Eddie braced himself for the inevitable as his small penis was clamped inside the penectomy device he and his girlfriend had built for this occasion. He looked at his recently-satisfied cum-glistened male organ, and smiled at its upcoming fate. He didn't know precisely the very second his girlfriend would release the blade, freeing him from his small-cocked prison, but he feverishly anticipated the finality of the act when the blade would drop and decisivley, permanently, remove his miniature manhood from his body. He climaxed powerfully whenever he dreamed of this occasion, as he was now shooting the load he presumed was his last.

As he awaited the moment the cold steal would cut through his penis when his girlfriend released the blade during a consensual act of penectomy, Eddie reflected on his life and the events that led up to this circumstance. His small penis had been the cause of his unhappiness and embarrassment all his life, and he and his girlfriend had devised a way to relieve him of his deficiency.

As he reflected, Eddie's mind centered on school where it seemed to all begin so long ago.

Eddie's first day of school that day was the worst day of his life. At age 12, he'd been advanced by the middle school administration from the sixth grade to the eighth grade because his achievement scores were vastly superior and advanced in comparison with other children his age. So when he should normally have been starting school with kids his age, he was now thrown into the hormonal whirlpool and near riot conditions of pubescent boys and all the male bravado and competitive posturing that represents.

When Eddie's mother dropped him off at the middle school, she simply say "Bye," and drove away. When he stepped out of the car, he saw another mom hugging her son and bidding him a good day before departing. Eddie so envied that open affection (even though the other boy didn't want his mom hugging and kissing him in front of all his peers), Eddie would just die for maternal attention like that!

His family was intact, but his father was religiously rigid and austere. He forbade his mother to show open affection to Eddie and his two brothers because he didn't want her to make them "Sissies and mama's boys." The boys were all forced to eat their meals in silence at the dinner table, and weren't allowed to make boys noise in the house at all. They weren't encouraged to play sports and their friendships were all under the watchful eyes of their parents 24/7. The boys were encouraged to pursue academic excellence, and Eddie excelled at this more than his two older brothers. When it came time to clue the boys in on physcial changes in their bodies due to puberty, the "Talk" consisted of warnings against masturbating or obsession on sexual things. The family was big into denial of all things bodily and sexual, and the "talk" was distant, clinical and uninteresting. Eddie remembered his father warning the boys that if they pleasured themselves in bed, their penis would disappear into their bodies. Worried that he wouldn't be able to pee if that happened, Eddie never touched himself there. He threw himself into his studies and academic puruits to keep his mind off of things that came natural to a boy.

It was this very academic achievement that prompted the school administration to advance Eddie two grades even though they recognized that he was fully capable, intellectually, of being enrolled in his second or third year of high school. The only reason they settled on the eighth grade was due to concerns that Eddie wasn't emotionally prepared for high school as yet.

When gym class arrived, the boys were all suited out for physical education, which meant they had to undress in the locker room for class. Once class was over, they were herded back into the locker room for their showers. This is when Eddie's humiliation and embarrassment began. The older boys were obviously well into their puberty years. At aged 13 and 14, their male parts were already noticably larger than Eddie's, and all of them, to a boy, were already growing pubic hair. Some of the boys even had ample bushes of hair under their arms. Feeling the scorn and scrutiny of nearly even boy in the shower room, Eddie slipped his gym clothes off, pulled his underwear down, and made his way into the showers. His underdeveloped penis was drawn close to his body with only the tiny pink little head actually showing. His scrotum was drawn tight to his crotch and was not even visible. He had no pubic hair at all: just soft, white fuzz on his abdomen and crotch.

The hooting and hollering and jokes and ridicule began immediately.

"Hey Eddie," one boy shouted, "the girl's locker room is in the other building." Other boys pointed and laughed as they showed off their own growth and manhood. Eddie showered in silence amidst the laughter and ridicule and even began to be thankful that the shower water drenched him so thoroughly as he had begun to cry. If they saw his boyish immature body, at least they wouldn't be able to see his tears!

