October 24, 2007

Well here I am writing…and not knowing exactly how to start this. Hang with me here, I might wonder and stagger around with words and thoughts for a bit, until I get flowing good….

Stuff:

I don’t know if I told you, but we have quite a bit of leather cuffs, collars, headgear, gags (of all sorts) and of course a very large dildo (doesn’t everyone?). I also have many CBT related accessories, such as a heavy brass 2-piece collar that bolts around my nuts and has an attached eyebolt (for chaining or hooking ropes ..etc). Once in place, this device WILL NOT slip off unexpectedly…if it ever was to come off, the testicles that once were contained by it would most certainly be a mass of jell-o. I have also devised over the years a few hand-made CBT instruments that you will find interesting. Once I made a collar that locked around my nuts and had a dog training shock collar unit built into it. Once it was put on and locked, each testicle rested on top of once of the unit’s electrodes. The “trainer” had a wireless remote that had 3 different shock levels. Each level could be administered either as a pulse or a continuous 4 second output. I still have it…My wife could never get herself to use it….AND it just really ain’t no fun shocking yourself! (lol). I also have at least one 6” long 16ga spinal needles left out of a box of 10. I’ll order more…believe it or not, my wife CAN shove a 6” spike through both of my nuts and out the other side! I also have various lengths of rope, chain and a number of pad locks and combination locks. We can do an inventory at some point if you’re interested in going any further with this.

History:

As far back as I can remember, I have always fantasized about extreme submission. Submission that is gained by intense physical stimulation (some might call this “pain”) coupled with helplessness, fear and ultimately a realization that I am completely incapable of controlling, preventing or changing what is happening or what will happen to me. I hope you understand where I am coming from here….the first time I experienced this in real life was about 10 years ago. It was like a drug and I was an addict the first time I took it!

We had a girlfriend who had been a porn-star, and at the time was a headline exotic dancer in Phoenix. She knew my desires to be dominated, and one day she tied me down…and well let’s say she went “ape-shit” on me! I really didn’t know what she was going to do next…but I did know that it scared the fuck out of me. You gotta understand that this girl was constantly getting in trouble, sometimes with the law, because she would act without considering the consequences of what she was doing…until after she did it and was reflecting on it, or in a few cases was running from the sheriff. At one point, she had grabbed a set of tree pruning shears and had my dick locked in the jaws. Judging from the look on her face and the glare in her eyes and the base of my cock throbbing sticking out between the curved blades of the shears…I really and truly thought that I would loose my cock that night! She had me stretched out so tight on the floor, cuffed with D-ring leather cuffs that were padlocked on…there was no way I was stopping whatever she wanted to do. Fear, anxiety and…..shit at that moment I realized that I had never in my life ever been that turned-on! Suddenly, the fear was gone, even the stinging pain from the base of my cock was gone and a very odd calm came across my whole body. I had realized that I could not prevent what was going on and almost instantly accepted the situation. She could’ve closed the shears…but she didn’t.

I was hooked. Since then, there have been probably 3 or 4 times that I’ve been to that state of mind. Twice with my wife…but let me tell ya it takes a lot, but not too much tequila to get my wife to the point of really dominating me.

Bi-Sexuality:

I have realized since high school that I have an interest in cock. Late in high school I would hookup with guys, mostly anonymously in parks, in the dark…but that was way back before the HIV epidemic. You can’t do that now. I discovered (surprise) that I only had a desire to “service” some else…never wanted anyone to get me off. I figured out that what I really wanted was to be used and the ultimate fantasy was to be forced to suck or be fucked. Well…it’s kinda hard to get this type of scene from someone you don’t know….I may have a really far out there sex drive, but I’m not a complete idiot. Letting a complete stranger tie you up and fuck you can quickly lead to your death! So it’s pretty much remained a fantasy when it comes to a male and complete domination. My wife did have me bound once and told me to suck a guy she was going to have sex with….but again that was about 6 years ago and he had a condom…which is a real bummer, ‘cause I really love to suck every drop from a rock hard cock….since high school, it all ends up in a condom. My wife and I slept with a another married couple last year, he fucked the shit out of her for an hour without a condom…we were in a hotel in a town a little south of here, as soon as they left, My wife made me lick her clean…and told me not to loose a drop! THAT really fuckin turns me on too!

