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Ken dropped by for an appointment today. I meet him often, tho it
turned out this meeting was different. When Ken came in, both he
and Peter, his son were dressed in pin-stripe suits.
I think this is getting out of hand but out of friendship for Ken I
intend to hear them out.
Tongue tangled Ken starts. I think you know the subject. You
have been a real friend. Really I dont want to impose. You
know how much I love my family.
I can see he is struggling with this Since that night we havent
been afraid to be honest with each other. Come on, out with it.
The relief washes over Kens face. Peter wants to be castrated.
Peter do you now why you came to this decision
Well I have Ferri syndrome which is genetic. I have the dominant
and recessive gene which means that with care I will live to about
50. The worst is that half my kids would be dominant-dominant and
would die a horrible death. The other half will be like me. I
cant have normal kids, I dont need my testicles.
You could have a vasectomy and use donated sperm for your
children I say.
Elizabeth and I are planning artificial insemination.
But its more than that?
Thats true Peter says but its kinda personal.
Its a serious decision, humor me
You will keep it confidential?
Of course
Well Elizabeth was raped when she was 14. It was particularly
brutal. She has been in therapy for years but she still becomes
almost catatonic at the sight of a naked man.
I understand. That kind of violence is particularly horrible.
It was worse for Elizabeth. He made her suck his testicles while
he beat her senseless.
She loves me and I love very much. I am empty and I ache at the
thought of being without her. We have worked with the therapist
for the last two years using desensitization and we made real
progress. Something more is needed to make a breakthrough
And you want to be castrated to help her I say
Peter nods, And to help me. We cant even sleep together. I
plan to take Hormone Replacement Therapy so that I can remain
sexually active. And I hope to be able to have sex with Elizabeth
one day.
Ken I understand why you chose to come to me. Assuming that I am
willing, have you thought through how it should be accomplished.
Peter says the clamp.
I laugh and as I comment havent seen one of those in years.
Since the new chemical castrators came along the only place you
could find one of those would be a museum. I see a whimsical
smile on Kens face. He reaches down and picks up his gym duffel
and hands me a perfectly serviceable burdizzo. The paperwork
indicates that it was purchased from a small Iowa museum. I can
see that Ken approves and thats when I know I will do it.
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We have chosen an intimate bedroom setting for Peters
castration. Elisabeth is siting in the chair as Peter enters
dressed in a full-length bathrobe. He noticed that Elizabeth is
nerves and carefully tightened the belt pulling the robe tighter.
OK, Peter I think you understand what we will be doing, but I
would like to explain for Elizabeths benefit. Peter nods.
Now, Elizabeth, I understand that your therapist has suggested
that your being here when Peter is castrated will be of benefit.
Are you ready and do you feel comfortable.
I I I think so. Peter is doing this to help me. I have mixed
feelings, I love Peter so much for what he is doing and I dont
want to hurt him. Peters eyes begin to tear I love you
Elizabeth
Using anatomical charts Elizabeths therapist provided I begin.
Basically the procedure is to crush the cords to Peters
testicles. The testicles will then atrophy and disappear.
Elizabeth nods Inside the inner covering the cord contains the
nerve of the testicle the vas, artery, and lymphatic vessels.
These will crushed by the instrument.
I pick up the emasculator. The instruments all use some sort of
mechanism to trap the cords. This particular one uses pins. Do
you see the pins here on each side of the jaws. Peter nods as
Elizabeth looks at the clamp. The purpose of the pins is to
penetrate the scrotum so the cord cannot slip from between the jaws
as the clamp closes. The clamp and cords must be positioned
carefully. If the pin punctures the artery or vein it can cause
internal bleeding.
Peter reaches for Elizabeths hand as she shakes slightly. In
order to do that I will manipulate the cords in Peters scrotum so
there are to the side. I will then place the clamp with the cord
properly positioned. When the clamp closes it will crush the
cord, which includes the nerve. Peter will feel a sharp pain when
that happens. Elizabeth shivers, but its important that she
know what to expect. The pain will diminish considerably when
the clamp is opened and it will only be closed for about 30
seconds.
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Peter is laying on the bed with a drape over his mid-section and
genitals. Elizabeth is siting at the head of the bed holding his
hand and stroking his hair. Working by feel under the drape I
position the cord of Peters right testicle. I close the clamp.
Peters body goes rigid but he makes no sound. Elizabeth tightens
her grip. I release the clamp. Peter would you like a minute
before I proceed. In a tight voice Peters says, Im fine lets
continue.
I begin working to position the clamp on the cord of Peters left
testicle. I work slowly. Peters says Elizabeth would you
please close the clamp on my last cord. Peter and the therapist
had told me to expect this. I excuse my self to allow Peter and
Elizabeth to talk.
I begin working to position the clamp on the cord of Peters left
testicle. There is a glow on his and Elizabeths faces. Are
you ready? I love you Elizabeth The clamp closes.
They hug, although still seperated by clothing and blankets, its a
new step on the road.
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I had a meeting with Brian today. Six months after the barn he
moved in with my family. That was the favor for Brian. I know
that Mr. Williams tried to honor my wishes but
I am proud of his accomplishments. A few years later Mr. Williams
died and Brian asked me to take over management of the estate.
That wasnt a surprise, but what was is that Brian also asked me to
set up a new corporation, Childhood Enterprises. Its a for
profit corporation dedicated to providing services to families and
children. In the first three years the Children and Protective
Services departments of most went out of business. Although its
not the most profitable corporation the benefits Brians company
provides are priceless.
When he first opened the doors it was to offer services to upper
tier dysfunctional families. One unique feature of his business
is that his services are contracted to the children and teens, not
the adults. As the company expanded into the urban environment
gang violence diminished and disappeared. Oh dont get me wrong
it was a difficult task. And many national level leaders from the
religious right and urban minority viciously attacked him
personally.
I admit Brians most difficult battle was stooping the mass
neuroleptic drugging of kids by doctors and schools. The use of
drugs to force fit kids to the establish view was killing a whole
generation. It looked like a loosing battle until I purchased
controlling interest in the top four drug companies using dummy
corporations. No Im not afraid to use power, I just hate those
who use it because they can. The scandals as the side effects and
the results of the long-term studies leaked out finally freed our
children.
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My son Jonathan just came in. Yup, pin stripe.
Dad we have decided to have me castrated. Judy and I have talked
about it a lot.
Jonathan you are an adult and I will support you in any way I can.
You know my marriage is quite balanced. We have decided that we
both will be home to raise our kids. Managing the business
enterprises is my task. We both want Judy to be the dominant one
for sex.
How many children have you planed?
Three, and we planed to use some of those deposits I made for
Patrick, there is more than enough.
Have you decided how I ask.
Yes, Judy will do it but we both want you to be there.
Of course He sits in my lap and I hug him. I know what some
people think of the image of a 22-year-old man siting in his
fathers lap, but he is my son and I love him.
Well thats my story. That night in the barn 44 years ago I had
no idea of the long association I would have with castration. Now
as I survey the changes in the world that night brought I cant but
wonder if there was a hidden purpose in it all. Me, I am content
as I prepare for retirement. And yes I agreed to the request of
family and friends to maintain a small office. I think my next
appointment is Evan, my grandson.
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