At the height of gawking, joking and scorn, when the other boys followed their classmate to his locker and kept up the banter over his small penis and nearly non-existant masculinity, a large 14-year-old boy named Sam stood between Eddie's tormentors and him and with a look of contempt and disapproval, actually shutting the other boys up cold! Sam, himself still naked from his shower, was taller than Eddie, had a good bush of pubic hair, was endowed with enviable maleness for a 14-year-old, and provided Eddie the privacy and opportunity to get dressed without further ridicule from the other boys.

When he was dressed, Sam simply asked him, "You okay?" Eddie nodded, but Sam's intervention had caused him to be so grateful he wanted to be Sam's friend right away. After school, however, Eddie found out what Sam really wanted. He was a predator and preyed on smaller kids than himself in order to get his rocks off at their expense.

Sam invited Eddie to his house after school and escorted the smaller boy into the garage, when he said, "Let's see if we can do something to your cock to make it grow a little and save you some embarrassment in the gym."

As Eddie trustingly watched, the older boy undid his pants and slipped his underwear off. He made a show of examining Eddie's little penis and testicle sack. Eddies scrotum was small and the skin very thin. His underdeveloped testicles were the size of ladyfinger grapes. Sam began to stroke Eddie's penis with no results. Then Sam got undressed and laid Eddie back on a bench in the garage and wet his finger with his tongue. He then began to probe Eddie's little "doodee" hole (a word his mother used to describe poop). The penetration hurt Eddie, but he went along with it because Sam had been his protector. Then Sam stroked his own penis to an erection and slowly, but steadily, pushed it into Eddie's doodee hole. Eddie began to tense and involuntarily resisted Sam's invading penis. Within seconds, it seemed, Sam's body convulsed as he breathed heavily and groaned loudly. Eddie felt as though his doodee hole would rip wide open and he began to cry. He'd never felt this compacted, this full, this backed up as Sam pumped his adolescent juice into the innocent victim's anus and rectum.

When Sam was done, he grabbed a pair of scissors off the work bench and placed Eddie's little penis between the blades, threatening him, "If you tell anyone about this, I'll cut it off!" With that, Eddie was allowed to dress and go home.

Once there, his mother asked him how the first day of school went, and lying, Eddie said, "Fine" and rushed up to his room where he wept for several minutes before regaining his composure. He went into the bathroom and pulled his pants down and attempted to see if Sam had caused any injuries to his doodee hole. He hadn't, but Eddie still felt as though he would burst. He also felt ashamed. But there was something else he felt: when the cold, sharp blades of those scissors pinched into the tender skin of his little penis, Eddie felt an unfamiliar thrill and shameful expectation of the finality of Sam's threat, should he ever tell on him. He was inexplicably excited by that act!

Sam was cold hearted and distant from Eddie from that day on, having gotten from him what he wanted from him. But because the other boys in gym class expected Sam to defend Eddie again, they left the smaller boy alone. An uneasy truce descended upon the gym class boys and Eddie was able to survive the bad experience of his premature eighth year in school. Before the year was up, Eddie began to grow a small amount of pubic hair on both his crotch and under his arms, but it never matched the growth of the other boys, and Eddie wasn't inclined to have contests for comparison, even though he was glad to finally have pubes growing.

Eddie focused on his studies while ther other boys excelled in sports.

In high school, a girl took a liking to Eddie. Her named was Sarah. She asked the shy boy out, and ended up driving them as he was too young to have a driver's license. She also initiated some hot making out in the car as they parked on a secluded road. Eddie had no idea what to do with this girl, so he slipped his hand down her pants and found her bottom, where he proceded to slip his finger into her doodee hole as Sam had done his years previously. Sarah said, "Not there, Eddie, here!" and moved his hand toward her bushy pubic mound, positioning his finger in her slit and saying, "Feel that little lump there? That's my girl dick. I want you to rub that gently because it turns me on."

Girl dick. Maybe that's what Eddie had! It made sense to him.

