, shaved penis and she started to laugh. She got on top of me and started rubbing my limp penis against her swollen clit. After a few minutes of rubbing, she orgasmed a couple of times. Then she got off me and started to jerk my limp dick. She jerked me for about 10 minutes and then told me to jerk off. As I started to jerk, she inserted two fingers into my ass. I couldn’t believe the feeling I didn’t get hard but when she pushed her fingers against my prostrate I ejaculated a pool of seamen. She thought that I had orgasmed. I was frustrated but I knew that it was going to take me a long time to even try to get a tiny feeling at the end of my jerking.

After that day, I was impotent. No matter what I did, I could not get totally hard. I would have to jerk off my limp, little penis. My wife noticed and loved to ask me if I could get hard and fuck her. I couldn’t and she made sure that I knew it. No matter how hard I tried I could not get an erection. It was frustrating and humiliating.

Soon the month had passed and it was time to go to the doctor again. He hooked me up to a penile plethysmograph. He told me that the device was a tool used to measure male sexual arousal. He put a clamp-like device around my penis. He told me that the clamp measures how sexually aroused you are. He patted my butt and then he said: “The clamp sends information to the device so that it is easy to determine the level of your sexual arousal. I will expose you to a variety of sexually suggestive content, such as photos, movies and audio. This device will tell me what all your fantasies are. Your dick will answer all my questions. In future visits, we will use the device to find out if you are totally and completely chemically castrated.

He hooked me up to the machine and turned on a straight video. I didn’t respond at all. Then he put on a bisexual flick and he got a bit of a rise out of my cock. Then he put on a gay movie and I got totally aroused as I watched a guy take two huge cocks in his mouth and ass.

I also responded to bondage, domination, humiliation, nudism and a host of other secrets. He now knew all of my secrets and fantasies. I didn’t get an erection but my dick responded to the images that turned me on.

He told me that he was about to inject me with Depo-Provera. He explained that Depo-Provera decreases the testosterone level to pre-puberty levels. He went on to say that with the elimination of testosterone from my body would chemically castrate me. He said that the combination of the Primidone, Lexapro and propecia had almost removed my ability to get even a little hard. He looked at my penis and said: “These shots of Depo-Provera will totally eliminate your sex life. In a few months the chemical castration process will be total and complete. Your penis, testicles, prostate, and seminal vesicles will temporarily shrink.” Then he took out a needle filled with Depo-Provera and injected it into my butt.

As I felt the needle go into my body I couldn’t help but realize that I was being forced to give up my sex life. I was on the road to totally loosing the power to thrust, jerk off and get the wonderful release of orgasm. I was excited and anxious at the same time. I couldn’t believe that my balls were being turned off by another man against my will. I couldn’t believe that that my tiny, shaved penis would soon be unable to function in any way, shape or form. I knew that my penis was going to shrink without any exercise and I knew that would be humiliating.

I had to go back to the doctor each week for my Depo-Provera shot. He also gave me an estrogen cream for my penis. After three weeks of Depo-Provera I started to loose even the tingling horniness in my groin. Each week I went to the doctor I was less and less horny. I stopped thinking about sex all the time and was a lot more productive at work. After three months I knew I was chemically castrated. I couldn’t believe that my thrusting, fucking, jerking days had come to an end. My limp dick was small, shaved and useless. I was chemically castrated against my will. I will never be the same again. My penis will never be the same again.