You and I?:

I really am not sure exactly how it should go. I kinda gather from talking to you, as well as a few posting that I read on the Yahoo Group that you have experience at being dom. From what I can tell (before meeting you) is that you seem to be someone that I could be involved with as a sub/slave. Since we chatted first a couple of weeks ago, I went and checkout an old farm house on my 500 acre farm. With a few eye-bolts here and there, it would be the perfect location for a dungeon-playroom. I’ve fantasized about the first time I will take you there to show it to you….

We walk around the yard and check out the house and the two barns. Meandering in the back door to the kitchen the floor creeks as we step up, you look around and I show you the 4 or 5 eye bolts that I already screwed into the walls. Four in a spread eagle pattern with another one about 6 feet out from the wall in the ceiling You study it for a few moments, then turn to me and say “Alright, I’ll accept your request to be trained by me, but only for a probationary period. After the probation, I will consider your worthiness, performance and my satisfaction with you. There will be no negotiations, you will either accept these conditions or we forget it…”

1. The initial probation period is 60 days,

2. You will be available to me for an extended session of at least 2 hours with only 8 hours notice. Any delay past the 8 hours will require a sever penalty to prevent defaulting this probation.

3. You will provide your body to me for whatever I desire. NO EXCEPTIONS or LIMITATIONS.

4. At anytime that I desire I can drive to your farm and find you or I can call you from the playhouse and you WILL IMMEDIATELY come to the house to service me or anyone else I should desire. This type of encounter will only require you to either suck my cock dry, cleanly removing all of my cum or you will eagerly provide your tight ass for my cock. Once I have been serviced, you may return to your farm work.

5. You will provide to me some type of evidence of our involvement in this relationship. Either a signed document or a photograph(s) of you sucking my cock or both. I will retain possession of this package. It will be used, at my sole discretion, should you materially fail to complete the 60 day period.

Of course I accepted your proposal. You then instruct me to undress and sternly say “We begin now!” I’m already about to bust…my nuts are tender and aching from the buildup. Pushing down on my head you force me to the floor on my knees, pulling up on my chin with your fingers…forcing my head back. You wrap a collar around my stretched out neck and begin…”In the next few days I will instruct you on how to respect and behave in my presence. I will instruct you on how my cock should be sucked, and how to prepare and provide your ass for me to fuck. After you have been trained on the basics, I will begin my experimentation on you. I will be sharpening my torture techniques and inventing new ones. I will likely photograph what I am doing to you. I will use any photographs however I wish, and they will not be returned to you. I will search and discover the limit of your ability to contain your emotions; however, when you fail to contain yourself…the stimulation will be increased until you learn how to accept my desires willfully at whatever level I deem appropriate.

I will make you no guarantees, in fact I will tell you before we start, what I am going to do to you may, in fact, destroy your testicles. I have no plans to remove them; however, since I have no limitations, should I evolve in my torture techniques and develop a desire to castrate you, I will. Since castration is something that you fantasize about and truly desired for many years…if I decide to remove them, and castrate you, then your probationary period is automatically complete. The only catch is that you will permanently be my personal cumsucking bitch… FOREVER!

I WILL hurt you. I will BREAK you. You WILL submit to me and be a slave TO me or FOR me. This is your last chance, do you still want to continue?”

Like I can say anything but “Yes!”

At the moment my vocal cords complete uttering the sounds, you suddenly swoop down and grab my low hanging balls. In a single motion you clasp your fist between my body and both testicles. With all of your strength, you jerk upward pulling my knees out from under the weight of my body. I fall back landing on my back. My legs spread at the knees and my sac stretched a full 8” from my body, my nuts yearning to escape their ties to my body! You look me in the eyes and yell “First lesson, cumsucker, it’s ‘YES, FUCKIN’ SIR!”

“Now that we have the preliminary shit done and out of the way, we’ll end today’s lesson with my cock in your face. This arrangement might just turn out to be fun. On your knees, and I want it all the way in.” I place myself facing you waiting for you to give me your cock…which I can see mounding under your jeans. “What the fuck are you waiting for…do you think that I should get it out for you? When you suck MY cock, you get it out, properly suck it until I empty my precious cum into your mouth. Swallow every fuckin’ drop. Lick it clean., then put it back….understand bitch?”