Dutifully, Eddie complied and Sarah got aroused. She began to undo his pants and, pulling them down, attempted to find his missing-in-action arousal. When she saw his micro-penis, and noted that it wasn't hard at all, Sarah said sarcastically, "Don't you think I'm attractive?"

"Oh yes," Eddie responded.

"Then how come you're not hard like all the other boys?"

Eddie's heart sank. If there was ever any chance of him getting aroused with Sarah, her insult caused his penis to retract so far into his body, it would never see the light of day again!

Getting dressed again, Sarah said, "What happened to you? Did someone cut it off?"

Her insult hit Eddie in the chest like a rock, but it also slightly thrilled him! The idea of having his penis cut off was the only surge of excitement that night. Sarah dropped him off at home and they never dated again.

Because Eddie's family was into big-time denial of all things bodily, his parents never took him to the doctor to find out why his penis was so small and unresponsive. They didn't want to incur the expense of a battery of tests that would do nothing more than tell them what they already knew: that he had a micro-penis that probably would never function as it was initially designed to do.

Eddie was recruited by all the best universities in the country, and he finally won a full-ride scholarship at one of the most prestigious ones in the nation, where he solved problems in quantum physics and mathematics. Once out of the house and away from his parents' abiding scorn, Eddie made an appointment with a doctor to learn why he couldn't perform like a male and didn't develop like a man.

After several tests, which included an ultra-sound of his genitals, the doctor informed Eddie that his penis had about one-third of the erectile tissue of a normal man. He explained that when a man became sexually aroused, blood engorges in the erectile tissue of his penis and the heightened heart rate due to sexual excitement pumps vast amounts of blood into the penis. In Eddie's case, with so little erectile tissue, there was a remote chance he'd ever get a full sized erection. Also, due to the smaller mass of the penis itself, it would hug Eddie's body closely all his life, and poke out just enough from his small pubic patch to allow him to pee. Other than that, the doctor said it was a birth defect that Eddie would have to learn to live with.

"Your penis is essentially just a uretha tube to convey urine out of the body," the doctor said. "Without the erectile tissue I described, your penis may not ever be fully-functional."

He prescribed some male-enhancement medication, and suggested Eddie view porn to stimulate him physically, but short of surgery, Eddie would have to accept his diminished penile presence and deny himself the enjoyment of his cock.

But because of his previous unexplained excitment at the threat of having his penis cut off, Eddie began to have fantasies about penectomy in a number of ways. Whenever he did, he became aroused more than at any time in his life. His small penis grew about two inches upon arousal, and he was able to masturbate himself to a climax. He mentally devised several ways to sever his cock, and became more and more elaborate in his penectomy play as his only release sexually. But after awhile, his solo-penectomy play became really boring.

In his early 20s, Eddie met and became attracted to a co-ed named Lilly and they began to date. Eddie counted off the time when they would become intimate and he would have to somehow tell her of his fantasies as they only way he could get off. To his great surprise, Lilly was into some really heavy stuff sexually, and got right in to the penectomy play in earnest. She would often initiate the role play and devised many methods and means of relieving Eddie of his penis. She teasted him about castration and penectomy, and pretended to be a nurse with a knife about to release him from his small-cock prison. Eddie became powerfully aroused at the role play, and was actually able to penetrate Lilly man to woman for the first time in his life. He climaxed almost immediately, and when she saw his cum dripping from her lovely woman slit, she put a blade to his penis and said, "Prepare to meet your doom, little dick!" Eddie shot another wad of cum at that threat.

As their relationship grew, Eddie persuaded Lilly to allow him to penetrate her doodee hole. "Only if you let me cut it off afterwards," she teased. He blew his wad right then and there. Lilly also showed Eddie how to push his cock into his abdomen, tape up his scrotum and prance around like another woman with a hairless crotch. This excited Eddie to no end, visually seeing what his crotch would look like without a cock hanging there.

