I was married 10 years when I got caught red handed. My wife came home early and caught me sucking Stephen our 18 year old neighbor from next door. I had sucked other guys before and had masturbated regularly. Needless to say, my wife was shocked and upset.

Stephen ran out of the house and I was left alone to cope with her wrath. She told me to tell her about all my masturbation and extramarital sex immediately. I was in shock from being caught and I told her about sucking other guys and jerking off 4-5 times a day. I also told her that I used a prostate stimulator from time to time in my jerk off sessions.

Then she looked me in the eye and declared: “I want all of your sexual activity outside of our marriage bed to stop right now. If you refuse, I will tell the neighbors about your sex with Stephen. I want nothing to do with you sexually for a long time. You have broken my heart. If you want save your marriage and your reputation you will have to stop all sexual activity unless I give you permission. “

I quickly agreed. I told her how sorry I was and that I would do anything to make it right. She laughed and told me that she was going to chemically castrate me to make sure I remained faithful to her. She cupped my balls and said: “We are going to shut down these nasty balls. Soon you will no longer be able to get regular sexual release.”

She called her brother Dr. George Mills and told him about my problem. He told her to drive to his office with me right away. When we arrived he was ready.

“Sis, the quickest way to make a man impotent is to give him an anti-depressant drug like Lexapro and an anticonvulsant like Primidone. The Lexapro is given for depression and the Primidone is given for the slight tremor he has in his hand. The primidone and lexapro will quickly stop his ability to orgasm. In addition I am giving him a double dose of Androcur right now a tablet in the morning and evening from now on. You must make sure that he takes all the medication.” Then he numbed my penis and my prostrate.

I couldn’t believe what was happening to me. I felt like a trapped animal. I was addicted to the intense pleasure of orgasm and my wife was taking it away. When we got home my wife told me to shower and shave off my sex hair. “You have a little firecracker of a dick that is about to become a dud. Your little thing is going to get smaller without erections. Your shaved groin will be a reminder that I took your manhood away from you.”

While I was showering and shaving, she went onto the internet and found a study on Primidone. She printed it out. Then when I came out of the shower, she laid it on the bed. I couldn’t believe what I was reading.

A Scientific Study found that:

“Many antiepileptic drugs (AEDs) produce sexual impairments. Of commonly prescribed AEDs, primidone produces the greatest impairments. Here we examined the effects of primidone on male rat sexual behavior. Sexually-experienced male rats received administration of either vehicle or primidone. After baseline measures were obtained, the effects of daily primidone treatment on home cage sexual performance were assessed three times over the course of 14 days. Motor activity and sucrose preference were also assessed during this time period. Results indicate that primidone impaired copulation but not sexual motivation. Specifically, animals receiving primidone displayed fewer ejaculations, required more time to achieve an intromission, and displayed fewer intromissions per attempted mount as evidenced by a lower intromission ratio. However, animals treated with primidone also chose a goal box containing a sexually-receptive female in an x-maze as often as animals receiving vehicle. The lower intromission ratio suggests an inability to achieve intromissions perhaps as a result of impaired erectile function. Primidone did not affect motor activity or sucrose consumption, an additional measure of natural reward. Together, these data indicate that primidone impairs male sexual activity and suggest that these impairments result primarily from changes in erectile function and not changes to mechanisms mediating motivation.”

I went to bed and felt horny even though my cock and prostate were numb.

When I woke up my wife told me that I had her permission to jerk off anytime in our bed. “Just call before you jerk if I am not at home.”

I jerked off when I came home from work. It took me about 10 minutes. My usual time was 2-3 minutes.

Over the next few days I noticed changes in my sex life. First, my dick would not get hard. I had to jerk it limp. I also noticed that it was taking longer and longer for me to reach orgasm. Then one morning it happened. I jerked off for 40 minutes before I felt that I was close to shooting. But the orgasm never came. I ejaculated some fluid out but it felt no more pleasurable than a piss.

After three weeks I couldn’t orgasm at all. It didn’t matter what time of day it was. I still had sexual anhedonia.

My pleasure went from 5 stars to no stars.

As the months went by my libido decreased until I didn’t think about it as much. But I still try to jerk off a couple of times a week and I can’t orgasm. The only small pleasure I can get is when my wife inserts the anal vibrator into my anus. I can’t believe that she chemically castrated me. I miss the bliss of orgasm.