I carefully unzip and reveal your throbbing cock and slowly lick around the rim of its head. Lightly sucking the precum dripping from its tip… savoring its sweatness. Gently moving my mouth over its mushrooming head… “Okay, I said I wanted my cock sucked, not fucking made love too….” You grab the hair on the back of my head and simultaneously thrust your hips forward ramming ½ the length down my throat on the first thrust. Stunned, I gasp for a breath. You pull back and thrust again…this time I’m ready. Swallowing as you force your way into my mouth, your throbbing shaft slips past the back of my mouth, prying against the walls of my throat to find a pathway down. “Aye, YES there you go!” Realizing that I just took most of your cock, you pull back to make another assault….I take a quick breath...you attack even harder, pulling my head towards your manhood and slam your hips at my face. “Yep that’s it you fucker…Umm, aye..there we go!” Your whole member is firmly planted to its base in my throat. You pump a few times and thrust again and again. I can feel you building and building. I can feel your testicles bouncing on their cords. Your legs begin to tense. Just as you begin to deliver the first taste of your seed, you pull back. Your throbbing mushroom planted firmly above my tongue. Its warmth makes your explode, heaving massive amounts of your life into my mouth. “Don’t fuckin’ swallow it yet. Keep it in your mouth! I want to see my cumsucking bitch with her mouth full of my cum! Open it!” Pulling my head back, I open to reveal your creamy white cum coating my tongue and teeth, sliding back towards my throat. “Swallow it!” Of course I obey immediately. Swallowing, I take a gasp for air. “Yes, Sir. Thank You!”

“Get up and get dressed. Oh I forgot to tell you. You will never have an orgasm in my presence. I will be the only one being satisfied. You go home and fuck your wife, or hell beat your meat for all I care…just don’t fucking EVER get off here…If I catch you cumin’ here; I will smash both of your testicles, one at a time, with a sledge hammer! Then, YOU WILL fuckin’ beg me to cut’em off!”

“Since our deal is signed & sealed, now its time to deliver. Oh, by the way, I have my evidence already. See that box in the window? That’s my DVD Camcorder. I’ll check it when I get home, but I’m pretty sure that I got all of it from the time we walked in the door. If ya don’t live up to our deal, the whole freakin’ world’s…nope…just everyone that you know, is gonna know what your REALLY into!”

Wow, its all falling in place. Now there is a price to pay and a reason to fulfill my obligation. I clearly utter, “Yes, Sir. I understand. I will not disappoint you and will do my very best to live up to your expectations of me. Thank You Sir.”

“Now get up and leave. I will contact you by email to instruct you on what needs to be done to this house to make it suit my needs. I will be in touch….Remember, you only have 8 hours to be here!”

Okay, that was the first time I’ve ever written something like that! I’ve read some stories like than, but never written it down myself. There’s more that I can tell ya, but I will send this so you don’t get tired of waiting for it.

Please let me know what you think.

October 26, 2007

Continued from earlier…

Later that evening I checked my email, and there it was…a message from you. I opened it with anticipation of what adventures it would lead to. The message contained very little “fluff” and got straight to the point.

For our next meeting you will need to purchase the following items:

5 3” Eye Bolts (lag-screw type)

1 8’ 6x6 wooden post

4 Adjustable Nylon Cargo Straps

1 Block & Tackle Hoist with Nylon Rope

1 3” Nylon Large Dog Collar (22” long)

Once you have the materials, follow these instructions:

In the dinning room of the old farm house, place the wooden post in the middle of the room. Using 2 3” wood screws with washers, attach the dog collar to the one end of the post, at the highest point above the floor. Attach the collar so that the buckle is 4” from the first screw. Then lay down on top of the post and spread-eagle, noting the direction each of your limbs go. Extend the line of each of your limbs by 4 feet and place an eye-bolt into the floor at each location. Place the 5th eye bolt into the rafter beam closest to the point directly above your crotch. Hang the block & tackle rig from this eye-bolt.

You have 24 hours to complete this task. Email me when you have finished. When I instruct you to go there, you will need to bring 4 of your leather D-ring locking cuffs, 4 pad locks, one of your leather ball gags, your brass ball cuff, and a box of 10 spinal needles.

This task of course only took me about ½ day to complete. Sent the email and received an answer almost immediately. I was told to be there at 2pm the next day. The email instructed me to go to the house, once inside I was to remove my clothes and place them in a bag outside the back door. Put on the ball cuff and wait for your arrival.