During more sober moments, Eddie reflected on the irony that they only way he could enjoy his penis was to imagine he was losing it. While it gave him some pleasure, he also recalled that it was the source and cause of much embarassment and despair in his life.

So, starting out playfully at first, then more seriously as Lilly got into his role play and fantasies, Eddie began to ask her how they would really go about cutting it off permanently. Lilly responded that if he was going to really "get it off," they needed to do it in a ritualistic way that both of them planned for, looked forward to, and were responsible for. She didn't want to go to jail for removing a man's member, and Eddie had to give his full and complete consent for his penectomy before she'd proceed. Eddie consented, and they set a date for his penectomy.

As the day approached, and the couple became horrendously aroused at the upcoming penis removal, they engaged in some powerfully satisfying sex, intercourse, and doodee-hole penetration. Lilly bought and modified a cigar cutter that would hold a male penis. She told Eddie that once he'd climaxed his last time, she would clamp his soon-to-be-removed penis into the device, and then pronounce sentence. As he grew aroused again, she would release the blade, which would then slice off his little penis in one pass as though it was a cigar to be tipped by the smoker.

Eddie got off on this talk powerfully, and begged Lilly to cut his penis off before their agreed-upon day. She refused, telling him that having to wait for penectomy made the actual deed much more desirable and expectant.

"If you want me to, I'll cut your little balls off too," Lilly offered, exciting Eddie more than he'd ever been in his life.

"What will you do with my manhood then?" He asked.

"I'll coat them with decorative resin and make an exotic necklace with them," she said. "Your genitals will be hanging around my neck out in the open for everyone to see and comment on!" Needless to say, Eddie was powerfully excited about this prospect, because if his penis hung around Lilly's neck, it would certainly be doing more "hanging" than it did from his crotch!

When the day arrived, Eddie and Lilly were getting it on feverishly in bed as he kept eying the cigar cutter on the nightstand. He loved it as much as he loved Lilly's lovely love slit and he get her off stimulating her "girl dick," and then climaxed powerfully for what he expected to be his last time. She had already shaved his sparse pubic hair and had administered an enema before their lovemaking so that Eddie wouldn't "Shit the bed," when his cock was cut off, as Lilly unceremoniously put it.

Then, dutifully and methodically, Lilly got up from the bed and ordered Eddie to present his cock for execution. He obeyed. She clamped to shrinking male member into the modified cigar tipper/penis guillotine, and asked him if he had any final words. He didn't, he only stared at the tool of his lifelong torment clamped in the cock guillotine and wished for the moment of its excision.

Lilly then pronounced sentence. "I hereby sentence this unworthly penis to destruction by way of penectomy. I hereby take possession and ownership of said male organ, and will heretofore keep it on a necklace around my neck in full naked public view for people to see and comment on. Be it known that the impending severence of this penis is a consensual act, and that the owner wishes to rid himself of said organ in accordance to his agreed-upon submission to the beautiful blade of his liberation."

As she spoke, Eddie's micro-penis began to grow again as he relished in the excitment and arousal of his pending penectomy. He loved the thought of losing this thing that he had grown to hate. He remembered Sam's threat with the scissors, and Sarah's comment that someone had "cut it off." He was aroused and excited that a woman would be doing the cutting. He was thrilled that she would make it a public display, even though he had been publicly insulted by its small size so often in his life. He braced himself for the severence act, and began to hyper-ventilate as the full knowledge of this consensual act was driven home to his mind. He stood there fully aware of his nakeness, his throbbing micro-penis, and his consensual shame and humiliation. He looked Lilly's ravishing nude body over, felt a surge and burst of lust welling up in his chest, and the overwhelming convergence of visual, physical, and psychological stimulation all flooding him simultaneously. As anticipation and expectation grew, and the dangerous erotic reality of this planned consensual penectomy grew, Eddie heaved as his forehead broke out in a sweat. Even though he wished that this moment could last indefinately enveloping him in these sensations forever, the moment had arrived.

Eddie shot a wad of cum as Lilly released the blade.