You arrived at about 2:15. Opening the back door, you didn’t say a word. Walked around the room and checked for the items I was instructed to bring. I had laid everything out in a neat orderly fashion. You simply smiled, then sternly looked at me and said, “Get on the board.”

Grabbing the D-ring cuffs and pad locks, you securely wrapped one around each of my wrists and ankles. Then pad-locked the ring from one end of the nylon cargo straps to each leather cuff, hooking the other end of the straps to the eye-bolts in the floor. Slowly you walk around taking the slack out of each strap, but not too tight at first. You stand-up and inspect your work so far, then step toward my head, kneeling above and behind me. You grasp my head on each side and pull firmly toward you until my neck is stretched tightly over the end of the post. At that point you reach around and buckle the collar tight, but just before the point that it begins to choke me. My head is thrust backward and out making it impossible for me to move without restricting my ability to breathe.

Then you make your final pass around to each of the eye-bolts. At each position you stop and pull with a considerable force. Each tug draws my body tighter and tighter to the floor. When you’re satisfied I have been properly bound, you connect the block & tackle to my balls…and remove the slack from its connection to the ceiling.

You step away and admire your work once again…and begin to undress. As you’re removing your clothes you finally begin to talk to me… “Okay my little cumsucker, today we are going to have our first test of your cock sucking techniques. We are going to see exactly how well you can concentrate on sucking my cock while you are being stimulated in other ways. The goal here is for you to suck my rock-hard cock WITHOUT allowing me to feel your teeth. Failure of course will have to be punished.

Each time I feel your teeth on my cock, I will insert a 6” needle through both of your testicles. We only have 10, so I’ll have to think of something after I get all of them through your nuts!” Suddenly you reach for the end of the block & tackle rope and pull. The strain stretches my testicles toward the ceiling and lifts my ass about 2” off of the post. You tie the end of the rope to one of the eye bolts and kneel above my head, your cock resting on my face. “Okay you little bitch, suck it, but this time you’d better “make love to it” or …well it isn’t going to matter anyway…either way I’m going to make swiss cheese out of your nuts!” Suck it!” You slide your throbbing cock into my mouth. I can’t move my head, so you move you pump. My nuts are stretched at least 8 or 10” out of my body, straining to remain attached. “Oh shit, that was a tooth!” You jab a needle through one testicle..meeting a little resistance, you puch harder until it appears coming out the other side. I feel the dull burning ache as it passed through. “Let’s try that again!” You position yourself so that you have a clear shot, inline with my mouth and throat. This time you place the blossoming head of your manhood in the opening of my mouth and lean forward, placing your hands on my hip bones. “Gee…I hope this doesn’t hurt you!” and you push your cock down my open throat using my hips as leverage, of course my hips are suspended from the ceiling by my balls. I can feel a ripping sensation coming from inside my pubic area. The cords of my nuts are being pulled to their limits…maybe today we’ll find what those limits are! “Damn, I think I felt a lot of teeth that time!” You pull out and begin inserting needles. Some you place side to side, but 2 needles you insert from front to back, one in each testicle. Soon I have all 10 needles rammed through my balls. “Humm I guess I’ll have to improvise, I’m out of spears!...Tell ya what, I’ll give you a little help.” You unbuckle the collar allowing my head to move. “Now suck it dry bitch!”

You throw your leg over my chest, resting a good portion of your weight on me…driving my body further away from nuts. But now I can get your cock down my throat…you begin to pump harder and harder. I had noticed the first time I had your cock that it seemed to really grow as you were about to explode…more so than I had ever noticed on anyone else. This time it seemed to swell even more…to the point that it was filling up my throat. I could feel you beginning to seal your shaft into my neck…I gasped quickly for a final deep breath. As your spasms rolled down the shaft of your cock, I could feel it massage the inside of my throat. I could sense the force as you’re cum blasts through my esophagus on its way to my stomach. You realize that I’m running out of air and pull back, the suction of your withdrawal pulls a string of cum out with your cock, just enough to bring a taste of your cream into my mouth.

Satisfied, you now turn toward me and begin pulling needles out. One needle at a time. Very slowly. As each one pulls free, a squirt of brownish liquid burst free and rolls down my crotch.

…to be continued